When the words Collide! Be strong!

When the words Collide! Be strong!

What was the hardest thing about having a mental illness like PTSD, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY?

I THINK it was the silence; when people discover that you suffer from mental illness, they don’t know what to say, and the conversation becomes rigid or they can become so far away.

I wish people would ask more about my emotions, I wish they would show an interest to know what I’m going through, I wish they would listen more than imply their minds on what they think I supposed to do. I wish they would allow me to share my experiences to feel that I don’t need to suffer alone. But as reality reveals, people are afraid of what they fear might come to them..

Rather than judgement within religious people that I am demonic, or judgement generally that I am an unhealthy and crazy person. In the sight of humanity, I was dehumanised.

What I discovered is that, due to my personal injuries many might not be as willing to talk as I am. As far as we know, the stigma of mental illness hurts more than the illness itself.
Somehow I am grateful because the illness had taught me well to discover the part of me which cannot be achieved by someone else who would go through the circumstances I have been. And I know that not all people suffering are as observant and as open as I am.

Within this perspective, I realised though that I have given an impression to some whom are willing to learn about mental illness and how do I manage to live life daily. I share the insights and understanding to those who didn’t experience the causes of my suffering. Isn’t that supposed to be a valuable lesson for anybody to stop giving a brand on people’s lives suffering in different ways or manner of illness mentally..

You have no Idea you hurt us bad when you are a believer and you say we are suffering from demons.

You have no idea you hurt us bad when you, without religion speaks that we are crazy, making fun of us in your private conversations and addressing us as the extra cost of society.

In this manner, I would like to send a letter to those who suffer PTSD like me. Even though you suffer depression or anxiety.. God is not as the men who judge you. He understands what you’re going through and there is a purpose that someone else should learn from you because He knows you are stronger than those who can’t afford to carry that burden.
God is with you and with the broken heart. Your wings will be restored and you will stand again. Do not be afraid to speak your mind, because I know that despite of your suffering.. You are mindful of what others would feel if you throw them the wrong word. I know you care despite the fact that it isn’t seen obviously. I know you are strong in the surface but soft beneath those lines of strong words you released.

Be brave and Be prayerful to a God who knows you more than anyone else. Don’t let your heart be frightened. Do not be afraid. God is with you wherever you go. He will never abandon you, He will uphold you and Hold you with His Righteousness.

Love and blessings
/Rochelle Rosenberg

Do not Identify from Assumptions of Others

Do not Identify from Assumptions of Others

In the assumptions of many, i was home wrecker, a bittergourd, attention seeker, or someone whom are distant. No one actually know who I am because it was never revealed to those whom are false to me. Those who assumed to know me, have never heard of my struggling and deep experience.
In their assumptions, I wouldn’t have a place for success, they did not believe in my ability. I would just be that unnoticed person whom they called “attention seeker”. And from that, it crossed my heart deeply.


But in all the stamp that people had pasted on my identity, in a moment I was hurt, I cried and screamed in the dark. But after a while I learned to use them as a tool to engage with the power of Courage and take part to the journey that will lead me towards the making of a mature individual.


I might be distant and I might not have a group of friends. But it doesn’t make me feel lonely. I know some acquaintances are near and caring to me. I am always an emotional person and swayed by all the people that loved me through it all.

I might seem very far to many by expectations, but I assure that I never needed to please anyone. I am sure hospitable but never a rub a feet to please. I am always true to everyone I meet and even to myself. Thus, God had made me strong all this years.


In all the assumptions of many, and in all the stamps I received. I never identified my self from any of it. I am confident that God will be my strength and God will be my hope in all circumstances. I have experienced to have nothing and to have more. Yet what matters to me is the growth of my spirituality.

Autumn Leaves Like Womens Beauty

Autumn Leaves Like Womens Beauty

Women… Can be considered likely to the autumn leaves.. Perhaps it is very harsh to compare it in this manner.. But in my perception it is much closer than a flower…

Such beauty you are… Is not like someone else. Such beauty you are.. Is completely unique.. God made you.. To be not like everyone else.. Believe that.

Women… You always wanted to be beautiful.. Mostly you ask for confirmation… And you hunger for it.. To be defined beautiful… But what is beauty.. When one day, it will pass on your season and you will fall on your branches, to the ground as everyone would pass you by.

I suppose you would love yourself the way you are. I suppose you would see yourself just as simply as it is. I wish you don’t need to compare yourself to others, and I wish you wouldn’t try to be like someone else.. Such beauty you are… Is not like someone else. Such beauty you are.. Is completely unique.. God made you.. To be not like everyone else.. Believe that.

I suppose you would love yourself the way you are. I suppose you would see yourself just as simply as it is. I wish you don’t need to compare yourself to others, and I wish you wouldn’t try to be like someone else..

Who would care about the days you were tall and vibrant. Who would remember the days you bore fruit of different colors and made eyes stand by.. When now.. All of your achievements come to pass and all your legendary experience becomes a history.

