Posted on November 11, 2019
Often, I am mistaken for what I say. Am I supposed to say it? Am I supposed to act differently to convey the message? Am I able to mention the faults that I experienced from others? I guess I should, and I guess I as well must mention my own personal fault too.. But in the end.. Am I not misunderstood? Often…. – Rochelle Rosenberg
People told me.. You did not forgive because you kept mentioning what has done to you.
I can say, imagine as God forgave yet He reminds them what has done. It wasn’t a message of returning the error but merely a sign it won’t happen again.
In every situation that happened to us in the past, we must remember… We weren’t that special because we also owe others an apology somehow.
We are not special people.. We are persons whom are limited in time, understanding and wisdom. Therefore we ought to rely in a Highly form of guidance from Heaven to make our daily lives more learning and manageable.
So, wether I mentioned the past that happened to me, it does not mean I did not forgave. I can mention it now without grudges and without anger and without pain.. But merely by understanding that it was for a test of character. They changed me and I changed them. In both ways, we were tools to become subjects of development. I forgave, not for the sake of them but for my sake. Because before I ask forgiveness from heaven, I too is in need of mercy. Although their deeds cannot be erased on my mind, I can assure that I can try not to remember the ill in the presence of how it hurt me. It is definitely something we have to remember.. That an accident injury, heals in its time gradually. It does not heal in one day. Because after injury, you will need a training to gain more of your skills to develop the former strengths but this time in a much well focused approach.
This time as you heal, you get the time on focusing where you did fail and try to find a way to learn from it. Therefore God provides us time so we may develop each morning.
So I encourage you.. To change your mind when someone has something to share about their lives. Wether something they had experiences with, have patience.. Take tine to listen. In that manner.. You know you have the love and kindness for others.
Not because I remember the past that had been done meant I did not forgive.. Just an like an accident.. An injury doesn’t heal in a day.. It has process, it is given time to recover. And at the same time. It has an amount of quietness and reflective moments to realise how to develop a better understanding and how to increase the heart into wisdom. And to trust in every step God is there.
Posted on August 12, 2019
Therefore Education and Success has just a place in mankind to be used in service of others and not for own benefits. For in the day of our death, sucess will just be an echoe in the lying bed. In the silence of our bodies, we will not hear the success stories we have done, for God will reveal the true test of our victory.
It is a freedom to know the wisdom of God. And it is unbearable to know it. For by the time you start knowing the wisdom of heaven, you are obliged to perform its duty and to bear the mind of the upright. In wisdom, you shall be fit in mind and even the face of others. For you will always have a watchful eye on you. And these million eyes will never dare to see your good deeds but only sees when you stumble.
Educate yourself therefore with the ways of the Lord. And bring forth your soul to the humility of your heart. Seek the wisdom of God and you will know the fear of the Lord.
Proverbs 1:7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction.
Proverbs 2:6 For the LORD gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
Psalm 19:2 Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they reveal knowledge.
When big realities is seen in this world and in this generation? After all, theres the wars, murders, thefts, the poor and the poorer in soul, and the ills, and the jealousy and hatred and the groans, and the cries and the dead, are constantly reduced?
And if a man tells me, are you then enlightened and hated by wisdom? Blessed be God for showing me this wisdom. For opening my eyes from slumber of folly and stupidity..
From my childhood to the present, I have loved exploration and observation, for the sake of finding the truth, and for understanding the hidden, and for recognizing the lie and the mistake, and from seeking the truth will never cease my heart. but I have never liked nor enlightened education for my benefit, and to much good and succeed.
And there is no reason, and no advice, that it will be able to save man from any trouble and distress, and give him existing success. Education on earth is fine for the purposes of survival of mankind. And if the claimant continues to argue. And not in the holy language call, success in the name of education, it is clear that success depends on education and intelligence to which I will reply. There is education, and there is education. But as education exist, then man is the more dangerous as he can be. For who would know in the end where the man would lay his learning? Will he serve others or will he benefit himself alone? And there is education, of this world and there is education from the heavens given through the Messenger of God.
May the Lord be merciful to us all.
To the young and old alike.
Credit to Sefaria in the chapter of Sefer Yesodei HaTorah
Posted on July 30, 2019
On your way to the lawyer, court proceedings or maybe just to report injustice you’ve experienced or witness.. You might be afraid, you might be anxious. But the Lord said, do not be silent in injustice and show yourself courageous to fight for what is right. Wait.. Wait for Him… It will come in perfect time.. But be prepared.. And settle yourself..
