Posted on October 13, 2019
Women… Can be considered likely to the autumn leaves.. Perhaps it is very harsh to compare it in this manner.. But in my perception it is much closer than a flower…
Such beauty you are… Is not like someone else. Such beauty you are.. Is completely unique.. God made you.. To be not like everyone else.. Believe that.
Women… You always wanted to be beautiful.. Mostly you ask for confirmation… And you hunger for it.. To be defined beautiful… But what is beauty.. When one day, it will pass on your season and you will fall on your branches, to the ground as everyone would pass you by.
I suppose you would love yourself the way you are. I suppose you would see yourself just as simply as it is. I wish you don’t need to compare yourself to others, and I wish you wouldn’t try to be like someone else.. Such beauty you are… Is not like someone else. Such beauty you are.. Is completely unique.. God made you.. To be not like everyone else.. Believe that.
I suppose you would love yourself the way you are. I suppose you would see yourself just as simply as it is. I wish you don’t need to compare yourself to others, and I wish you wouldn’t try to be like someone else..
Who would care about the days you were tall and vibrant. Who would remember the days you bore fruit of different colors and made eyes stand by.. When now.. All of your achievements come to pass and all your legendary experience becomes a history.
As you fall from the branch, everyone continues with their lives. And you struggled in every falling leaf with a fear that the branch would follow to break. Fear you would fall on the hard ground.. Soak in all the mystery of the autumn rain.. To be torn by the waters and decompose…
a mature individual, made wise by life experiences rather than inborn childlike naivety. Whom has lived through goodness and the darkness of life, yet, perceives the world in vibrant multicolor
These leaves remind me of a mature individual, made wise by life experiences rather than inborn childlike naivety. Whom has lived through goodness and the darkness of life, yet, perceives the world in vibrant multicolor. Her experiences have brought about a transformation where she no longer fits into the same dimension of environment but has emerged a richer individual, carrying an array of hues and shades, ideas and perspectives, empathy and perceptiveness. A resemblance of fullness in purpose.. A character of depth and dignity, a symbol of full perception of right and wrong. A time of understanding the situation of people’s chosen path… And then… She have to wait for the time that her twigs would loosen her…
Why should such beauty result from decomposition? Isn’t beauty something positive we would normally associate with completeness and vibrancy? What is the message we are to take from this paradox of nature?
Maybe the message of autumn is the reminder that there is tremendous beauty G‑d wants us to enjoy in this physical world. But without recognizing that He is the source behind it, without that connection to Him, the physical world is dead. When we do recognize Him, however, the world can be quite a beautiful place.
Nevertheless.. Do not forget the ONE who have given you your season.. And do not worry about the things that are not necessary. Accept the way you are and find the talents and skills that you have. Use it.. And contribute to make a better world. You are a part of that wholeness of Beauty..
Posted on September 20, 2019
If I had not come to Sweden, my life would have been different. Maybe not as good as today but I probably do not have the same feelings as I have right now. I may not have met people who hurt me and said words that tore my soul. Before I came, I had an old wound, I did not have time to grieve.
When I came to Sweden, I got to experience loneliness in a society with good food and life. A society that offered fulfillment of my dreams. However, it costs.
I met people who were not careful with their words, judging tongues with their leprosy. I met people who I thought were my friends who later, after seeing my weaknesses and mistakes, left me. A bone broken, half the heart bleeds. I had nowhere to go.
I met people with exploitative motives who wanted my fall. I met people I thought were my friends, I met people who had never believed in me.
They hurt me, they murdered me in their hearts. I cried, I screamed, I crawled in pain. The pain that no one saw physically, the pain that no one can describe, only I who know it, only I who see it.
It became my challenge after all.
In solitude, I sat in front of windows with eyes open. I look up to heaven. My thousand thoughts drew me back to where I have been. Where once, despite difficulties, I felt a sense of security. My native country. My beloved Philippines. My dearest country, my language, my people.