As you fall from the branch, everyone continues with their lives. And you struggled in every falling leaf with a fear that the branch would follow to break. Fear you would fall on the hard ground.. Soak in all the mystery of the autumn rain.. To be torn by the waters and decompose…

a mature individual, made wise by life experiences rather than inborn childlike naivety. Whom has lived through goodness and the darkness of life, yet, perceives the world in vibrant multicolor

These leaves remind me of a mature individual, made wise by life experiences rather than inborn childlike naivety. Whom has lived through goodness and the darkness of life, yet, perceives the world in vibrant multicolor. Her experiences have brought about a transformation where she no longer fits into the same dimension of environment but has emerged a richer individual, carrying an array of hues and shades, ideas and perspectives, empathy and perceptiveness. A resemblance of fullness in purpose.. A character of depth and dignity, a symbol of full perception of right and wrong. A time of understanding the situation of people’s chosen path… And then… She have to wait for the time that her twigs would loosen her…

Why should such beauty result from decomposition? Isn’t beauty something positive we would normally associate with completeness and vibrancy? What is the message we are to take from this paradox of nature?

Maybe the message of autumn is the reminder that there is tremendous beauty G‑d wants us to enjoy in this physical world. But without recognizing that He is the source behind it, without that connection to Him, the physical world is dead. When we do recognize Him, however, the world can be quite a beautiful place.

Nevertheless.. Do not forget the ONE who have given you your season.. And do not worry about the things that are not necessary. Accept the way you are and find the talents and skills that you have. Use it.. And contribute to make a better world. You are a part of that wholeness of Beauty..

My Silent Words for you!

My Silent Words for you!

If I had not come to Sweden, my life would have been different. Maybe not as good as today but I probably do not have the same feelings as I have right now. I may not have met people who hurt me and said words that tore my soul. Before I came, I had an old wound, I did not have time to grieve.

When I came to Sweden, I got to experience loneliness in a society with good food and life. A society that offered fulfillment of my dreams. However, it costs.

I met people who were not careful with their words, judging tongues with their leprosy. I met people who I thought were my friends who later, after seeing my weaknesses and mistakes, left me. A bone broken, half the heart bleeds. I had nowhere to go.

I met people with exploitative motives who wanted my fall. I met people I thought were my friends, I met people who had never believed in me.

They hurt me, they murdered me in their hearts. I cried, I screamed, I crawled in pain. The pain that no one saw physically, the pain that no one can describe, only I who know it, only I who see it.
It became my challenge after all.

In solitude, I sat in front of windows with eyes open. I look up to heaven. My thousand thoughts drew me back to where I have been. Where once, despite difficulties, I felt a sense of security. My native country. My beloved Philippines. My dearest country, my language, my people.

Alone, I thought, what am I doing here? In solitude I felt my vulnerability, I felt the feeling of death, but death did not come to me. My heart was beating like never before, and my tears were flowing freely, it was burning in my soul. I didn’t know it would feel so hard.
Very challenging. I’ve had alot to deal with. And I was by myself. Some nights during the winter I look up into the sky, awake in the middle of the night. Fascinated by the snow falling on my face, and in one second my hair was touched. The cold that tells me I am alive somehow. In the darkness of the cold winter, I speak for myself and wait for answers .. When? When will this end? And the tears ran like waterfalls. I felt, an angel touched my soul. A strength and hope from heaven.

God heard my prayers. And God comforted me. In the dark, I came to know that there is a light. And in the dark, I know the stars can shine bright for me to see. That tomorrow when I wake up, there will be a better future. And tomorrow will be another day.

After all, I also met people who loved me, liked me, hugged me, greeted me, and prayed for me. Met people who sat with me, listened to me, and held my hand without words. Some have come with a smile and gave their thoughts without condemning words. For a moment I felt that they cared without the cost.
For a little while I remembered days and nights as I whispered in the air, I know the wind brought it to heaven.

I thank you for everything you do …
I thank you for listening.
I thank you for coming by without feeling compelled.
I thank you .. For you loved me after all.
I thank you for giving me time ..
I thank you .. For sitting next to me in my solitude ..

It’s hard to feel like I do .. It’s hard to describe those feelings ..
Without words, without my body language …
You showed that you care …
Although I have not dared to say …
Deep down in my heart ..
I thank you for being there.

Om jag inte hade kommit till Sverige hade mitt liv varit annorlunda. Kanske inte lika bra som idag men jag har nog inte samma känslor som jag har just nu. Jag kanske inte ha träffat människor som sårade mig och sagt ord som rev min själ. Innan jag kom, hade jag ett gammal sår, det hade jag inte tid att sorga efter.

När jag kom till Sverige, jag fick uppleva ensamhet i ett samhälle med bra föda och livsföring. Ett samhälle som erbjöd uppfyllelse av mina drömmar. Det kostar dock.

Jag träffade människor som var inte försiktiga med sina ord, dömande tungor med sina spetälska. Jag träffade människor som jag trodde var mina vänner som senare, efter att ha setts mina svagheter och misstag, lämnade mig. Ett ben brutit, halva hjärtat blöder. Jag hade ingenstans att ta vägen.

Jag träffade människor med uttnyttjande motiv, som önskade mitt fall. jag träffade människor som jag trodde var mina vänner, jag träffade människor som hade aldrig trott på mig.

De sårade mig, de mördade mig i sina hjärtan. Jag grät, jag skrek, jag kröp i smärtan. Smärtan som ingen såg fysisk, smärtan som ingen kan beskriva, bara jag som känner det, bara jag som ser det.
Det blev min utmaning trots allt.

I ensamhet, satt jag framför fönster med ögonen öppna. Jag ser upp till himmelen. Mina tusen tankar drog mig tillbaka där jag har varit. Där jag en gång trots svårigheter kände en trygghet. Mitt hemland. Min älskade Filippinerna. Min käraste land, mitt språk, mitt folk.

I ensamhet tänkte jag, vad gör jag här. I ensamhet kände jag min sårbarhet, jag kända känslan av döden, men döden kom inte till mig. Mitt hjärta slog som aldrig förr, och mina tårar flödar fritt, det sved i själen. Jag visste inte att det skulle känna så hårt.
Mycket utmaning. Mycket att ta itu med. Och jag var själv. Vissa nätter under vintern tittar jag upp i himmelen, vaken mitt i natten. Fascinerad av snön som faller på mitt ansikte, och på nån sekund rörde mitt hår. Kylan som talar att jag lever i alla fall. I mörkret av den kalla vintern, Talar jag för mig själv och väntar på svar.. När? När ska det här ta slut? Och tårarna rann som vattenfall. Jag kände, en ängel rörde min själ. En styrka och hopp från himmelen.

Gud hörde mina bön. Och Gud tröstat mig. I mörkret lärde jag känna att det finns ett ljus. Och i mörkret, vet jag att stjärnorna kan lysa klart för mig att se. Att imorgon nör jag vaknar, det kommer bli en bättre framtid. Och imorgon kommer bli en annan dag.

Trots allt, träffade jag även människor som älskade mig, tyckte om mig, kramade mig, hälsade på mig, och bad för mig. Träffade människor som satt med mig, lyssnade på mig, och höll min hand utan ord. Vissa har kommit med ett leende och gav sina tankar utan fördömande ord. För en stund kände jag att de bryr sig utan kostnaden.
En liten stund kom jag ihåg dagar och nätter när jag viskade i luften, jag vet att vinden tog med sig det till himmelen.

Jag tackar.. För allt du gör…
Jag tackar.. För att du lyssnade..
Jag tackar.. För att du kom förbi utan att känna dig tvungen.
Jag tackar.. För du älskade mig trots allt.
Jag tackar.. För att du gav mig tid..
Jag tackar.. För du satt bredvid i min ensamhet..

Det svårt att känna som jag gör.. Det svårt att beskriva mona känslor..
Utan ord, utan min kroppsspråk…
Du visade att du bryr dig…
Även om jag inte har vågat säga…
Innerst i mitt hjärta..
Jag tackar att du finns.


Your fear of God begins in Knowing Him

Your fear of God begins in Knowing Him

Therefore Education and Success has just a place in mankind to be used in service of others and not for own benefits. For in the day of our death, sucess will just be an echoe in the lying bed. In the silence of our bodies, we will not hear the success stories we have done, for God will reveal the true test of our victory.

It is a freedom to know the wisdom of God. And it is unbearable to know it. For by the time you start knowing the wisdom of heaven, you are obliged to perform its duty and to bear the mind of the upright. In wisdom, you shall be fit in mind and even the face of others. For you will always have a watchful eye on you. And these million eyes will never dare to see your good deeds but only sees when you stumble.

Educate yourself therefore with the ways of the Lord. And bring forth your soul to the humility of your heart. Seek the wisdom of God and you will know the fear of the Lord.

Proverbs 1:7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction.

Proverbs 2:6 For the LORD gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.

Psalm 19:2 Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they reveal knowledge.

When big realities is seen in this world and in this generation? After all, theres the wars, murders, thefts, the poor and the poorer in soul, and the ills, and the jealousy and hatred and the groans, and the cries and the dead, are constantly reduced?
And if a man tells me, are you then enlightened and hated by wisdom? Blessed be God for showing me this wisdom. For opening my eyes from slumber of folly and stupidity..
From my childhood to the present, I have loved exploration and observation, for the sake of finding the truth, and for understanding the hidden, and for recognizing the lie and the mistake, and from seeking the truth will never cease my heart. but I have never liked nor enlightened education for my benefit, and to much good and succeed.
And there is no reason, and no advice, that it will be able to save man from any trouble and distress, and give him existing success. Education on earth is fine for the purposes of survival of mankind. And if the claimant continues to argue. And not in the holy language call, success in the name of education, it is clear that success depends on education and intelligence to which I will reply. There is education, and there is education. But as education exist, then man is the more dangerous as he can be. For who would know in the end where the man would lay his learning? Will he serve others or will he benefit himself alone? And there is education, of this world and there is education from the heavens given through the Messenger of God.

May the Lord be merciful to us all.
To the young and old alike.

Credit to Sefaria in the chapter of Sefer Yesodei HaTorah

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Contentment

Contentment

Right now! Are you satisfied with your life? As of now, are you content with what you have and what you are? Within satisfaction matter, do you envy others and still hungry for what they have?

Contentment in life is a big deal of maturity…

I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:12-13)

I have experienced poverty. I grew up in a family where my parents livelihood were just enough for a days meal.
There were days in my childhood years where I wish towards days of abundance. And it gave me comfort to think that one day, it will be better.
Then there were also days where we have overflowing food and our needs were met.

Then time came, I grew up. Got a job. Friends from different sources and lifestyle have surrounded me.
I was overwhelmed by it. Until I saw many sides of being wealthy.
Even if people are wealthy and lack nothing, surrounded by materialistic world and pleasure. I noticed the sadness in their lives, being able to defend their properties and fear of thieves and shopping was their comfort. The loneliness had become their enemy and discomfort in themselves had become their illness.
Self centered became their primary focus, “I” and “Me” is their ways of thinking and they are filled with lies of living filling themselves with thoughts that somehow it would make them happy. Then they were filled with pride and perversity, speaking of curses towards the poor and the lowly.

I stopped in a minute, and thought. Not so Lord God. I would rather live life that I have now rather than having that sadness in life. Poverty gives possibility of being content in any situation of life. Having self control in attitude and knowing the existence of life through God.
It’s good to have wealth, but it also means of giving and sharing your blessings to those who are need. I saw by my eyes that wealth can be a way of open doors and can even be a way to destruction.
It’s better that my life is easier. My needs are met by God’s riches and wealth. Basic needs are food, shelter and clothing. I have these. And I have my kids and a husband that loves the Lord. I have my family that cares and friends that loves at all times. And most I have the Lord Jesus that loves me and think of me all the time so I didn’t need to worry about anything because I know that by time, God gives according to our capabilities and responsibilities. I am more content both to earthly life and my inner peace is in God’s grace and love.
That my Spiritual life is more important than ever before.
Because I understand that life is very much more important than anything else in these world. Life is precious, every second and minute of it.
I love the Lord God rather than living like a queen. For being a Child of God is a better position rather than titles and career on earth that can’t be taken in heaven.
My soul will then bless the Lord as long as I live. So now you choose which way you place your heart. As it is written:

Matthew 6:19-21Complete Jewish Bible
19 “Do not store up for yourselves wealth here on earth, where moths and rust destroy, and burglars break in and steal. 20 Instead, store up for yourselves wealth in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and burglars do not break in or steal. 21 For where your wealth is, there your heart will be also.

I Grew Each Passing Day

I Grew Each Passing Day

I grew more with my walk with the Lord every day and i experienced that i learned little better in time

Serving God in daily basis is indeed a marriage of the spiritual life

I indeed realise as along the way when we learned a lot… We becoming wise and as a part of heavenly wisdom.. We dont tend to be offended on things that mlstly many are annoyed at. I looked at it usually now and make sure I do what is good. As proverbs 16.24 says a righteous person falls 7 times. Then gets up again. But the wicked falls when calamity comes.
They easily give up

As for now i still work with my emotions towards certain things. And i try to manage my heart more than anything else because it is there where the Instructions of God shall reside. In my soul I do not want to hate a brother. But my heart shall decide for its actions and thats the only part I can discipline…

I try my best to work it out especially recently when i had a bad situation in my past marriage. I heard I had demons and as my problems couldn’t resolve, they have baked more demons instead of helping me out. I had no parental guidance in sweden and the only help i expected was with the company within the faith. Yet they hurt me. Yet I did my very best to not take it to heart. And i did my best not to be a madman. I cried and was deeply embarrassed. Yes i got discouraged, i got disappointed. But only for a while. I think that i want to spend my time believing that things will turn out good despite of trials. Im proud I kept my mouth speaking evil things and slipping nonsense. I did not complain. I did not provoke any. I did not backbite. I kept in heart hid my tears and God is patient with me.

In understanding I grew. Im proud spiritually that I didnt made my eyes sin. I kept My lips and my mind from sin in the middle of disappointments and trials.

It is indeed true, that keeps those whose eyes are on Him. And it is indeed important to keep your trust in Him in the midst of difficulties. For one day, the Lord will bring peace. And in peace within yourself, God brings solutions to situations you are facing. Be Still and Know He is your God.

What?? Once Saved Always Saved?

What?? Once Saved Always Saved?

One of the core teachings of Christianity is that we need to have faith in order to be saved. But what kind of faith saves us?

What is it that we have to be saved from?
Sins? Eternal damnation? Destruction?

In this study we’re going to discuss how we know we’re saved.

To do this, we’re going to look at three examples of people in the Bible who mistakenly thought they were saved, ( see Romans 5:9 ) see why they were wrong, and from that learn how we can know we’re saved.

Mistake #1 – Believing you’re saved because of your tradition

“Jesus said to them, ‘If God were your Father, you would love me, for I came from God and I am here. Why do you not understand what I say? It is because you cannot bear to hear my word. You are of your father the devil, and your will is to do your father’s desires.’” – John 8:42-44
Our first example comes from a heated exchange between Jesus and the scribes and Pharisees — the religious leaders of their day. Jesus tells them that He speaks the words of His Father, while they speak the words of their father, the devil.

These religious people felt they were saved because of their bloodline and because of the traditions they followed. They felt these things made God their Father. Many people believe this today. They feel because they were raised in a Christian home, or because they attend a church, they’re saved.

But Jesus refutes this by saying, “If God were your Father, you would love me…” The requirement for being a child of God is a personal relationship with Jesus Christ.

Notice two things:

1) Notice that Jesus says “you”. Not your parents, or friends or your church but “you”. No one can have a relationship on our behalf. You alone must put your trust in Him to be saved.

2) Notice that Jesus says “me”. It’s not where you were born, or what church you attend that makes you a child of God. It’s a belief and a trust that Christ came from the Father to pay for your sins (John 3:16). John 1:12 tells us that “all who received him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God.”

Let’s look at our second example.

Mistake #2 – Believing you’re saved because of your behavior

Two men went up into the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. The Pharisee, standing by himself, prayed thus: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week; I give tithes of all that I get.’

But the tax collector, standing far off, would not even lift up his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast, saying, ‘God, be merciful to me, a sinner!’ I tell you, this man went down to his house justified, rather than the other. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, but the one who humbles himself will be exalted.”- Luke 18:10-14
Our next example comes from a parable Jesus told. Here we find that the Pharisee thinks he’s saved because of his good behavior. This is probably the reason most people today believe they’re saved. Most people feel that they’ve lived good lives.

But Jesus refutes this by telling us that it’s not the Pharisee who is justified (declare innocent from sin), but the tax collector. To be justified Jesus tells us we must be humble about our condition. We must realize we’ve sinned and call on God to forgive us.

Notice two things:

1) Notice that the Pharisee compared his behavior to the tax collector.

2) Notice that the tax collector compared his behavior to God.

The tax collector did the right thing because Romans 3:23 tells us that “all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” It’s “the glory of God” that we fall short of. Our behavior is compared to God — not other people — and all of us fall short when held to this standard. But Romans 3:24 tells us that we can be saved because we’re “justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus.”

Let’s look at one final example.

Mistake #3 – Believing you’re saved because of your works or deeds

“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’ And then will I declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness.’” – Matthew 7:21-23
In our final example we find Jesus talking about who will be able to enter the kingdom of heaven. Here we find people who believe they’re saved because of good works they do. Again this is something many people do today.

Jesus refutes this by saying that He won’t accept their works. As we mentioned in our last example, God’s glory is the standard we’re held to, and it’s perfect. So unless our offering is perfect, it falls short of His glory. When we try to offer good deeds to atone for our sins, God rejects that because the sacrifice is stained with sin, and falls short of His glory.

Jesus says that only those who do the will of His Father will enter the kingdom. What is His will? “He commands all people everywhere to repent.” (Acts 17:30) What does it mean to repent? It means to turn from sin, to Christ.

Where our works are stained with sin and rejected, Christ’s sacrifice on the cross is perfect and is accepted. When we repent and come to Christ to be our Savior it means we’re relying on His sacrifice to make peace with God on our behalf. When we do this God credits Christ’s perfection to us and we are justified.

How are we saved?

In this study we’ve looked at people who mistakenly thought they were saved because of their tradition, behavior or good works. Each example had one thing in common: Each tried to obtain salvation through their own strength and fell short.

God gives us salvation through His Son. Our salvation isn’t based on what we’ve done, it’s based on what Christ has done. We know we’re saved when we know we trust in Christ completely for our salvation.

Verses to remember

— 36 “Therefore let all the house of Israel know assuredly that God has made this Jesus, whom you crucified, both Lord and Christ.”

37 Now when they heard this, they were cut to the heart, and said to Peter and the rest of the apostles, “Men and brethren, what shall we do?”

38 Then Peter said to them, “Repent, and let every one of you be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins; and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit. 39 For the promise is to you and to your children, and to all who are afar off, as many as the Lord our God will call.” -Acts 2:36-38

– “By grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.” (Eph 2:8)

– “This is the testimony, that God gave us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. Whoever has the Son has life; whoever does not have the Son of God does not have life. I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God that you may know that you have eternal life.” (1 John 5:11-13)

– He is able to save completely those who come to God through him, because he always lives to intercede for them. (Heb 7:25)

Experience God

Experience God

Sometimes, we base things by feelings, we base moments and events according to how good we feel and we are merely attached to it in those days when we don’t feel nothing at all.

But how do we truly experience God? Is it just by the good times? is it by miracles alone? is it by the overnatural things that we have seen and heard? Or is it by the events that were attached to us with emotions?

What if, all these years we have been seeking to experience God through supernatural events that we once felt and the most thing we think is that, God had left us because we do noit experience Him anymore? Because basically, we do not feel anything..at all..

The truth is, our emotions are very tricky. Sometimes, we are so overwhelmed on things that happens to us especially when it is extraordinary. I can tell that according to experience. I usually think God was far away because I had nothing to base a new experience with Him. Truth was, I am experiencing Him daily in my every day life. In small decisions, He is there. In every path I choose, He is there. In every people I meet, He is there. His presence is everywhere I go. There are big signs of His presence everywhere that sometimes we take for granted. The sudden blessings that comes, the unexpected meeting with people, the unexpected talk and the exchange of conversations that we had with people on the road. How did we perform? How did we show ourselves as representatives of the Master we belong to?

I learned by experience, God is in all of those things I do. Wether I am at my own home or at work or in the way.

The way we view life optimistically despite of trials is also the way we experience God. Because we know that we are learning new things.. To become better every day. You will look back in 5 years from now. You will see alot of challenges you thought you never would have been able to succeed. One day you will stand there in awe of God remembering that those were the times you truly experienced God.

Sorry no Sorry

Sorry no Sorry

Most of us want others to forgive and move on. But we most forget what we said that broke their heart.

When God forgives us, He wants us to be reminded of what we spoke and take back the harsh words we have said. God promises then that we shall CONFESS TO ONE ANOTHER (A CONVERSATION BETWEEN PEOPLE WHO HAVE SOME TROUBLED STORY OR SOME CIRCUMSTANCES THAT CAME UP WHICH CAUSED DIVISION AND HURT ) and God promised that after we have asked forgiveness from people we hurt, or atleast we forgive other who hurt us, then we can pray to Him.. And God then FORGIVES US. and also He will remove all our sin and will not remember it anymore..

But to mere humans..we keep avoiding to ask forgiveness because we think God takes care of it. Without knowing that the person we hurt unconsciously are struggling emotionally, physically, and maybe spiritually falling.. Isnt it we are easy stumbling block for them? And isn’t it we bear the responsibility of their hurt..?

He would if we dont have any opportunity to find the person but as we can find the people and are just reach of hand, we can have a talk with them..
It takes a courage to ask forgiveness, it takes pride to be torn down before we acknowledge our own fault.
We are actually cruel!

In my experience, I grew up in a surrounding where I was thought to say sorry. In the fellowship I grew up with, i have learned to ask forgiveness. It took courage before I learned to do that at home. Still to this day, i have never heard sorry from the people that violated me, raped me, judged me and spoken things behind me.. On my part, I am proud to say that I asked forgiveness because I know myself that It is sinful to have resentment in my heart. And I know for a fact that it sets me free from having debts to anyone even if I think I am right. It did not matter if I think I was right. What matters most was, I was courageous to ask forgiveness and say sorry and I meant it.
This is what gave me peace… No doubt. Thats the Spirit of God.

No wonder why Psychological problems arise. Because there are many things we take for granted.
Some people waits for the time until the person who hurt them say SORRY! It even takes 10years,20 years or 50years before they would hear Sorry, before they themselves would dare to say Sorry!
Isnt it we humans, want God to be forgiving.. But we were born of adversity.. Filled of pretension.. Inside the church.. Many of us hide faces in walls of white…

If you somehow had hurt someone else. Be brave to ask someone forgiveness and acknowledge your fault. It will not make you weak. In fact, it will make you more peaceful and happier. If you can’t find the person. At least have a conversation with God to lead you and remind you your own feelings so He may cleanse your heart.

Those who knew me personally know that the real me loves people with sincerity..

I hope I may not hit some toes. Coz If I do.. Then my purpose has been fulfilled…
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De flesta av oss vill att andra ska förlåta och fortsätta. Men vi glömmer mest vad vi sa som bröt deras hjärta.

När Gud förlåter oss, vill han att vi ska påminnas om vad vi talade och ta tillbaka de hårda orden vi har sagt. Gud talade då att vi skall bekänna till varandra (ett samtal mellan två människor som har någon misslyckad historia eller vissa omständigheter som kom upp som orsakade fördelning och skada ) och Gud lovade att efter att vi har begärt förlåtelse från människor som vi skadat eller åtminstone förlåter vi andra som skadar oss, då kan vi be till honom .. Och då förlåtar Gud oss. och även han kommer att ta bort all vår synd och kommer inte komma ihåg det längre ..

Men till oss människor .. Vi fortsätter att undvika att be om förlåtelse, för vi tror att Gud tar hand om det. Utan att veta att den personen som vi skadat omedvetet kämpar emotionellt, fysiskt och kanske andligt faller .. Är det inte lätt att stötta för dem och de snubblar? Och är det inte vi bär ansvaret för deras ont ..?

Om vi inte har någon möjlighet att hitta personen vi skadade men om vi kan hitta dessa personer och bara nå med en hand, kan vi ju prata med dem och samtala..
Det tar ett mod att be om förlåtelse, det tar tid med stolthet att riva ner den innan vi erkänner vårt eget fel.
Vi är faktiskt grymma!

Enligt min erfarenhet växte jag upp i en omgivning där jag vsrt upplärd att säga förlåt. I samhället växte jag upp med, jag har lärt mig att be om förlåtelse. Det tog mod innan jag lärde mig att göra det hemma. Fram tills idag har jag aldrig hört från de människor som kränkt mig, våldtagit mig, dömde mig och talade bakom mig.
Jag är stolt över att säga att jag bad om förlåtelse för att jag känner mig själv att det är syndigt att ha förbittring i mitt hjärta. Och jag vet för ett faktum att det ger mig frihet från att ha skulder till någon, även om jag tycker att jag har rätt. Det spelade ingen roll om jag tyckte att jag hade rätt. Det som betyder mest var att jag var modig att be om förlåtelse och säga förlåt och att jag menade det.
Det var det som gav mig fred … Ingen tvekan. Det är Guds Ande.

Inte undra på varför psykiska problem uppstår. Eftersom det finns många saker vi tar för givet.
Vissa människor väntar på tiden tills personen som skadade dem säger FÖRLÅT! Det tar till och med 10 år, 20 år eller 50 år innan de skulle höra det. Tyvärr är det så, innan de själva vågade säga förlåt!
Är det inte vi människor som vill att Gud ska förlåta .. Men vi föddes av motgång. Fylld av pretension .. Inuti kyrkan, bland troende.. Många av oss gömmer ansikten i den vita väggar …

Om du på något sätt hade skadat någon annan. Var modig för att fråga någon förlåtelse och erkänna ditt fel. Det kommer inte att göra dig svag. Det kommer faktiskt att göra dig mer fredlig och lyckligare. Om du inte hittar personen. Åtminstone ha en konversation med Gud för att leda dig och påminna dig dina egna känslor så att han kan rensa ditt hjärta.

De som kände mig personligen vet att den riktiga jag älskar människor med uppriktighet ..

Jag hoppas jag får inte slå några tår. För Om jag gjorde det.. Då har mitt syfte uppnåtts …

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Passover Meaning

Passover Meaning

Today marks the evening. The beginning of Passover. The NIGHT The Lord ordered Israel to eat the Passover lamb. Same night the Lord passed throughout Egypt to see the blood marks on the doorsposts and took the Egyptians firstborn.

This marks that Yeshua our Messiah has been prepared while the temple prepares its passover Lamb. That same night Yeshua was given over to the hands of evil to redeem the world and reconcile towards God.

Same night when the Messiah took a meal with his Talmidim(disciples) to speak of what will happen afterwards. It was not the questions of why one would betray him, it was somehow a preparation that a sacrifice must be done despite of relationship with the person whom he had taught all those years.He knew the time drew near and what matters is that the disciple himself would also fulfill his purpose of what God had set him to so that Yeshua would come to the peak of his father’s greatness.

Day AFTER THE PASSOVER was the FREEDOM. it was the freedom from SLAVERY in EGYPT. The day when God freed the Israelites from the hands of ruthless masters. A day when the years of suffering ended.

Day after the PASSOVER was the day when all the comfort zone is to be left. When all that we thibk were okay and right has to be exposed wrong. As we thought that living under a difficult circumstances can also give comfort, this time after the Passover, we will be led to understand Gods leadership. Not to be controlled anymore by ruthlessl masters but to be brought into the promised Land.

The day after the Passover, Yeshua was hanged on a stake. Both his followers and students scattered in confusion and heartbreak. But as the evening approached.. It was the beginning of the FREEDOM OF MANKIND FROM SIN. Given Free from heaven.

Let us remember this day…
Yeshua is ALIVE!

Surrender

We are tempted to think that the more powerful we become, the better we will battle sin. But the exact opposite is true. The more power, influence, or prestige we possess, the more temptable we are. The strength of sin feeds on our sense of strength. This is why we are warned that “pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall” (Proverbs 16:18). In weakness, we feel our need for God, but when we are strong, we lack that saving sobriety. We lost the need of God and mostly in strength we tend to think THINGS ARE UNDER CONTROL..but it is not so. THEREFORE learning to surrender towards God is needed the most…then we will know how to respect a sovereign power over us. An authority to lead us and not to control us.
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Live Life far from Media

Live Life far from Media

Most people who do not feel good on the inside are more concerned with Facebook status than those who actually have a good life. Facebook or social media became an attention disorder for some.

In one or as soon as 5 minutes you become a celebrity.
However, it is good attention for entrepreneurs, vendors, institutions, sports and artists around the world. And that there is room to share their faith, thoughts and too much of their life.
Be careful when betting out your private life in the social. Imagine that there is reality outside the screen. Life is short, every hour is golden, so spend time with your families, friends, acquaintances and make no impression on people you do not like at all. Do not impress even those people that tries to intimidate you. Live the life as it is your rewards on earth while you breathe.

Keep in mind that we humans have no security for tomorrow.

Today or later or tomorrow we either wake up or die. What we do by the time is very important.

Slow down with social media, surfing, youtube and other things that are really useless for our soul and body

For the faithful, read more, pray for more, transform yourselves into an influencing tool with a good sense of will and power from above. Be the light of the world. Be more kinder, be more forgiving, appreciate more the trails of life. Be less in complaints and be more thankful. Do not impose too much of your own impression on others but live the faith accordingly to the instructions of the Torah. Be not fanatic, but be a believer. A belief that is Alive.

For most people, seek the truth about life, forgive, laugh and love people more than hate.

God is good who gives life to each and everyone.


De flesta som inte mår bra på insidan är mer oroade över Facebook-status än de som faktiskt har ett bra liv. Facebook eller sociala medier blev en uppmärksamhetssyndrom för vissa.

På en eller så fort som 5 minuter blir du kändis.
Det är dock bra uppmärksamhet för entreprenörer, försäljare, institutioner, sport och konstnärer runt om i världen. Och att det finns utrymme för att dela sin tro, tankar och för mycket av sitt liv.

Var försiktig när du delar ditt privatliv i det sociala. Tänk dig att det finns verklighet utanför skärmen.

Livet är kort, varje timme är guld, så spendera tid med dina familjer, vänner, bekanta och ge inget intryck på personer som du inte alls gillar. Imponera inte även de människor som försöker skrämma dig eller göra dig svartsjuk.

Lev livet, för det är dina belöningar på jorden medan du andas.

Tänk på att vi människor inte har säkerheten för imorgon.

Idag eller senare eller imorgon vaknar vi eller dör. Det vi gör vid tiden är väldigt viktigt.

Sakta ner med sociala medier, surfing, youtube och andra saker som är egentligen onyttig för vår själ och kropp.

För de troende, läs mer, be för mer, omvandla dig till ett påverkande verktyg med en god känsla av vilja och makt ovanifrån. Var världens ljus. Var mer förståelse, var mer förlåtande, uppskatta mer livets utmaningar. Var mindre i klagomål och var mer tacksam. Tryck inte för mycket av ditt eget intryck på andra, men leva din tro i enlighet med Torahs anvisningar. Var inte fanatisk, men var en troende. En tro som är Levande

För de flesta, sök sanning om livet, förlåta, skratta och älska människor mer än att hata.

Gud är gid som ger livet åt en och alla.

Being a Victim

Being a Victim

We mostly get tired of people whom are victims of abuse. And in our terms, our wish is that they would be set free. We do our best to take them out if it. Yet often we see then returning.

Of course we get distracted and disappointed because we dont understand what is happening in their minds. We think sometimes that our efforts were neglected and that our relationship with them somehow starts to be out of hand. Until the day, we want to give up forgetting that once we had the days when we also were victims.

We must understand it is a difficult situation for that person and it is a personal attachment. The only thing u can do is to allow the person see the wrong thing in the event. Although you have given your advice it is still very difficult for the person to be influenced by your thoughts because the person itself face the fear and has very low self esteem. You must remember that the abuser had stolen their identity and trampled their lives. In that manner the abuser was using its power to make use of the victims positive mind from the beginning. I believe that the abuser itself is a broken soul and it feeds to break another to feel a little better. To damp the brokenness inside. we must never forget to understand those who are in weak situations and we shall not look down on them i was once a victim and it took me so long before i got out if it. I was looked down by people who think that i get returning back to the abuser but the thing is, i wasn’t strong enough because the people that tried to pull me out of it are the ones who speaks about mistakes. Points out how i shall be and how i should think. It created confusion in me because I didnt know what to think for myself and the hopelessness grew… One day there was a person who found my strength by suggesting ne solutions and that friend never imposed aby ideas but stayed with me and told me. “You are strong enough” “do you think this things happening to you arecorrect?” “i will always listen to you sentiments until you get free from it because I am hoping you soon be free”
These were always her words whenever she got tired of my repetitive conversation. Until the day i stood for victory.

The idea of hurting others indeed comes from the inner source of the soul in hebrew called ‘jetser hara’ – long for evil. It is in the inner part of the soul connecting from the sinful nature of man. Yet the idea of doing good is the longing for good – jetser ha tov in hebrew.
These has been implanted in our soul therefore many of us either become aware of being abused or not aware of abusive behaviour.

Each of us.. No one can deny that even though we are born again has sometimes the attitude of abuse. Which in term of Paul, we can always discipline ourselves to not obey the jetser hara.

Please have kindness at heart and an understanding attitude towards the person you are facibg difficulties. We might not know what we say might lift then up or might bring them down. ❤️😘 I speak according to my experience.
Yeshua always look upon the broken hearted and has a contrite spirit. A broken soul is the one who needs guidance and has a restless mind. A contrite spirit has the sleepless thoughts and worries, an anxiety of the heart caused by other people who are abusing them and using them for their own benefits.

Yeshua had cared for these people and showed meekness and kindness to them. He was not exempted even to the humiliating events that we also experience in life. That is why He said,

I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty
John 6:35

Take it as an example.
Until then if the person want to stay where they are.. Then thats their matter.. We cant do nothing.. But to respect the decision.