I would give an advice to people who have been into a violent situations before. Or maybe you are under the control of that violence right now. I know that cowards has been abusing you for your weakness but do not see yourself as lower than what the oppressor is implicating on you. Those words you’ve heard all these years, those beatings you’ve experienced. All of the people that left you alone to fight.. Those had left you scars, don’t worry now… You have survived them all! See! You are still here! You are meant to make it. Because you are strong… Believe me.. God made you stronger than what you can imagine…
I speak from experience.. I was a victim of rape, molestation and violent related issues within relationship. But most of all, I guess the part that I felt more victimised was the emotions, my self-esteem, integrity, my trust towards others and my behaviour towards the outside world. All these years, I spent myself being afraid, i soent myself coping with the thought that I can never get help and I can never move on.
The best thing to start with is..
The table is empty and chairs are in place. The complaints are restrained and the defender has not yet arrived.
In the thoughts of the oppressed many questions are asked. Many things has to be laid upon the empty table and tears may fell unwarned. But emotions must be put aside and put herself back together to speak right.
On this empty table, the tension will become apparent. But as you pack yourself into the truth, you will have peace while you wait for absolute help. Justice has mercy, it may take a while. The waiting can be so long when you didn’t t had the strength to move on.
Imagine the years that took you before you came here today. It was good you never took justice in your hands but with a restless heart you still had hope that all will be in its place. God had placed authorities to pursue your rights. The states and its branches are under God’s law. They will not be blind for unrighteousness because you are seeking for what is right.
Never think in a second to give up. If you are experiencing difficulties right niw ubder a process.. Keep on. Keep fighting and set your mind on the heavenly things. It might take time to heal but the main process is to go against the nature of injustice. Your injury will get healed in its time and you will be able to stand again. In God’s grace you will be given the strength to start again.. Afresh.
Be patient…. Justice will be served!
Posted on July 21, 2019
I grew more with my walk with the Lord every day and i experienced that i learned little better in time
Serving God in daily basis is indeed a marriage of the spiritual life
I indeed realise as along the way when we learned a lot⊠We becoming wise and as a part of heavenly wisdom.. We dont tend to be offended on things that mlstly many are annoyed at. I looked at it usually now and make sure I do what is good. As proverbs 16.24 says a righteous person falls 7 times. Then gets up again. But the wicked falls when calamity comes.
They easily give up
As for now i still work with my emotions towards certain things. And i try to manage my heart more than anything else because it is there where the Instructions of God shall reside. In my soul I do not want to hate a brother. But my heart shall decide for its actions and thats the only part I can disciplineâŠ
I try my best to work it out especially recently when i had a bad situation in my past marriage. I heard I had demons and as my problems couldn’t resolve, they have baked more demons instead of helping me out. I had no parental guidance in sweden and the only help i expected was with the company within the faith. Yet they hurt me. Yet I did my very best to not take it to heart. And i did my best not to be a madman. I cried and was deeply embarrassed. Yes i got discouraged, i got disappointed. But only for a while. I think that i want to spend my time believing that things will turn out good despite of trials. Im proud I kept my mouth speaking evil things and slipping nonsense. I did not complain. I did not provoke any. I did not backbite. I kept in heart hid my tears and God is patient with me.
In understanding I grew. Im proud spiritually that I didnt made my eyes sin. I kept My lips and my mind from sin in the middle of disappointments and trials.
It is indeed true, that keeps those whose eyes are on Him. And it is indeed important to keep your trust in Him in the midst of difficulties. For one day, the Lord will bring peace. And in peace within yourself, God brings solutions to situations you are facing. Be Still and Know He is your God.
Posted on June 28, 2019
Sometimes, we base things by feelings, we base moments and events according to how good we feel and we are merely attached to it in those days when we don’t feel nothing at all.
But how do we truly experience God? Is it just by the good times? is it by miracles alone? is it by the overnatural things that we have seen and heard? Or is it by the events that were attached to us with emotions?
What if, all these years we have been seeking to experience God through supernatural events that we once felt and the most thing we think is that, God had left us because we do noit experience Him anymore? Because basically, we do not feel anything..at all..
The truth is, our emotions are very tricky. Sometimes, we are so overwhelmed on things that happens to us especially when it is extraordinary. I can tell that according to experience. I usually think God was far away because I had nothing to base a new experience with Him. Truth was, I am experiencing Him daily in my every day life. In small decisions, He is there. In every path I choose, He is there. In every people I meet, He is there. His presence is everywhere I go. There are big signs of His presence everywhere that sometimes we take for granted. The sudden blessings that comes, the unexpected meeting with people, the unexpected talk and the exchange of conversations that we had with people on the road. How did we perform? How did we show ourselves as representatives of the Master we belong to?
I learned by experience, God is in all of those things I do. Wether I am at my own home or at work or in the way.
