Abortion? The spirit of evil..

Abortion? The spirit of evil..

I am a survivor proof that even though it was a long time plan to abort me so God let me live …I do not know how many times my mother jumped and took medications just to get rid of me.

Then in the 8th month, she took even stronger medicine but it couldn’t. When I was born, the maternal nurse discovered that I am blind on the left eye, which may cause me to become blind when I grow up about 30 … I came out into the world with an inflamed, swollen eye and my mother hated me. I heard time and again how unhappy she was to see me. Wish I was dead. But my mind is strong. Learn to read early, draw strange things. Mature too early. Life became hard, but I learned to love her after all .. Because I know that anger cannot take me back to the event but I love life as it is. I met bullying in school because of the appearance, was called for all possible words because of the abortion. Failed child.

Today I live and am not blind. I see a little bit on the left eye through a miracle .. Thank you God.

I feel sorry for those who are hard hit and those who are unborn as the lawsuit has been taken away from them. My mother in any case after many years had asked for apology for those she did and that without complete info she had to learn about abortion and what consequences the child or woman gets until later. I have not been angry with her about it but without the result that was, I was very disappointed with her before. Thank Elohim our God and Yeshua our Messiah who gave me a new heart to see the light .. But even until today, the abortion event has an impact on me.

With that in the background, I in the Philippines have helped women who had thoughts about abortion. With God’s help, the unborn came into the world unscathed. Not everyone but you can help some 😊 There is hope for the women who believe they have power over the body and the power to take the gift of life from the womb. Giving them an insight into what and how the child became was their responsibility whatever it was for life situations they were in. The hope is that there are people who can support them and listen .. There are enough people on earth who will take care of their children if they did not want to keep the baby themselves. I have no claim to be angry with those who chose turn to keep their pregnancy but are very angry at those who are really deaf to hear and have the ill will to kill another person. On the other hand, I also hate people who are aides to murder .. God hates a murderer .. And with the women who carried out abortion and help to murder, God’s word describes it as an immoral act. Time and again even according to the history of the bible and the facts, devilish people have always existed. It is written in the scripture that people who do wrong to their mankind and take their lives are murderers and going against the commandments of God, so to speak. The law also describes the same.. The human rights not to murder. However, if there is someone who had already done so and accidentally read my post, I do not want to give someone a bad feeling. There is hope to turn around and resist the other murderers.
God hears all these unborn voices and every one who agrees to it will gain their profit from both good and evil. In all form God gives every man his punishment according to his deeds.

In Sweden, it is completely open with this and in other parts of the world.

In my home country, on the other hand, it is done in hidden , but if you are discovered, you get a prison sentence just like a murderer.

However, God must have mercy on the nations and the leaders of the countries who are co-workers of the murder of children. May God bribg justice in miracle way..

These children will cry and scream justice before the throne of God. The time of the lawless has come .. These children cry .. He hears it.


Sorry no Sorry

Sorry no Sorry

Most of us want others to forgive and move on. But we most forget what we said that broke their heart.

When God forgives us, He wants us to be reminded of what we spoke and take back the harsh words we have said. God promises then that we shall CONFESS TO ONE ANOTHER (A CONVERSATION BETWEEN PEOPLE WHO HAVE SOME TROUBLED STORY OR SOME CIRCUMSTANCES THAT CAME UP WHICH CAUSED DIVISION AND HURT ) and God promised that after we have asked forgiveness from people we hurt, or atleast we forgive other who hurt us, then we can pray to Him.. And God then FORGIVES US. and also He will remove all our sin and will not remember it anymore..

But to mere humans..we keep avoiding to ask forgiveness because we think God takes care of it. Without knowing that the person we hurt unconsciously are struggling emotionally, physically, and maybe spiritually falling.. Isnt it we are easy stumbling block for them? And isn’t it we bear the responsibility of their hurt..?

He would if we dont have any opportunity to find the person but as we can find the people and are just reach of hand, we can have a talk with them..
It takes a courage to ask forgiveness, it takes pride to be torn down before we acknowledge our own fault.
We are actually cruel!

In my experience, I grew up in a surrounding where I was thought to say sorry. In the fellowship I grew up with, i have learned to ask forgiveness. It took courage before I learned to do that at home. Still to this day, i have never heard sorry from the people that violated me, raped me, judged me and spoken things behind me.. On my part, I am proud to say that I asked forgiveness because I know myself that It is sinful to have resentment in my heart. And I know for a fact that it sets me free from having debts to anyone even if I think I am right. It did not matter if I think I was right. What matters most was, I was courageous to ask forgiveness and say sorry and I meant it.
This is what gave me peace… No doubt. Thats the Spirit of God.

No wonder why Psychological problems arise. Because there are many things we take for granted.
Some people waits for the time until the person who hurt them say SORRY! It even takes 10years,20 years or 50years before they would hear Sorry, before they themselves would dare to say Sorry!
Isnt it we humans, want God to be forgiving.. But we were born of adversity.. Filled of pretension.. Inside the church.. Many of us hide faces in walls of white…

If you somehow had hurt someone else. Be brave to ask someone forgiveness and acknowledge your fault. It will not make you weak. In fact, it will make you more peaceful and happier. If you can’t find the person. At least have a conversation with God to lead you and remind you your own feelings so He may cleanse your heart.

Those who knew me personally know that the real me loves people with sincerity..

I hope I may not hit some toes. Coz If I do.. Then my purpose has been fulfilled…

De flesta av oss vill att andra ska förlåta och fortsätta. Men vi glömmer mest vad vi sa som bröt deras hjärta.