Alone, I thought, what am I doing here? In solitude I felt my vulnerability, I felt the feeling of death, but death did not come to me. My heart was beating like never before, and my tears were flowing freely, it was burning in my soul. I didn’t know it would feel so hard.
Very challenging. I’ve had alot to deal with. And I was by myself. Some nights during the winter I look up into the sky, awake in the middle of the night. Fascinated by the snow falling on my face, and in one second my hair was touched. The cold that tells me I am alive somehow. In the darkness of the cold winter, I speak for myself and wait for answers .. When? When will this end? And the tears ran like waterfalls. I felt, an angel touched my soul. A strength and hope from heaven.
God heard my prayers. And God comforted me. In the dark, I came to know that there is a light. And in the dark, I know the stars can shine bright for me to see. That tomorrow when I wake up, there will be a better future. And tomorrow will be another day.
After all, I also met people who loved me, liked me, hugged me, greeted me, and prayed for me. Met people who sat with me, listened to me, and held my hand without words. Some have come with a smile and gave their thoughts without condemning words. For a moment I felt that they cared without the cost.
For a little while I remembered days and nights as I whispered in the air, I know the wind brought it to heaven.
I thank you for everything you do …
I thank you for listening.
I thank you for coming by without feeling compelled.
I thank you .. For you loved me after all.
I thank you for giving me time ..
I thank you .. For sitting next to me in my solitude ..
It’s hard to feel like I do .. It’s hard to describe those feelings ..
Without words, without my body language …
You showed that you care …
Although I have not dared to say …
Deep down in my heart ..
I thank you for being there.
Om jag inte hade kommit till Sverige hade mitt liv varit annorlunda. Kanske inte lika bra som idag men jag har nog inte samma känslor som jag har just nu. Jag kanske inte ha träffat människor som sårade mig och sagt ord som rev min själ. Innan jag kom, hade jag ett gammal sår, det hade jag inte tid att sorga efter.
När jag kom till Sverige, jag fick uppleva ensamhet i ett samhälle med bra föda och livsföring. Ett samhälle som erbjöd uppfyllelse av mina drömmar. Det kostar dock.
Jag träffade människor som var inte försiktiga med sina ord, dömande tungor med sina spetälska. Jag träffade människor som jag trodde var mina vänner som senare, efter att ha setts mina svagheter och misstag, lämnade mig. Ett ben brutit, halva hjärtat blöder. Jag hade ingenstans att ta vägen.
Jag träffade människor med uttnyttjande motiv, som önskade mitt fall. jag träffade människor som jag trodde var mina vänner, jag träffade människor som hade aldrig trott på mig.
De sårade mig, de mördade mig i sina hjärtan. Jag grät, jag skrek, jag kröp i smärtan. Smärtan som ingen såg fysisk, smärtan som ingen kan beskriva, bara jag som känner det, bara jag som ser det.
Det blev min utmaning trots allt.
I ensamhet, satt jag framför fönster med ögonen öppna. Jag ser upp till himmelen. Mina tusen tankar drog mig tillbaka där jag har varit. Där jag en gång trots svårigheter kände en trygghet. Mitt hemland. Min älskade Filippinerna. Min käraste land, mitt språk, mitt folk.
I ensamhet tänkte jag, vad gör jag här. I ensamhet kände jag min sårbarhet, jag kända känslan av döden, men döden kom inte till mig. Mitt hjärta slog som aldrig förr, och mina tårar flödar fritt, det sved i själen. Jag visste inte att det skulle känna så hårt.
Mycket utmaning. Mycket att ta itu med. Och jag var själv. Vissa nätter under vintern tittar jag upp i himmelen, vaken mitt i natten. Fascinerad av snön som faller på mitt ansikte, och på nån sekund rörde mitt hår. Kylan som talar att jag lever i alla fall. I mörkret av den kalla vintern, Talar jag för mig själv och väntar på svar.. När? När ska det här ta slut? Och tårarna rann som vattenfall. Jag kände, en ängel rörde min själ. En styrka och hopp från himmelen.