The way we view life optimistically despite of trials is also the way we experience God. Because we know that we are learning new things.. To become better every day. You will look back in 5 years from now. You will see alot of challenges you thought you never would have been able to succeed. One day you will stand there in awe of God remembering that those were the times you truly experienced God.
Posted on May 21, 2019
Most of us want others to forgive and move on. But we most forget what we said that broke their heart.
When God forgives us, He wants us to be reminded of what we spoke and take back the harsh words we have said. God promises then that we shall CONFESS TO ONE ANOTHER (A CONVERSATION BETWEEN PEOPLE WHO HAVE SOME TROUBLED STORY OR SOME CIRCUMSTANCES THAT CAME UP WHICH CAUSED DIVISION AND HURT ) and God promised that after we have asked forgiveness from people we hurt, or atleast we forgive other who hurt us, then we can pray to Him.. And God then FORGIVES US. and also He will remove all our sin and will not remember it anymore..
But to mere humans..we keep avoiding to ask forgiveness because we think God takes care of it. Without knowing that the person we hurt unconsciously are struggling emotionally, physically, and maybe spiritually falling.. Isnt it we are easy stumbling block for them? And isn’t it we bear the responsibility of their hurt..?
He would if we dont have any opportunity to find the person but as we can find the people and are just reach of hand, we can have a talk with them..
It takes a courage to ask forgiveness, it takes pride to be torn down before we acknowledge our own fault.
We are actually cruel!
In my experience, I grew up in a surrounding where I was thought to say sorry. In the fellowship I grew up with, i have learned to ask forgiveness. It took courage before I learned to do that at home. Still to this day, i have never heard sorry from the people that violated me, raped me, judged me and spoken things behind me.. On my part, I am proud to say that I asked forgiveness because I know myself that It is sinful to have resentment in my heart. And I know for a fact that it sets me free from having debts to anyone even if I think I am right. It did not matter if I think I was right. What matters most was, I was courageous to ask forgiveness and say sorry and I meant it.
This is what gave me peace… No doubt. Thats the Spirit of God.
No wonder why Psychological problems arise. Because there are many things we take for granted.
Some people waits for the time until the person who hurt them say SORRY! It even takes 10years,20 years or 50years before they would hear Sorry, before they themselves would dare to say Sorry!
Isnt it we humans, want God to be forgiving.. But we were born of adversity.. Filled of pretension.. Inside the church.. Many of us hide faces in walls of white…
If you somehow had hurt someone else. Be brave to ask someone forgiveness and acknowledge your fault. It will not make you weak. In fact, it will make you more peaceful and happier. If you can’t find the person. At least have a conversation with God to lead you and remind you your own feelings so He may cleanse your heart.
Those who knew me personally know that the real me loves people with sincerity..
I hope I may not hit some toes. Coz If I do.. Then my purpose has been fulfilled…
#selfpotrait
De flesta av oss vill att andra ska förlÄta och fortsÀtta. Men vi glömmer mest vad vi sa som bröt deras hjÀrta.
NÀr Gud förlÄter oss, vill han att vi ska pÄminnas om vad vi talade och ta tillbaka de hÄrda orden vi har sagt. Gud talade dÄ att vi skall bekÀnna till varandra (ett samtal mellan tvÄ mÀnniskor som har nÄgon misslyckad historia eller vissa omstÀndigheter som kom upp som orsakade fördelning och skada ) och Gud lovade att efter att vi har begÀrt förlÄtelse frÄn mÀnniskor som vi skadat eller Ätminstone förlÄter vi andra som skadar oss, dÄ kan vi be till honom .. Och dÄ förlÄtar Gud oss. och Àven han kommer att ta bort all vÄr synd och kommer inte komma ihÄg det lÀngre ..
Men till oss mĂ€nniskor .. Vi fortsĂ€tter att undvika att be om förlĂ„telse, för vi tror att Gud tar hand om det. Utan att veta att den personen som vi skadat omedvetet kĂ€mpar emotionellt, fysiskt och kanske andligt faller .. Ăr det inte lĂ€tt att stötta för dem och de snubblar? Och Ă€r det inte vi bĂ€r ansvaret för deras ont ..?
Om vi inte har nÄgon möjlighet att hitta personen vi skadade men om vi kan hitta dessa personer och bara nÄ med en hand, kan vi ju prata med dem och samtala..
Det tar ett mod att be om förlÄtelse, det tar tid med stolthet att riva ner den innan vi erkÀnner vÄrt eget fel.
Vi Àr faktiskt grymma!
Enligt min erfarenhet vÀxte jag upp i en omgivning dÀr jag vsrt upplÀrd att sÀga förlÄt. I samhÀllet vÀxte jag upp med, jag har lÀrt mig att be om förlÄtelse. Det tog mod innan jag lÀrde mig att göra det hemma. Fram tills idag har jag aldrig hört frÄn de mÀnniskor som krÀnkt mig, vÄldtagit mig, dömde mig och talade bakom mig.
Jag Àr stolt över att sÀga att jag bad om förlÄtelse för att jag kÀnner mig sjÀlv att det Àr syndigt att ha förbittring i mitt hjÀrta. Och jag vet för ett faktum att det ger mig frihet frÄn att ha skulder till nÄgon, Àven om jag tycker att jag har rÀtt. Det spelade ingen roll om jag tyckte att jag hade rÀtt. Det som betyder mest var att jag var modig att be om förlÄtelse och sÀga förlÄt och att jag menade det.
Det var det som gav mig fred ⊠Ingen tvekan. Det Àr Guds Ande.
Inte undra pÄ varför psykiska problem uppstÄr. Eftersom det finns mÄnga saker vi tar för givet.
Vissa mĂ€nniskor vĂ€ntar pĂ„ tiden tills personen som skadade dem sĂ€ger FĂRLĂ
T! Det tar till och med 10 Är, 20 Är eller 50 Är innan de skulle höra det. TyvÀrr Àr det sÄ, innan de sjÀlva vÄgade sÀga förlÄt!
Ăr det inte vi mĂ€nniskor som vill att Gud ska förlĂ„ta .. Men vi föddes av motgĂ„ng. Fylld av pretension .. Inuti kyrkan, bland troende.. MĂ„nga av oss gömmer ansikten i den vita vĂ€ggar âŠ
Om du pÄ nÄgot sÀtt hade skadat nÄgon annan. Var modig för att frÄga nÄgon förlÄtelse och erkÀnna ditt fel. Det kommer inte att göra dig svag. Det kommer faktiskt att göra dig mer fredlig och lyckligare. Om du inte hittar personen. à tminstone ha en konversation med Gud för att leda dig och pÄminna dig dina egna kÀnslor sÄ att han kan rensa ditt hjÀrta.
De som kÀnde mig personligen vet att den riktiga jag Àlskar mÀnniskor med uppriktighet ..
Jag hoppas jag fĂ„r inte slĂ„ nĂ„gra tĂ„r. För Om jag gjorde det.. DĂ„ har mitt syfte uppnĂ„tts âŠ
Posted on April 14, 2019
We are tempted to think that the more powerful we become, the better we will battle sin. But the exact opposite is true. The more power, influence, or prestige we possess, the more temptable we are. The strength of sin feeds on our sense of strength. This is why we are warned that âpride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fallâ (Proverbs 16:18). In weakness, we feel our need for God, but when we are strong, we lack that saving sobriety. We lost the need of God and mostly in strength we tend to think THINGS ARE UNDER CONTROL..but it is not so. THEREFORE learning to surrender towards God is needed the mostâŠthen we will know how to respect a sovereign power over us. An authority to lead us and not to control us.
-wisdom
Posted on July 7, 2018
What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. Ecclesiastes 1:9
I have been recalling the days I was a teen. Usually around five pm I look above the sky and I remember watching the sun go down. I usually imagined all the romantic movies I watched with two couples sitting together and holding hands sitting on the bench under a tree. It looks very inviting for me. And I wished that I would also want to have the same sunset when I would grow up.
Years had passed, and I am getting more older. I have missed many sunsets but there are times where I noticed it and the memory keeps reminding me of my wishes. The sun had been watching all peoples lives, witnessing all the things both good and bad, wealth and poverty being experienced daily. How the sun rises in the monring and then sets for the world to meet darkness. I lived life like the Sun had never been there and the moon had been a decoration. I have passed the days and nights of sorrowful times. I ahve overcome the trials and still I bear the wounds that needs to heal in time.
Few years ago, I have learned to appreciate the sunset. To stop and watch it go down. Its like I am standing there waving goodbye because I do not know if I will meet the morrow again. It is then I have learned to realise that Life is so short and the Sun is a very helpful to fulfill our task while it is daylight.
Today, I have met people who have the same mindset as I am. Listening to the words spoken to me today, I cherish everything that had been spoken. In this time of hour as I experience the tough moment of my life, and as the world seem to be a mixture of movement for me. I see the contrast of whispering hope been given.
I believe One day, I will have the chance to have a stable life and I will be more hopeful and glad. As for now, I just have to watch the sunset and wave at it goodbye for a night.
The morrow awaits…
And the JOURNEY WILL BEGIN!!