När Gud förlåter oss, vill han att vi ska påminnas om vad vi talade och ta tillbaka de hårda orden vi har sagt. Gud talade då att vi skall bekänna till varandra (ett samtal mellan två människor som har någon misslyckad historia eller vissa omständigheter som kom upp som orsakade fördelning och skada ) och Gud lovade att efter att vi har begärt förlåtelse från människor som vi skadat eller åtminstone förlåter vi andra som skadar oss, då kan vi be till honom .. Och då förlåtar Gud oss. och även han kommer att ta bort all vår synd och kommer inte komma ihåg det längre ..

Men till oss människor .. Vi fortsätter att undvika att be om förlåtelse, för vi tror att Gud tar hand om det. Utan att veta att den personen som vi skadat omedvetet kämpar emotionellt, fysiskt och kanske andligt faller .. Är det inte lätt att stötta för dem och de snubblar? Och är det inte vi bär ansvaret för deras ont ..?

Om vi inte har någon möjlighet att hitta personen vi skadade men om vi kan hitta dessa personer och bara nå med en hand, kan vi ju prata med dem och samtala..
Det tar ett mod att be om förlåtelse, det tar tid med stolthet att riva ner den innan vi erkänner vårt eget fel.
Vi är faktiskt grymma!

Enligt min erfarenhet växte jag upp i en omgivning där jag vsrt upplärd att säga förlåt. I samhället växte jag upp med, jag har lärt mig att be om förlåtelse. Det tog mod innan jag lärde mig att göra det hemma. Fram tills idag har jag aldrig hört från de människor som kränkt mig, våldtagit mig, dömde mig och talade bakom mig.
Jag är stolt över att säga att jag bad om förlåtelse för att jag känner mig själv att det är syndigt att ha förbittring i mitt hjärta. Och jag vet för ett faktum att det ger mig frihet från att ha skulder till någon, även om jag tycker att jag har rätt. Det spelade ingen roll om jag tyckte att jag hade rätt. Det som betyder mest var att jag var modig att be om förlåtelse och säga förlåt och att jag menade det.
Det var det som gav mig fred … Ingen tvekan. Det är Guds Ande.

Inte undra på varför psykiska problem uppstår. Eftersom det finns många saker vi tar för givet.
Vissa människor väntar på tiden tills personen som skadade dem säger FÖRLÅT! Det tar till och med 10 år, 20 år eller 50 år innan de skulle höra det. Tyvärr är det så, innan de själva vågade säga förlåt!
Är det inte vi människor som vill att Gud ska förlåta .. Men vi föddes av motgång. Fylld av pretension .. Inuti kyrkan, bland troende.. Många av oss gömmer ansikten i den vita väggar …

Om du på något sätt hade skadat någon annan. Var modig för att fråga någon förlåtelse och erkänna ditt fel. Det kommer inte att göra dig svag. Det kommer faktiskt att göra dig mer fredlig och lyckligare. Om du inte hittar personen. Åtminstone ha en konversation med Gud för att leda dig och påminna dig dina egna känslor så att han kan rensa ditt hjärta.

De som kände mig personligen vet att den riktiga jag älskar människor med uppriktighet ..

Jag hoppas jag får inte slå några tår. För Om jag gjorde det.. Då har mitt syfte uppnåtts …



We are tempted to think that the more powerful we become, the better we will battle sin. But the exact opposite is true. The more power, influence, or prestige we possess, the more temptable we are. The strength of sin feeds on our sense of strength. This is why we are warned that “pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall” (Proverbs 16:18). In weakness, we feel our need for God, but when we are strong, we lack that saving sobriety. We lost the need of God and mostly in strength we tend to think THINGS ARE UNDER CONTROL..but it is not so. THEREFORE learning to surrender towards God is needed the most…then we will know how to respect a sovereign power over us. An authority to lead us and not to control us.

Sunset – i Will see you by the morrow!

Sunset – i Will see you by the morrow!

What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. Ecclesiastes 1:9


I have been recalling the days I was a teen. Usually around five pm I look above the sky and I remember watching the sun go down. I usually imagined all the romantic movies I watched with two couples sitting together and holding hands sitting on the bench under a tree. It looks very inviting for me. And I wished that I would also want to have the same sunset when I would grow up.

Years had passed, and I am getting more older. I have missed many sunsets but there are times where I noticed it and the memory keeps reminding me of my wishes. The sun had been watching all peoples lives, witnessing all the things both good and bad, wealth and poverty being experienced daily. How the sun rises in the monring and then sets for the world to meet darkness. I lived life like the Sun had never been there and the moon had been a decoration. I have passed the days and nights of sorrowful times. I ahve overcome the trials and still I bear the wounds that needs to heal in time.

Few years ago, I have learned to appreciate the sunset. To stop and watch it go down. Its like I am standing there waving goodbye because I do not know if I will meet the morrow again. It is then I have learned to realise that Life is so short and the Sun is a very helpful to fulfill our task while it is daylight.

Today, I have met people who have the same mindset as I am. Listening to the words spoken to me today, I cherish everything that had been spoken. In this time of hour as I experience the tough moment of my life, and as the world seem to be a mixture of movement for me. I see the contrast of whispering hope been given.

I believe One day, I will have the chance to have a stable life and I will be more hopeful and glad. As for now, I just have to watch the sunset and wave at it goodbye for a night.

The morrow awaits…