Posted on June 13, 2020
What was the hardest thing about having a mental illness like PTSD, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY?
I THINK it was the silence; when people discover that you suffer from mental illness, they don’t know what to say, and the conversation becomes rigid or they can become so far away.
I wish people would ask more about my emotions, I wish they would show an interest to know what I’m going through, I wish they would listen more than imply their minds on what they think I supposed to do. I wish they would allow me to share my experiences to feel that I don’t need to suffer alone. But as reality reveals, people are afraid of what they fear might come to them..
Rather than judgement within religious people that I am demonic, or judgement generally that I am an unhealthy and crazy person. In the sight of humanity, I was dehumanised.
What I discovered is that, due to my personal injuries many might not be as willing to talk as I am. As far as we know, the stigma of mental illness hurts more than the illness itself.
Somehow I am grateful because the illness had taught me well to discover the part of me which cannot be achieved by someone else who would go through the circumstances I have been. And I know that not all people suffering are as observant and as open as I am.
Within this perspective, I realised though that I have given an impression to some whom are willing to learn about mental illness and how do I manage to live life daily. I share the insights and understanding to those who didn’t experience the causes of my suffering. Isn’t that supposed to be a valuable lesson for anybody to stop giving a brand on people’s lives suffering in different ways or manner of illness mentally..
You have no Idea you hurt us bad when you are a believer and you say we are suffering from demons.
You have no idea you hurt us bad when you, without religion speaks that we are crazy, making fun of us in your private conversations and addressing us as the extra cost of society.
In this manner, I would like to send a letter to those who suffer PTSD like me. Even though you suffer depression or anxiety.. God is not as the men who judge you. He understands what you’re going through and there is a purpose that someone else should learn from you because He knows you are stronger than those who can’t afford to carry that burden.
God is with you and with the broken heart. Your wings will be restored and you will stand again. Do not be afraid to speak your mind, because I know that despite of your suffering.. You are mindful of what others would feel if you throw them the wrong word. I know you care despite the fact that it isn’t seen obviously. I know you are strong in the surface but soft beneath those lines of strong words you released.
Be brave and Be prayerful to a God who knows you more than anyone else. Don’t let your heart be frightened. Do not be afraid. God is with you wherever you go. He will never abandon you, He will uphold you and Hold you with His Righteousness.
Love and blessings
Posted on November 11, 2019
Often, I am mistaken for what I say. Am I supposed to say it? Am I supposed to act differently to convey the message? Am I able to mention the faults that I experienced from others? I guess I should, and I guess I as well must mention my own personal fault too.. But in the end.. Am I not misunderstood? Often…. – Rochelle Rosenberg
People told me.. You did not forgive because you kept mentioning what has done to you.
I can say, imagine as God forgave yet He reminds them what has done. It wasn’t a message of returning the error but merely a sign it won’t happen again.
In every situation that happened to us in the past, we must remember… We weren’t that special because we also owe others an apology somehow.
We are not special people.. We are persons whom are limited in time, understanding and wisdom. Therefore we ought to rely in a Highly form of guidance from Heaven to make our daily lives more learning and manageable.
So, wether I mentioned the past that happened to me, it does not mean I did not forgave. I can mention it now without grudges and without anger and without pain.. But merely by understanding that it was for a test of character. They changed me and I changed them. In both ways, we were tools to become subjects of development. I forgave, not for the sake of them but for my sake. Because before I ask forgiveness from heaven, I too is in need of mercy. Although their deeds cannot be erased on my mind, I can assure that I can try not to remember the ill in the presence of how it hurt me. It is definitely something we have to remember.. That an accident injury, heals in its time gradually. It does not heal in one day. Because after injury, you will need a training to gain more of your skills to develop the former strengths but this time in a much well focused approach.
This time as you heal, you get the time on focusing where you did fail and try to find a way to learn from it. Therefore God provides us time so we may develop each morning.
So I encourage you.. To change your mind when someone has something to share about their lives. Wether something they had experiences with, have patience.. Take tine to listen. In that manner.. You know you have the love and kindness for others.
Not because I remember the past that had been done meant I did not forgive.. Just an like an accident.. An injury doesn’t heal in a day.. It has process, it is given time to recover. And at the same time. It has an amount of quietness and reflective moments to realise how to develop a better understanding and how to increase the heart into wisdom. And to trust in every step God is there.
Posted on September 7, 2019
If TRUTH is all that people seek, then it should be spoken. But oh no! People seek the truth but when they hear the One that had been sent, their hearts are stubborn. Denied Him and they went back on their own paths. For they were friends with worldly wicked ways
If TRUTH is all that needed, then it should be said, but oh no! Many tend to be teachers of the law but are filled with indignation and corrupt. How then are you to follow the LAW OF GOD when the law of men you have put aside for your own pleasure! The law of men was set aside by some because their mind is futile, therefore the Law of God is misunderstood. The law was supposed to correct an unlawful mankind. The law is to reveal the crime committed. If truth is to be told.
If TRUTH is all that people seek, then it should be spoken well and done. But oh no, people still go back to feed their needs of lies which will not work for eternity.
You who practice sin, you who are stubborn, you who are commit unlawful relationship, you who are liars, you who gossip, you who are drunkard, you who walks in the ways of a lustful woman, you who steal, you who kill in your minds, you who dishonour your father and mother, you who are disrespectful to mankind and you who love money, you who are greed. You who practice sexual impurity and sexual desires in your body and mind and in your heart perverse your soul.
The gates of fire and brimstone awaits those who are against the moral law of God.
You can be set free if TRUTH is all you need.
Yeshua is the WAY THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE!