Am I Supposed to Say it?

Am I Supposed to Say it?

Often, I am mistaken for what I say. Am I supposed to say it? Am I supposed to act differently to convey the message? Am I able to mention the faults that I experienced from others? I guess I should, and I guess I as well must mention my own personal fault too.. But in the end.. Am I not misunderstood? Often…. – Rochelle Rosenberg

People told me.. You did not forgive because you kept mentioning what has done to you.
I can say, imagine as God forgave yet He reminds them what has done. It wasn’t a message of returning the error but merely a sign it won’t happen again.

In every situation that happened to us in the past, we must remember… We weren’t that special because we also owe others an apology somehow.

We are not special people.. We are persons whom are limited in time, understanding and wisdom. Therefore we ought to rely in a Highly form of guidance from Heaven to make our daily lives more learning and manageable.


So, wether I mentioned the past that happened to me, it does not mean I did not forgave. I can mention it now without grudges and without anger and without pain.. But merely by understanding that it was for a test of character. They changed me and I changed them. In both ways, we were tools to become subjects of development. I forgave, not for the sake of them but for my sake. Because before I ask forgiveness from heaven, I too is in need of mercy. Although their deeds cannot be erased on my mind, I can assure that I can try not to remember the ill in the presence of how it hurt me. It is definitely something we have to remember.. That an accident injury, heals in its time gradually. It does not heal in one day. Because after injury, you will need a training to gain more of your skills to develop the former strengths but this time in a much well focused approach.
This time as you heal, you get the time on focusing where you did fail and try to find a way to learn from it. Therefore God provides us time so we may develop each morning.

So I encourage you.. To change your mind when someone has something to share about their lives. Wether something they had experiences with, have patience.. Take tine to listen. In that manner.. You know you have the love and kindness for others.

Not because I remember the past that had been done meant I did not forgive.. Just an like an accident.. An injury doesn’t heal in a day.. It has process, it is given time to recover. And at the same time. It has an amount of quietness and reflective moments to realise how to develop a better understanding and how to increase the heart into wisdom. And to trust in every step God is there.

Autumn Leaves Like Womens Beauty

Autumn Leaves Like Womens Beauty

Women… Can be considered likely to the autumn leaves.. Perhaps it is very harsh to compare it in this manner.. But in my perception it is much closer than a flower…

Such beauty you are… Is not like someone else. Such beauty you are.. Is completely unique.. God made you.. To be not like everyone else.. Believe that.

Women… You always wanted to be beautiful.. Mostly you ask for confirmation… And you hunger for it.. To be defined beautiful… But what is beauty.. When one day, it will pass on your season and you will fall on your branches, to the ground as everyone would pass you by.

I suppose you would love yourself the way you are. I suppose you would see yourself just as simply as it is. I wish you don’t need to compare yourself to others, and I wish you wouldn’t try to be like someone else.. Such beauty you are… Is not like someone else. Such beauty you are.. Is completely unique.. God made you.. To be not like everyone else.. Believe that.

I suppose you would love yourself the way you are. I suppose you would see yourself just as simply as it is. I wish you don’t need to compare yourself to others, and I wish you wouldn’t try to be like someone else..

Who would care about the days you were tall and vibrant. Who would remember the days you bore fruit of different colors and made eyes stand by.. When now.. All of your achievements come to pass and all your legendary experience becomes a history.

As you fall from the branch, everyone continues with their lives. And you struggled in every falling leaf with a fear that the branch would follow to break. Fear you would fall on the hard ground.. Soak in all the mystery of the autumn rain.. To be torn by the waters and decompose…

a mature individual, made wise by life experiences rather than inborn childlike naivety. Whom has lived through goodness and the darkness of life, yet, perceives the world in vibrant multicolor

These leaves remind me of a mature individual, made wise by life experiences rather than inborn childlike naivety. Whom has lived through goodness and the darkness of life, yet, perceives the world in vibrant multicolor. Her experiences have brought about a transformation where she no longer fits into the same dimension of environment but has emerged a richer individual, carrying an array of hues and shades, ideas and perspectives, empathy and perceptiveness. A resemblance of fullness in purpose.. A character of depth and dignity, a symbol of full perception of right and wrong. A time of understanding the situation of people’s chosen path… And then… She have to wait for the time that her twigs would loosen her…

Why should such beauty result from decomposition? Isn’t beauty something positive we would normally associate with completeness and vibrancy? What is the message we are to take from this paradox of nature?

Maybe the message of autumn is the reminder that there is tremendous beauty G‑d wants us to enjoy in this physical world. But without recognizing that He is the source behind it, without that connection to Him, the physical world is dead. When we do recognize Him, however, the world can be quite a beautiful place.

Nevertheless.. Do not forget the ONE who have given you your season.. And do not worry about the things that are not necessary. Accept the way you are and find the talents and skills that you have. Use it.. And contribute to make a better world. You are a part of that wholeness of Beauty..

My Silent Words for you!

My Silent Words for you!

If I had not come to Sweden, my life would have been different. Maybe not as good as today but I probably do not have the same feelings as I have right now. I may not have met people who hurt me and said words that tore my soul. Before I came, I had an old wound, I did not have time to grieve.

When I came to Sweden, I got to experience loneliness in a society with good food and life. A society that offered fulfillment of my dreams. However, it costs.

I met people who were not careful with their words, judging tongues with their leprosy. I met people who I thought were my friends who later, after seeing my weaknesses and mistakes, left me. A bone broken, half the heart bleeds. I had nowhere to go.

I met people with exploitative motives who wanted my fall. I met people I thought were my friends, I met people who had never believed in me.

They hurt me, they murdered me in their hearts. I cried, I screamed, I crawled in pain. The pain that no one saw physically, the pain that no one can describe, only I who know it, only I who see it.
It became my challenge after all.