Gud hörde mina bön. Och Gud tröstat mig. I mörkret lärde jag känna att det finns ett ljus. Och i mörkret, vet jag att stjärnorna kan lysa klart för mig att se. Att imorgon nör jag vaknar, det kommer bli en bättre framtid. Och imorgon kommer bli en annan dag.
Trots allt, träffade jag även människor som älskade mig, tyckte om mig, kramade mig, hälsade på mig, och bad för mig. Träffade människor som satt med mig, lyssnade på mig, och höll min hand utan ord. Vissa har kommit med ett leende och gav sina tankar utan fördömande ord. För en stund kände jag att de bryr sig utan kostnaden.
En liten stund kom jag ihåg dagar och nätter när jag viskade i luften, jag vet att vinden tog med sig det till himmelen.
Jag tackar.. För allt du gör…
Jag tackar.. För att du lyssnade..
Jag tackar.. För att du kom förbi utan att känna dig tvungen.
Jag tackar.. För du älskade mig trots allt.
Jag tackar.. För att du gav mig tid..
Jag tackar.. För du satt bredvid i min ensamhet..
Det svårt att känna som jag gör.. Det svårt att beskriva mona känslor..
Utan ord, utan min kroppsspråk…
Du visade att du bryr dig…
Även om jag inte har vågat säga…
Innerst i mitt hjärta..
Jag tackar att du finns.
Posted on July 21, 2019
I grew more with my walk with the Lord every day and i experienced that i learned little better in time
Serving God in daily basis is indeed a marriage of the spiritual life
I indeed realise as along the way when we learned a lot… We becoming wise and as a part of heavenly wisdom.. We dont tend to be offended on things that mlstly many are annoyed at. I looked at it usually now and make sure I do what is good. As proverbs 16.24 says a righteous person falls 7 times. Then gets up again. But the wicked falls when calamity comes.
They easily give up
As for now i still work with my emotions towards certain things. And i try to manage my heart more than anything else because it is there where the Instructions of God shall reside. In my soul I do not want to hate a brother. But my heart shall decide for its actions and thats the only part I can discipline…
I try my best to work it out especially recently when i had a bad situation in my past marriage. I heard I had demons and as my problems couldn’t resolve, they have baked more demons instead of helping me out. I had no parental guidance in sweden and the only help i expected was with the company within the faith. Yet they hurt me. Yet I did my very best to not take it to heart. And i did my best not to be a madman. I cried and was deeply embarrassed. Yes i got discouraged, i got disappointed. But only for a while. I think that i want to spend my time believing that things will turn out good despite of trials. Im proud I kept my mouth speaking evil things and slipping nonsense. I did not complain. I did not provoke any. I did not backbite. I kept in heart hid my tears and God is patient with me.
In understanding I grew. Im proud spiritually that I didnt made my eyes sin. I kept My lips and my mind from sin in the middle of disappointments and trials.
It is indeed true, that keeps those whose eyes are on Him. And it is indeed important to keep your trust in Him in the midst of difficulties. For one day, the Lord will bring peace. And in peace within yourself, God brings solutions to situations you are facing. Be Still and Know He is your God.
Posted on May 21, 2019
Most of us want others to forgive and move on. But we most forget what we said that broke their heart.
When God forgives us, He wants us to be reminded of what we spoke and take back the harsh words we have said. God promises then that we shall CONFESS TO ONE ANOTHER (A CONVERSATION BETWEEN PEOPLE WHO HAVE SOME TROUBLED STORY OR SOME CIRCUMSTANCES THAT CAME UP WHICH CAUSED DIVISION AND HURT ) and God promised that after we have asked forgiveness from people we hurt, or atleast we forgive other who hurt us, then we can pray to Him.. And God then FORGIVES US. and also He will remove all our sin and will not remember it anymore..
But to mere humans..we keep avoiding to ask forgiveness because we think God takes care of it. Without knowing that the person we hurt unconsciously are struggling emotionally, physically, and maybe spiritually falling.. Isnt it we are easy stumbling block for them? And isn’t it we bear the responsibility of their hurt..?
He would if we dont have any opportunity to find the person but as we can find the people and are just reach of hand, we can have a talk with them..
It takes a courage to ask forgiveness, it takes pride to be torn down before we acknowledge our own fault.
We are actually cruel!
In my experience, I grew up in a surrounding where I was thought to say sorry. In the fellowship I grew up with, i have learned to ask forgiveness. It took courage before I learned to do that at home. Still to this day, i have never heard sorry from the people that violated me, raped me, judged me and spoken things behind me.. On my part, I am proud to say that I asked forgiveness because I know myself that It is sinful to have resentment in my heart. And I know for a fact that it sets me free from having debts to anyone even if I think I am right. It did not matter if I think I was right. What matters most was, I was courageous to ask forgiveness and say sorry and I meant it.
This is what gave me peace… No doubt. Thats the Spirit of God.
No wonder why Psychological problems arise. Because there are many things we take for granted.
Some people waits for the time until the person who hurt them say SORRY! It even takes 10years,20 years or 50years before they would hear Sorry, before they themselves would dare to say Sorry!
Isnt it we humans, want God to be forgiving.. But we were born of adversity.. Filled of pretension.. Inside the church.. Many of us hide faces in walls of white…
If you somehow had hurt someone else. Be brave to ask someone forgiveness and acknowledge your fault. It will not make you weak. In fact, it will make you more peaceful and happier. If you can’t find the person. At least have a conversation with God to lead you and remind you your own feelings so He may cleanse your heart.
Those who knew me personally know that the real me loves people with sincerity..
I hope I may not hit some toes. Coz If I do.. Then my purpose has been fulfilled…
#selfpotrait
De flesta av oss vill att andra ska förlåta och fortsätta. Men vi glömmer mest vad vi sa som bröt deras hjärta.
När Gud förlåter oss, vill han att vi ska påminnas om vad vi talade och ta tillbaka de hårda orden vi har sagt. Gud talade då att vi skall bekänna till varandra (ett samtal mellan två människor som har någon misslyckad historia eller vissa omständigheter som kom upp som orsakade fördelning och skada ) och Gud lovade att efter att vi har begärt förlåtelse från människor som vi skadat eller åtminstone förlåter vi andra som skadar oss, då kan vi be till honom .. Och då förlåtar Gud oss. och även han kommer att ta bort all vår synd och kommer inte komma ihåg det längre ..
Men till oss människor .. Vi fortsätter att undvika att be om förlåtelse, för vi tror att Gud tar hand om det. Utan att veta att den personen som vi skadat omedvetet kämpar emotionellt, fysiskt och kanske andligt faller .. Är det inte lätt att stötta för dem och de snubblar? Och är det inte vi bär ansvaret för deras ont ..?
Om vi inte har någon möjlighet att hitta personen vi skadade men om vi kan hitta dessa personer och bara nå med en hand, kan vi ju prata med dem och samtala..
Det tar ett mod att be om förlåtelse, det tar tid med stolthet att riva ner den innan vi erkänner vårt eget fel.
Vi är faktiskt grymma!
Enligt min erfarenhet växte jag upp i en omgivning där jag vsrt upplärd att säga förlåt. I samhället växte jag upp med, jag har lärt mig att be om förlåtelse. Det tog mod innan jag lärde mig att göra det hemma. Fram tills idag har jag aldrig hört från de människor som kränkt mig, våldtagit mig, dömde mig och talade bakom mig.
Jag är stolt över att säga att jag bad om förlåtelse för att jag känner mig själv att det är syndigt att ha förbittring i mitt hjärta. Och jag vet för ett faktum att det ger mig frihet från att ha skulder till någon, även om jag tycker att jag har rätt. Det spelade ingen roll om jag tyckte att jag hade rätt. Det som betyder mest var att jag var modig att be om förlåtelse och säga förlåt och att jag menade det.
Det var det som gav mig fred … Ingen tvekan. Det är Guds Ande.
Inte undra på varför psykiska problem uppstår. Eftersom det finns många saker vi tar för givet.
Vissa människor väntar på tiden tills personen som skadade dem säger FÖRLÅT! Det tar till och med 10 år, 20 år eller 50 år innan de skulle höra det. Tyvärr är det så, innan de själva vågade säga förlåt!
Är det inte vi människor som vill att Gud ska förlåta .. Men vi föddes av motgång. Fylld av pretension .. Inuti kyrkan, bland troende.. Många av oss gömmer ansikten i den vita väggar …
Om du på något sätt hade skadat någon annan. Var modig för att fråga någon förlåtelse och erkänna ditt fel. Det kommer inte att göra dig svag. Det kommer faktiskt att göra dig mer fredlig och lyckligare. Om du inte hittar personen. Åtminstone ha en konversation med Gud för att leda dig och påminna dig dina egna känslor så att han kan rensa ditt hjärta.
De som kände mig personligen vet att den riktiga jag älskar människor med uppriktighet ..
Jag hoppas jag får inte slå några tår. För Om jag gjorde det.. Då har mitt syfte uppnåtts …
Posted on March 5, 2019
The MATRIX idea is not biblical..
I will tell you why:
Christianity makes use of many stories and ideas which have been part of human culture and secular traditions for many years. And for a long time, many Christian leaders do create sermons out of their own minds and created fables to make a standard of being intelligently knowledgeable without knowing or without reading the facts, history or source of the origin of the bible, or at least knowing the status of its source. Many times, because they are leaders of a certain flock, church, organisation or institutions, we mostly regard them as our eldest siblings or teachers or sometimes idolise them. Many of the sermons we hear may actually be sedative to infuse in our minds and in our hearts. And these sermons, although we find out later on that they are wrong, we mostly are compromising because they have become our friends…But that should not be an excuse. We all are here to learn from each other, right?
My intention is not to destroy but to raise some insight and maybe a bit of push so you also can read your bible and even to make a research for yourself.
Many entertainment movies nowadays just ride along, and for your sake you can also be deceived because it looks cool, or either it is very cozy to spend time with friends having “common” belief because actually “there is nothing wrong in watching the film coz we sometimes think it is” biblical” thinking that it has a Biblical title. Mostly, why would “pastor makes a sermon out oof it” he sounded so wise.. So we think “it will be fine” Or maybe its time to read some history again. or maybe, let us start reading the scriptures carefully… 🤣 What do you think?
Now, talking about the Favorite of many! MATRIX The film contains numerous allusions to philosophical and religious ideas, including existentialism, Marxism, feminism, Buddhism, nihilism, and postmodernism.While some critics have praised the film for its handling of difficult subjects, others characterize the film’s themes as being largely overshadowed by its action scenes. (karate? Teakwondo? Judo? Jackie Chan(he was actually more funnier) Hmm very large!)
“Hints..
Rene Descartes = french philosopher and mathematician. 17th century – philosophical questions * intellectual autonomy and that the experiences did not always match reality.
Written in his book : MEDITATIONS ON FIRST PHILOSOPHY “
Matrix movie: Neo discovers that what we all think is the real world is actually an illusion, a virtual reality created by artificial intelligence that has conquered the human race and turned it into an energy source for machines.
Yeshua never taught that the world we live and suffer in is fake; Yeshua never taught us to think all is illusion. Yeshua came to confirm that the heavenly realm or the unseen world can be impacted by the restoration of his offering to restore the spiritual relationship between God and mankind. he came to save people from sin and pain, not to claim that sin and pain aren’t real. If there’s a Buddhist-Christian connection here, it’s tenuous.