In solitude, I sat in front of windows with eyes open. I look up to heaven. My thousand thoughts drew me back to where I have been. Where once, despite difficulties, I felt a sense of security. My native country. My beloved Philippines. My dearest country, my language, my people.

Alone, I thought, what am I doing here? In solitude I felt my vulnerability, I felt the feeling of death, but death did not come to me. My heart was beating like never before, and my tears were flowing freely, it was burning in my soul. I didn’t know it would feel so hard.
Very challenging. I’ve had alot to deal with. And I was by myself. Some nights during the winter I look up into the sky, awake in the middle of the night. Fascinated by the snow falling on my face, and in one second my hair was touched. The cold that tells me I am alive somehow. In the darkness of the cold winter, I speak for myself and wait for answers .. When? When will this end? And the tears ran like waterfalls. I felt, an angel touched my soul. A strength and hope from heaven.

God heard my prayers. And God comforted me. In the dark, I came to know that there is a light. And in the dark, I know the stars can shine bright for me to see. That tomorrow when I wake up, there will be a better future. And tomorrow will be another day.

After all, I also met people who loved me, liked me, hugged me, greeted me, and prayed for me. Met people who sat with me, listened to me, and held my hand without words. Some have come with a smile and gave their thoughts without condemning words. For a moment I felt that they cared without the cost.
For a little while I remembered days and nights as I whispered in the air, I know the wind brought it to heaven.

I thank you for everything you do …
I thank you for listening.
I thank you for coming by without feeling compelled.
I thank you .. For you loved me after all.
I thank you for giving me time ..
I thank you .. For sitting next to me in my solitude ..

It’s hard to feel like I do .. It’s hard to describe those feelings ..
Without words, without my body language …
You showed that you care …
Although I have not dared to say …
Deep down in my heart ..
I thank you for being there.

Om jag inte hade kommit till Sverige hade mitt liv varit annorlunda. Kanske inte lika bra som idag men jag har nog inte samma känslor som jag har just nu. Jag kanske inte ha träffat människor som sårade mig och sagt ord som rev min själ. Innan jag kom, hade jag ett gammal sår, det hade jag inte tid att sorga efter.

När jag kom till Sverige, jag fick uppleva ensamhet i ett samhälle med bra föda och livsföring. Ett samhälle som erbjöd uppfyllelse av mina drömmar. Det kostar dock.

Jag träffade människor som var inte försiktiga med sina ord, dömande tungor med sina spetälska. Jag träffade människor som jag trodde var mina vänner som senare, efter att ha setts mina svagheter och misstag, lämnade mig. Ett ben brutit, halva hjärtat blöder. Jag hade ingenstans att ta vägen.

Jag träffade människor med uttnyttjande motiv, som önskade mitt fall. jag träffade människor som jag trodde var mina vänner, jag träffade människor som hade aldrig trott på mig.

De sårade mig, de mördade mig i sina hjärtan. Jag grät, jag skrek, jag kröp i smärtan. Smärtan som ingen såg fysisk, smärtan som ingen kan beskriva, bara jag som känner det, bara jag som ser det.
Det blev min utmaning trots allt.

I ensamhet, satt jag framför fönster med ögonen öppna. Jag ser upp till himmelen. Mina tusen tankar drog mig tillbaka där jag har varit. Där jag en gång trots svårigheter kände en trygghet. Mitt hemland. Min älskade Filippinerna. Min käraste land, mitt språk, mitt folk.

I ensamhet tänkte jag, vad gör jag här. I ensamhet kände jag min sårbarhet, jag kända känslan av döden, men döden kom inte till mig. Mitt hjärta slog som aldrig förr, och mina tårar flödar fritt, det sved i själen. Jag visste inte att det skulle känna så hårt.
Mycket utmaning. Mycket att ta itu med. Och jag var själv. Vissa nätter under vintern tittar jag upp i himmelen, vaken mitt i natten. Fascinerad av snön som faller på mitt ansikte, och på nån sekund rörde mitt hår. Kylan som talar att jag lever i alla fall. I mörkret av den kalla vintern, Talar jag för mig själv och väntar på svar.. När? När ska det här ta slut? Och tårarna rann som vattenfall. Jag kände, en ängel rörde min själ. En styrka och hopp från himmelen.

Gud hörde mina bön. Och Gud tröstat mig. I mörkret lärde jag känna att det finns ett ljus. Och i mörkret, vet jag att stjärnorna kan lysa klart för mig att se. Att imorgon nör jag vaknar, det kommer bli en bättre framtid. Och imorgon kommer bli en annan dag.

Trots allt, träffade jag även människor som älskade mig, tyckte om mig, kramade mig, hälsade på mig, och bad för mig. Träffade människor som satt med mig, lyssnade på mig, och höll min hand utan ord. Vissa har kommit med ett leende och gav sina tankar utan fördömande ord. För en stund kände jag att de bryr sig utan kostnaden.
En liten stund kom jag ihåg dagar och nätter när jag viskade i luften, jag vet att vinden tog med sig det till himmelen.

Jag tackar.. För allt du gör…
Jag tackar.. För att du lyssnade..
Jag tackar.. För att du kom förbi utan att känna dig tvungen.
Jag tackar.. För du älskade mig trots allt.
Jag tackar.. För att du gav mig tid..
Jag tackar.. För du satt bredvid i min ensamhet..

Det svårt att känna som jag gör.. Det svårt att beskriva mona känslor..
Utan ord, utan min kroppsspråk…
Du visade att du bryr dig…
Även om jag inte har vågat säga…
Innerst i mitt hjärta..
Jag tackar att du finns.


Contentment

Contentment

Right now! Are you satisfied with your life? As of now, are you content with what you have and what you are? Within satisfaction matter, do you envy others and still hungry for what they have?

Contentment in life is a big deal of maturity…

I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:12-13)

I have experienced poverty. I grew up in a family where my parents livelihood were just enough for a days meal.
There were days in my childhood years where I wish towards days of abundance. And it gave me comfort to think that one day, it will be better.
Then there were also days where we have overflowing food and our needs were met.

Then time came, I grew up. Got a job. Friends from different sources and lifestyle have surrounded me.
I was overwhelmed by it. Until I saw many sides of being wealthy.
Even if people are wealthy and lack nothing, surrounded by materialistic world and pleasure. I noticed the sadness in their lives, being able to defend their properties and fear of thieves and shopping was their comfort. The loneliness had become their enemy and discomfort in themselves had become their illness.
Self centered became their primary focus, “I” and “Me” is their ways of thinking and they are filled with lies of living filling themselves with thoughts that somehow it would make them happy. Then they were filled with pride and perversity, speaking of curses towards the poor and the lowly.

I stopped in a minute, and thought. Not so Lord God. I would rather live life that I have now rather than having that sadness in life. Poverty gives possibility of being content in any situation of life. Having self control in attitude and knowing the existence of life through God.
It’s good to have wealth, but it also means of giving and sharing your blessings to those who are need. I saw by my eyes that wealth can be a way of open doors and can even be a way to destruction.
It’s better that my life is easier. My needs are met by God’s riches and wealth. Basic needs are food, shelter and clothing. I have these. And I have my kids and a husband that loves the Lord. I have my family that cares and friends that loves at all times. And most I have the Lord Jesus that loves me and think of me all the time so I didn’t need to worry about anything because I know that by time, God gives according to our capabilities and responsibilities. I am more content both to earthly life and my inner peace is in God’s grace and love.
That my Spiritual life is more important than ever before.
Because I understand that life is very much more important than anything else in these world. Life is precious, every second and minute of it.
I love the Lord God rather than living like a queen. For being a Child of God is a better position rather than titles and career on earth that can’t be taken in heaven.
My soul will then bless the Lord as long as I live. So now you choose which way you place your heart. As it is written:

Matthew 6:19-21Complete Jewish Bible
19 “Do not store up for yourselves wealth here on earth, where moths and rust destroy, and burglars break in and steal. 20 Instead, store up for yourselves wealth in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and burglars do not break in or steal. 21 For where your wealth is, there your heart will be also.

Be Patient.. Justice can be Served..

Be Patient.. Justice can be Served..

On your way to the lawyer, court proceedings or maybe just to report injustice you’ve experienced or witness.. You might be afraid, you might be anxious. But the Lord said, do not be silent in injustice and show yourself courageous to fight for what is right. Wait.. Wait for Him… It will come in perfect time.. But be prepared.. And settle yourself..

I would give an advice to people who have been into a violent situations before. Or maybe you are under the control of that violence right now. I know that cowards has been abusing you for your weakness but do not see yourself as lower than what the oppressor is implicating on you. Those words you’ve heard all these years, those beatings you’ve experienced. All of the people that left you alone to fight.. Those had left you scars, don’t worry now… You have survived them all! See! You are still here! You are meant to make it. Because you are strong… Believe me.. God made you stronger than what you can imagine…

I speak from experience.. I was a victim of rape, molestation and violent related issues within relationship. But most of all, I guess the part that I felt more victimised was the emotions, my self-esteem, integrity, my trust towards others and my behaviour towards the outside world. All these years, I spent myself being afraid, i soent myself coping with the thought that I can never get help and I can never move on.

The best thing to start with is..

  • Pray. All things.
  • To accept the things as they are.
  • To acknowledge that they already happened
  • Never argue with yourself anymore
  • Believe that you will overcome this situation you are facing right now.
  • Remove the people that puts you down. No matter how much it hurts, if they dont help you up but discourage you, it will become your worst scenario.
  • It may take time they say, But it is easier to FORGIVE. Without any questions of why and how.. Do not expect. Imagine.. will you wait for years and within those years, are you going to bear all the hurt and will you be under the power of hate until your health and psychological well-being will be at stake? Are you going to wait before you forgive? Let it go. Set yourself free. Its best for you.
  • Stand for what is right. Search for possible things that would help you find justice.
  • Be patient. Be kind. Be honest. And be brave. Have faith and be hopeful.

The table is empty and chairs are in place. The complaints are restrained and the defender has not yet arrived.

In the thoughts of the oppressed many questions are asked. Many things has to be laid upon the empty table and tears may fell unwarned. But emotions must be put aside and put herself back together to speak right.

On this empty table, the tension will become apparent. But as you pack yourself into the truth, you will have peace while you wait for absolute help. Justice has mercy, it may take a while. The waiting can be so long when you didn’t t had the strength to move on.

Imagine the years that took you before you came here today. It was good you never took justice in your hands but with a restless heart you still had hope that all will be in its place. God had placed authorities to pursue your rights. The states and its branches are under God’s law. They will not be blind for unrighteousness because you are seeking for what is right.

Never think in a second to give up. If you are experiencing difficulties right niw ubder a process.. Keep on. Keep fighting and set your mind on the heavenly things. It might take time to heal but the main process is to go against the nature of injustice. Your injury will get healed in its time and you will be able to stand again. In God’s grace you will be given the strength to start again.. Afresh.

Be patient…. Justice will be served!

I Grew Each Passing Day

I Grew Each Passing Day

I grew more with my walk with the Lord every day and i experienced that i learned little better in time

Serving God in daily basis is indeed a marriage of the spiritual life

I indeed realise as along the way when we learned a lot… We becoming wise and as a part of heavenly wisdom.. We dont tend to be offended on things that mlstly many are annoyed at. I looked at it usually now and make sure I do what is good. As proverbs 16.24 says a righteous person falls 7 times. Then gets up again. But the wicked falls when calamity comes.
They easily give up

As for now i still work with my emotions towards certain things. And i try to manage my heart more than anything else because it is there where the Instructions of God shall reside. In my soul I do not want to hate a brother. But my heart shall decide for its actions and thats the only part I can discipline…

I try my best to work it out especially recently when i had a bad situation in my past marriage. I heard I had demons and as my problems couldn’t resolve, they have baked more demons instead of helping me out. I had no parental guidance in sweden and the only help i expected was with the company within the faith. Yet they hurt me. Yet I did my very best to not take it to heart. And i did my best not to be a madman. I cried and was deeply embarrassed. Yes i got discouraged, i got disappointed. But only for a while. I think that i want to spend my time believing that things will turn out good despite of trials. Im proud I kept my mouth speaking evil things and slipping nonsense. I did not complain. I did not provoke any. I did not backbite. I kept in heart hid my tears and God is patient with me.

In understanding I grew. Im proud spiritually that I didnt made my eyes sin. I kept My lips and my mind from sin in the middle of disappointments and trials.

It is indeed true, that keeps those whose eyes are on Him. And it is indeed important to keep your trust in Him in the midst of difficulties. For one day, the Lord will bring peace. And in peace within yourself, God brings solutions to situations you are facing. Be Still and Know He is your God.

Abortion? The spirit of evil..

Abortion? The spirit of evil..

I am a survivor proof that even though it was a long time plan to abort me so God let me live …I do not know how many times my mother jumped and took medications just to get rid of me.

Then in the 8th month, she took even stronger medicine but it couldn’t. When I was born, the maternal nurse discovered that I am blind on the left eye, which may cause me to become blind when I grow up about 30 … I came out into the world with an inflamed, swollen eye and my mother hated me. I heard time and again how unhappy she was to see me. Wish I was dead. But my mind is strong. Learn to read early, draw strange things. Mature too early. Life became hard, but I learned to love her after all .. Because I know that anger cannot take me back to the event but I love life as it is. I met bullying in school because of the appearance, was called for all possible words because of the abortion. Failed child.

Today I live and am not blind. I see a little bit on the left eye through a miracle .. Thank you God.

I feel sorry for those who are hard hit and those who are unborn as the lawsuit has been taken away from them. My mother in any case after many years had asked for apology for those she did and that without complete info she had to learn about abortion and what consequences the child or woman gets until later. I have not been angry with her about it but without the result that was, I was very disappointed with her before. Thank Elohim our God and Yeshua our Messiah who gave me a new heart to see the light .. But even until today, the abortion event has an impact on me.

With that in the background, I in the Philippines have helped women who had thoughts about abortion. With God’s help, the unborn came into the world unscathed. Not everyone but you can help some 😊 There is hope for the women who believe they have power over the body and the power to take the gift of life from the womb. Giving them an insight into what and how the child became was their responsibility whatever it was for life situations they were in. The hope is that there are people who can support them and listen .. There are enough people on earth who will take care of their children if they did not want to keep the baby themselves. I have no claim to be angry with those who chose turn to keep their pregnancy but are very angry at those who are really deaf to hear and have the ill will to kill another person. On the other hand, I also hate people who are aides to murder .. God hates a murderer .. And with the women who carried out abortion and help to murder, God’s word describes it as an immoral act. Time and again even according to the history of the bible and the facts, devilish people have always existed. It is written in the scripture that people who do wrong to their mankind and take their lives are murderers and going against the commandments of God, so to speak. The law also describes the same.. The human rights not to murder. However, if there is someone who had already done so and accidentally read my post, I do not want to give someone a bad feeling. There is hope to turn around and resist the other murderers.
God hears all these unborn voices and every one who agrees to it will gain their profit from both good and evil. In all form God gives every man his punishment according to his deeds.

In Sweden, it is completely open with this and in other parts of the world.

In my home country, on the other hand, it is done in hidden , but if you are discovered, you get a prison sentence just like a murderer.

However, God must have mercy on the nations and the leaders of the countries who are co-workers of the murder of children. May God bribg justice in miracle way..

These children will cry and scream justice before the throne of God. The time of the lawless has come .. These children cry .. He hears it.

Sorry no Sorry

Sorry no Sorry

Most of us want others to forgive and move on. But we most forget what we said that broke their heart.

When God forgives us, He wants us to be reminded of what we spoke and take back the harsh words we have said. God promises then that we shall CONFESS TO ONE ANOTHER (A CONVERSATION BETWEEN PEOPLE WHO HAVE SOME TROUBLED STORY OR SOME CIRCUMSTANCES THAT CAME UP WHICH CAUSED DIVISION AND HURT ) and God promised that after we have asked forgiveness from people we hurt, or atleast we forgive other who hurt us, then we can pray to Him.. And God then FORGIVES US. and also He will remove all our sin and will not remember it anymore..

But to mere humans..we keep avoiding to ask forgiveness because we think God takes care of it. Without knowing that the person we hurt unconsciously are struggling emotionally, physically, and maybe spiritually falling.. Isnt it we are easy stumbling block for them? And isn’t it we bear the responsibility of their hurt..?

He would if we dont have any opportunity to find the person but as we can find the people and are just reach of hand, we can have a talk with them..
It takes a courage to ask forgiveness, it takes pride to be torn down before we acknowledge our own fault.
We are actually cruel!

In my experience, I grew up in a surrounding where I was thought to say sorry. In the fellowship I grew up with, i have learned to ask forgiveness. It took courage before I learned to do that at home. Still to this day, i have never heard sorry from the people that violated me, raped me, judged me and spoken things behind me.. On my part, I am proud to say that I asked forgiveness because I know myself that It is sinful to have resentment in my heart. And I know for a fact that it sets me free from having debts to anyone even if I think I am right. It did not matter if I think I was right. What matters most was, I was courageous to ask forgiveness and say sorry and I meant it.
This is what gave me peace… No doubt. Thats the Spirit of God.

No wonder why Psychological problems arise. Because there are many things we take for granted.
Some people waits for the time until the person who hurt them say SORRY! It even takes 10years,20 years or 50years before they would hear Sorry, before they themselves would dare to say Sorry!
Isnt it we humans, want God to be forgiving.. But we were born of adversity.. Filled of pretension.. Inside the church.. Many of us hide faces in walls of white…

If you somehow had hurt someone else. Be brave to ask someone forgiveness and acknowledge your fault. It will not make you weak. In fact, it will make you more peaceful and happier. If you can’t find the person. At least have a conversation with God to lead you and remind you your own feelings so He may cleanse your heart.

Those who knew me personally know that the real me loves people with sincerity..

I hope I may not hit some toes. Coz If I do.. Then my purpose has been fulfilled…
#selfpotrait

De flesta av oss vill att andra ska förlåta och fortsätta. Men vi glömmer mest vad vi sa som bröt deras hjärta.

När Gud förlåter oss, vill han att vi ska påminnas om vad vi talade och ta tillbaka de hårda orden vi har sagt. Gud talade då att vi skall bekänna till varandra (ett samtal mellan två människor som har någon misslyckad historia eller vissa omständigheter som kom upp som orsakade fördelning och skada ) och Gud lovade att efter att vi har begärt förlåtelse från människor som vi skadat eller åtminstone förlåter vi andra som skadar oss, då kan vi be till honom .. Och då förlåtar Gud oss. och även han kommer att ta bort all vår synd och kommer inte komma ihåg det längre ..

Men till oss människor .. Vi fortsätter att undvika att be om förlåtelse, för vi tror att Gud tar hand om det. Utan att veta att den personen som vi skadat omedvetet kämpar emotionellt, fysiskt och kanske andligt faller .. Är det inte lätt att stötta för dem och de snubblar? Och är det inte vi bär ansvaret för deras ont ..?

Om vi inte har någon möjlighet att hitta personen vi skadade men om vi kan hitta dessa personer och bara nå med en hand, kan vi ju prata med dem och samtala..
Det tar ett mod att be om förlåtelse, det tar tid med stolthet att riva ner den innan vi erkänner vårt eget fel.
Vi är faktiskt grymma!

Enligt min erfarenhet växte jag upp i en omgivning där jag vsrt upplärd att säga förlåt. I samhället växte jag upp med, jag har lärt mig att be om förlåtelse. Det tog mod innan jag lärde mig att göra det hemma. Fram tills idag har jag aldrig hört från de människor som kränkt mig, våldtagit mig, dömde mig och talade bakom mig.
Jag är stolt över att säga att jag bad om förlåtelse för att jag känner mig själv att det är syndigt att ha förbittring i mitt hjärta. Och jag vet för ett faktum att det ger mig frihet från att ha skulder till någon, även om jag tycker att jag har rätt. Det spelade ingen roll om jag tyckte att jag hade rätt. Det som betyder mest var att jag var modig att be om förlåtelse och säga förlåt och att jag menade det.
Det var det som gav mig fred … Ingen tvekan. Det är Guds Ande.

Inte undra på varför psykiska problem uppstår. Eftersom det finns många saker vi tar för givet.
Vissa människor väntar på tiden tills personen som skadade dem säger FÖRLÅT! Det tar till och med 10 år, 20 år eller 50 år innan de skulle höra det. Tyvärr är det så, innan de själva vågade säga förlåt!
Är det inte vi människor som vill att Gud ska förlåta .. Men vi föddes av motgång. Fylld av pretension .. Inuti kyrkan, bland troende.. Många av oss gömmer ansikten i den vita väggar …

Om du på något sätt hade skadat någon annan. Var modig för att fråga någon förlåtelse och erkänna ditt fel. Det kommer inte att göra dig svag. Det kommer faktiskt att göra dig mer fredlig och lyckligare. Om du inte hittar personen. Åtminstone ha en konversation med Gud för att leda dig och påminna dig dina egna känslor så att han kan rensa ditt hjärta.

De som kände mig personligen vet att den riktiga jag älskar människor med uppriktighet ..

Jag hoppas jag får inte slå några tår. För Om jag gjorde det.. Då har mitt syfte uppnåtts …

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Surrender

We are tempted to think that the more powerful we become, the better we will battle sin. But the exact opposite is true. The more power, influence, or prestige we possess, the more temptable we are. The strength of sin feeds on our sense of strength. This is why we are warned that “pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall” (Proverbs 16:18). In weakness, we feel our need for God, but when we are strong, we lack that saving sobriety. We lost the need of God and mostly in strength we tend to think THINGS ARE UNDER CONTROL..but it is not so. THEREFORE learning to surrender towards God is needed the most…then we will know how to respect a sovereign power over us. An authority to lead us and not to control us.
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Live Life far from Media

Live Life far from Media

Most people who do not feel good on the inside are more concerned with Facebook status than those who actually have a good life. Facebook or social media became an attention disorder for some.

In one or as soon as 5 minutes you become a celebrity.
However, it is good attention for entrepreneurs, vendors, institutions, sports and artists around the world. And that there is room to share their faith, thoughts and too much of their life.
Be careful when betting out your private life in the social. Imagine that there is reality outside the screen. Life is short, every hour is golden, so spend time with your families, friends, acquaintances and make no impression on people you do not like at all. Do not impress even those people that tries to intimidate you. Live the life as it is your rewards on earth while you breathe.

Keep in mind that we humans have no security for tomorrow.

Today or later or tomorrow we either wake up or die. What we do by the time is very important.

Slow down with social media, surfing, youtube and other things that are really useless for our soul and body

For the faithful, read more, pray for more, transform yourselves into an influencing tool with a good sense of will and power from above. Be the light of the world. Be more kinder, be more forgiving, appreciate more the trails of life. Be less in complaints and be more thankful. Do not impose too much of your own impression on others but live the faith accordingly to the instructions of the Torah. Be not fanatic, but be a believer. A belief that is Alive.

For most people, seek the truth about life, forgive, laugh and love people more than hate.

God is good who gives life to each and everyone.


De flesta som inte mår bra på insidan är mer oroade över Facebook-status än de som faktiskt har ett bra liv. Facebook eller sociala medier blev en uppmärksamhetssyndrom för vissa.

På en eller så fort som 5 minuter blir du kändis.
Det är dock bra uppmärksamhet för entreprenörer, försäljare, institutioner, sport och konstnärer runt om i världen. Och att det finns utrymme för att dela sin tro, tankar och för mycket av sitt liv.

Var försiktig när du delar ditt privatliv i det sociala. Tänk dig att det finns verklighet utanför skärmen.

Livet är kort, varje timme är guld, så spendera tid med dina familjer, vänner, bekanta och ge inget intryck på personer som du inte alls gillar. Imponera inte även de människor som försöker skrämma dig eller göra dig svartsjuk.

Lev livet, för det är dina belöningar på jorden medan du andas.

Tänk på att vi människor inte har säkerheten för imorgon.

Idag eller senare eller imorgon vaknar vi eller dör. Det vi gör vid tiden är väldigt viktigt.

Sakta ner med sociala medier, surfing, youtube och andra saker som är egentligen onyttig för vår själ och kropp.

För de troende, läs mer, be för mer, omvandla dig till ett påverkande verktyg med en god känsla av vilja och makt ovanifrån. Var världens ljus. Var mer förståelse, var mer förlåtande, uppskatta mer livets utmaningar. Var mindre i klagomål och var mer tacksam. Tryck inte för mycket av ditt eget intryck på andra, men leva din tro i enlighet med Torahs anvisningar. Var inte fanatisk, men var en troende. En tro som är Levande

För de flesta, sök sanning om livet, förlåta, skratta och älska människor mer än att hata.

Gud är gid som ger livet åt en och alla.

Being a Victim

Being a Victim

We mostly get tired of people whom are victims of abuse. And in our terms, our wish is that they would be set free. We do our best to take them out if it. Yet often we see then returning.

Of course we get distracted and disappointed because we dont understand what is happening in their minds. We think sometimes that our efforts were neglected and that our relationship with them somehow starts to be out of hand. Until the day, we want to give up forgetting that once we had the days when we also were victims.

We must understand it is a difficult situation for that person and it is a personal attachment. The only thing u can do is to allow the person see the wrong thing in the event. Although you have given your advice it is still very difficult for the person to be influenced by your thoughts because the person itself face the fear and has very low self esteem. You must remember that the abuser had stolen their identity and trampled their lives. In that manner the abuser was using its power to make use of the victims positive mind from the beginning. I believe that the abuser itself is a broken soul and it feeds to break another to feel a little better. To damp the brokenness inside. we must never forget to understand those who are in weak situations and we shall not look down on them i was once a victim and it took me so long before i got out if it. I was looked down by people who think that i get returning back to the abuser but the thing is, i wasn’t strong enough because the people that tried to pull me out of it are the ones who speaks about mistakes. Points out how i shall be and how i should think. It created confusion in me because I didnt know what to think for myself and the hopelessness grew… One day there was a person who found my strength by suggesting ne solutions and that friend never imposed aby ideas but stayed with me and told me. “You are strong enough” “do you think this things happening to you arecorrect?” “i will always listen to you sentiments until you get free from it because I am hoping you soon be free”
These were always her words whenever she got tired of my repetitive conversation. Until the day i stood for victory.

The idea of hurting others indeed comes from the inner source of the soul in hebrew called ‘jetser hara’ – long for evil. It is in the inner part of the soul connecting from the sinful nature of man. Yet the idea of doing good is the longing for good – jetser ha tov in hebrew.
These has been implanted in our soul therefore many of us either become aware of being abused or not aware of abusive behaviour.

Each of us.. No one can deny that even though we are born again has sometimes the attitude of abuse. Which in term of Paul, we can always discipline ourselves to not obey the jetser hara.

Please have kindness at heart and an understanding attitude towards the person you are facibg difficulties. We might not know what we say might lift then up or might bring them down. ❤️😘 I speak according to my experience.
Yeshua always look upon the broken hearted and has a contrite spirit. A broken soul is the one who needs guidance and has a restless mind. A contrite spirit has the sleepless thoughts and worries, an anxiety of the heart caused by other people who are abusing them and using them for their own benefits.

Yeshua had cared for these people and showed meekness and kindness to them. He was not exempted even to the humiliating events that we also experience in life. That is why He said,

I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty
John 6:35

Take it as an example.
Until then if the person want to stay where they are.. Then thats their matter.. We cant do nothing.. But to respect the decision.

Piece of Thought

Piece of Thought

Last year was full of disappointments, sorrows, tears, striving, wondering, expectation, pain, evil gaze, and wrong accusations.

In addition, it was full of new steps, new decisions and not letting the emotions take me. I realized in my difficult times that there are no genuine people. Even those who believe they are 100% righteous. Some people are quick to judge in advance before they know what has happened in one’s life. Adversity that not everyone was told during some time of struggles.

Certainly you can have friends, but when the time comes when the friendship is proven then you know that some can hang you up in the air. I am against religions and organizations hiding behind facades and living in others’ livelihoods. Such fanatics who want you to do only according to their own conclusions and own decisions. Those who talk a lot but were not present in weaknesses. I have learned that one should not tell too much about their private matters to others who pretend to be believers. Because it can be used as a weapon against one.
Have learned a lot that it is testing your faith when challenges arise. It tests your qualities and relationships with fellow human beings but on the other hand you are grounded to become another better person. Nice to avoid fake people and people who have seen me as a sinner, prostitute and those who say I am in need of attention. You divert people from the truth. Hypocrisy is great.
This year is ONE BIG BLESS for me and my family .. For this year I have the BEST TIME of FREEDOM. And this year was the PEACEFUL YEAR GOD HAD LED ME TO. AND God gets all the glory. May you be blessed. Thank you.


Förra året var full av besvikelser, sorg, tårar, strävan, förundran, förväntningar, smärta, onda blick och fel anklagelser. Dessutom det var fylld av nya steg, nya beslut och att inte låta känslorna inta mig. Jag insåg i mina svåra tider att det finns inga äkta människor. Även de som tro sig vara hundraprocent rättfärdiga. Vissa människor är snabba att döma i förväg innan de får veta vad som hänt i ens liv. Motgångar som inte alla fick höra under svpra tider. Visst man kan ha vänner men när tiden är inne då prövas vänskapen då vet man att vissa kan hänga upp dig i luften. Jag är emot religioner och organisationer som gömmer sig bakom fasader och lever i andras levebröd. Sådana fanatiker som vill att man ska bara göra enligt deras egna slutsatser och egna beslut. Sådana som pratar mycket men fanns inte i svagheter. Jag har lärt mig att man ska inte berätta för mycket om sina privata ärenden till andra som låtsas vara troende folk. För det kan användas som ett vapen emot en.
Har lärt en hel del att det prövar din tro när utmaningar uppstår. Det prövar dina egenskaper och förhållanden gentemot medmänniskor men däremot du blir slipad för att bli ännu en bättre människa. Skönt att slippa falska människor och folk som sett mig som en syndare, prostituerade och de som talar att jag är i behov av uppmärksamhet. Ni avleder människor ifrån sanningen. Hyckleri är stort.
Den här året är ETT STORT VÄLSIGNELSER för mig och min familj.. För den här året har jag FRIDENS BÄSTA TID. Och den här året var det fridfulla året GUD LEDT MIG till.OCH Gud får all ära. Må ni vara välsignad. Tack för mig.

Envy, you’ve been chasing Humanity!

Envy, you’ve been chasing Humanity!

I have also learned why people work so hard to succeed: it is because they envy the things their neighbors have. But it is useless. It is like chasing the wind. – King Solomon

People would envy others in their prosperity and so much that some would even parade themselves better than anyone. In their lives they work hard, they strive hard not because they love what they do. They work hard, strive hard because they want to impress people they don’t like. Show off to people they hated and brag to people that looked down on them..they suffer to become something but nit enjoying its result. Because from the beginning, the motivation they say to themselves was : “I WILL SHOW THEM WHAT I WILL BECOME, And I will prove myself to them” and after all is done, all comes to nothing, all becomes ashes after one. All the things they envied and worked hard to get meant nothing after all, because the heart was not in it and only the motivation of impression was there. And all the things became meaningless because there was no satisfaction and enjoyment in what they have achieved.

In all the achievement they get, the more sorrowful and depressed they become. For they have not seen the meaning of life and the joy in doing things with a merry heart. Their successive days were spent in agony of chasing after others attention

They chase success not for their heirs, but for their enemies whom which do not care. And their heirs would receive their part without care for it was not built for them.

Spare yourselves from this attitude and get rid of your own pride.

I would like to give you a simple piece of word. To first forgive those who harmed you and ask forgiveness to those you’ve harmed. Then seek a good thing that you want to do and put all your heart in it. Do it for your sake and for your beloved ones. You dont need to impress yourself to others and you dont need to show off that you are getting better. You dont need to be confirmed that you are doing the best. But do all your best to satisfy yourself and create a good integrity among your family and surrounding. You can do things with all your hope and belief without others watching you. But let all be done with a merry heart in the sight of God. Get rid of envy, for it is like a cancer to mind. The more succeed you become, the more gentle and giving you shall be. The more known and infuencial you are, the more open and down to earth you shall be. Dont assume you know it all. For remember, all will be ashes in time amd your hardwork will meant nothing. Dont spend your life in envy and bitterness.

Be Godly and decent. .
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Renew ourselves

Renew ourselves

When we see how the tree, which during the winter was dry and withered and is now in full bloom, we are revitalized. When we watch the transformation of nature, we gain the courage and inspiration to lift out of our despair, and it reminds us that God has given us the tools to renew ourselves.

We gain the courage to lift out of despair, to renew ourselves.

We live in a time when it’s a struggle to keep hope alive. All that is decent in mankind seems to be impatient against forces so irrational and evil that peace seems to be beyond what any thought can elaborate.

And yet… the trees give us a message of hope. They show us how after a period of barreness and drought despair and sadness comes the bloom and incomparable great perfume.. The gladness it brings and the signs of life that the flower expresses through its fragrance. It welcomes attention from passerby and how it represents the beauty of wonders. We all are like flowers that blooms in time and withers after its purpose. All the gazers are filled with wonders as they watched the spectacular scene of the flowers beauty but never had they thought how you had made it so far. Yet under the times of our excellence we perform the beauty and hid the secrets which was cultivated by trials and forces of darkness before bloom. And we will always bloom in time… We will always loose every single petals of our excellencies when the due time draws near. Therefore, before we reach the blooming season, we shall work with a grateful heart and a thankful mind being committed to the purpose we are aimed for. To reach the passerby and give hope and enlightenment for them. As a tree, you will know that every season has its own unique features that teaches us how to manage to grow and to bloom. God never abandons us and He always sustain the ground for us to stand out. We will never lack nothing and we will live throughout the time even when we pass away.. There will always be an imprint behind us.. Under the hands of God we are nurtured very well!
So be the light of the world and be like a Cedar tree and blossom…

Debunking Matrix – Never a Biblical Movie

Debunking Matrix – Never a Biblical Movie

The MATRIX idea is not biblical..

I will tell you why:

Christianity makes use of many stories and ideas which have been part of human culture and secular traditions for many years. And for a long time, many Christian leaders do create sermons out of their own minds and created fables to make a standard of being intelligently knowledgeable without knowing or without reading the facts, history or source of the origin of the bible, or at least knowing the status of its source. Many times, because they are leaders of a certain flock, church, organisation or institutions, we mostly regard them as our eldest siblings or teachers or sometimes idolise them.  Many of the sermons we hear may actually be sedative to infuse in our minds and in our hearts. And these sermons, although we find out later on that they are wrong, we mostly are compromising because they have become our friends…But that should not be an excuse. We all are here to learn from each other, right?

My intention is not to destroy but to raise some insight and maybe a bit of push so you also can read your bible and even to make a research for yourself.

Many entertainment movies nowadays just ride along, and for your sake you can also be deceived because it looks cool, or either it is very cozy to spend time with friends having “common” belief because actually “there is nothing wrong in watching the film coz we sometimes think it is” biblical” thinking that it has a Biblical title. Mostly, why would “pastor makes a sermon out oof it” he sounded so wise.. So we think “it will be fine” Or maybe its time to read some history again. or maybe, let us start reading the scriptures carefully… 🤣 What do you think?

Now, talking about the Favorite of many! MATRIX The film contains numerous allusions to philosophical and religious ideas, including existentialism, Marxism, feminism, Buddhism, nihilism, and postmodernism.While some critics have praised the film for its handling of difficult subjects, others characterize the film’s themes as being largely overshadowed by its action scenes. (karate? Teakwondo? Judo?  Jackie Chan(he was actually more funnier) Hmm very large!)

“Hints..

Rene Descartes = french philosopher and mathematician. 17th century – philosophical questions * intellectual autonomy and that the experiences did not always match reality.

Written in his book : MEDITATIONS ON FIRST PHILOSOPHY “

Matrix movie: Neo discovers that what we all think is the real world is actually an illusion, a virtual reality created by artificial intelligence that has conquered the human race and turned it into an energy source for machines.

Yeshua never taught that the world we live and suffer in is fake; Yeshua never taught us to think all is illusion. Yeshua came to confirm that the heavenly realm or the unseen world can be impacted by the restoration of his offering to restore the spiritual relationship between God and mankind. he came to save people from sin and pain, not to claim that sin and pain aren’t real. If there’s a Buddhist-Christian connection here, it’s tenuous.

One thing..

The red and blue pill may also represent the red and blue lodges of Freemasonry, the Blue Lodge being of the first three degrees which are technically the only true Masonic degrees, and the Red Lodge being the extra degrees such as is found in Scottish Rite or York Rite Masonry.

Exodus: Gods and the Kings: transforming Moses into a terrorist-type character rather than God’s prophet, and was generally regarded to have departed from scripture altogether.

Noah:Noah’s sons weren’t without wives on the ark. In Aronofsky’s fanciful version, only one of Noah’s sons, Shem, has a wife (played by Emma Watson)—and she ends up pregnant with twin girls who, we assume, will eventually become wives for Noah’s other two sons. Huh? In the Genesis account, God tells Noah: “You shall enter the ark—you and your sons and your wife, and your sons’ wives with you” (Gen. 6:18).

The Shack: When the man arrives at the shack, Mack meets the three divine Persons of the Trinity in the forms of a black woman (the Father, “Papa”), a Jewish man (the Son, Jesus), and an Asian woman (the Holy Spirit, whose name “Sarayu” is a Sanskrit word that means “wind”).

What should we say about this representation of the God? First, Yeshua taught His disciples to refer to the Almighty as “Our Father” (Matthew 6:9). Yet, the Father is not human and does not have a human sex or gender.  God in a simple way have to show himself in a form where we can understand. For instance, Jacob wrestled with an angel,  or a donkey that speaks, a whale that took Jonah to his right place. These are the ways of God to show us a simple message that we can easily understand but He himself will not show his face. (referring to Moses up the mountain and Moses saw only the back of God) thus God is omnipotent and can express himself in the manners that we can perceive Him.

Remember we are finite-we have a calculation of living one earth – we are born at certain time and we die  (hopefully like Avraham).  God is INFINTE-immeasureable or endless, never-ending (same same forever)

The Bible clearly teaches that God’s image is reflected by male and female alike (Genesis 1:27) and that His children come “from every nation, from all tribes and peoples and languages” (Revelation 7:9, ESV).

conclusions

When a certain film covers up a bible verse or a quotation from Our Ancient teachers like Moses and Jesus, does not mean it is reliable or it does not also means it is pure and clean and edible for the soul to chew. We have to dig deep the truth coz we as believers and students of Yeshua are easily ensnared by the tales and fables of the human entertainment. Many can claim that some films are biblically based yet whenever a film does not confirm its full purpose, it is a lie. There are films that are indeed true to its message, and when you find them they consists of moral teachings without mixture of other religious activities, symbols and rituals.  Aside from films that are clear to their message like movies that mocks the believers, it is very certain among our brethrens that we are filled with ignorance most of the time. Because many of the films created, as long it is titled with biblical theme, for some it is very tempting and seductive to watch that even the whole congregation sermon can be a marketing stage and recommendations that they can be watched. Personally, I watch movies rarely, i usually look at documentaries or history related films, or sometimes watch some children movies but allows my children to recognise which is right and wrong information. Mostly, we notice the wrong things whenever we read and are well informed of our history or by searching the facts biblically. But, it may differ from different sources. I sually read articles from certified historians.

Proverbs 2:6 For the LORD gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.

  There is a scripture that writes : Psa 101:3  I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes: I hate the work of them that turn aside; it shall not cleave to me. 

Speaking of movies, I am very supportive on reality based movies. There are lots of them where you can see how a person was changed through time and how faith had inspired and motivated them to be a whole new creation.  It takes an observant to question a movie wether it is legitimate to use or even laid on by the eyes. So it is your decision of course to see what you like, but it is for you to know what is legible and if you see the truth of course you have the responsibility to also warn others.

I do not write these to become overly reactive but to give you an insight to also become aware of what you see and hear from others. You must always test the things you hear by finding them in the scriptures never forgetting where it all began or whom and which nation and tribe it all started.

Beware! Such thing can draw us into idolatry. Worse it can be a strange service.

Much Love

Rochelle