One thing..
The red and blue pill may also represent the red and blue lodges of Freemasonry, the Blue Lodge being of the first three degrees which are technically the only true Masonic degrees, and the Red Lodge being the extra degrees such as is found in Scottish Rite or York Rite Masonry.
Exodus: Gods and the Kings: transforming Moses into a terrorist-type character rather than God’s prophet, and was generally regarded to have departed from scripture altogether.
Noah:Noah’s sons weren’t without wives on the ark. In Aronofsky’s fanciful version, only one of Noah’s sons, Shem, has a wife (played by Emma Watson)—and she ends up pregnant with twin girls who, we assume, will eventually become wives for Noah’s other two sons. Huh? In the Genesis account, God tells Noah: “You shall enter the ark—you and your sons and your wife, and your sons’ wives with you” (Gen. 6:18).
The Shack: When the man arrives at the shack, Mack meets the three divine Persons of the Trinity in the forms of a black woman (the Father, “Papa”), a Jewish man (the Son, Jesus), and an Asian woman (the Holy Spirit, whose name “Sarayu” is a Sanskrit word that means “wind”).
What should we say about this representation of the God? First, Yeshua taught His disciples to refer to the Almighty as “Our Father” (Matthew 6:9). Yet, the Father is not human and does not have a human sex or gender. God in a simple way have to show himself in a form where we can understand. For instance, Jacob wrestled with an angel, or a donkey that speaks, a whale that took Jonah to his right place. These are the ways of God to show us a simple message that we can easily understand but He himself will not show his face. (referring to Moses up the mountain and Moses saw only the back of God) thus God is omnipotent and can express himself in the manners that we can perceive Him.
Remember we are finite-we have a calculation of living one earth – we are born at certain time and we die (hopefully like Avraham). God is INFINTE-immeasureable or endless, never-ending (same same forever)
The Bible clearly teaches that God’s image is reflected by male and female alike (Genesis 1:27) and that His children come “from every nation, from all tribes and peoples and languages” (Revelation 7:9, ESV).
conclusions
When a certain film covers up a bible verse or a quotation from Our Ancient teachers like Moses and Jesus, does not mean it is reliable or it does not also means it is pure and clean and edible for the soul to chew. We have to dig deep the truth coz we as believers and students of Yeshua are easily ensnared by the tales and fables of the human entertainment. Many can claim that some films are biblically based yet whenever a film does not confirm its full purpose, it is a lie. There are films that are indeed true to its message, and when you find them they consists of moral teachings without mixture of other religious activities, symbols and rituals. Aside from films that are clear to their message like movies that mocks the believers, it is very certain among our brethrens that we are filled with ignorance most of the time. Because many of the films created, as long it is titled with biblical theme, for some it is very tempting and seductive to watch that even the whole congregation sermon can be a marketing stage and recommendations that they can be watched. Personally, I watch movies rarely, i usually look at documentaries or history related films, or sometimes watch some children movies but allows my children to recognise which is right and wrong information. Mostly, we notice the wrong things whenever we read and are well informed of our history or by searching the facts biblically. But, it may differ from different sources. I sually read articles from certified historians.
There is a scripture that writes : Psa 101:3 I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes: I hate the work of them that turn aside; it shall not cleave to me.
Speaking of movies, I am very supportive on reality based movies. There are lots of them where you can see how a person was changed through time and how faith had inspired and motivated them to be a whole new creation. It takes an observant to question a movie wether it is legitimate to use or even laid on by the eyes. So it is your decision of course to see what you like, but it is for you to know what is legible and if you see the truth of course you have the responsibility to also warn others.
I do not write these to become overly reactive but to give you an insight to also become aware of what you see and hear from others. You must always test the things you hear by finding them in the scriptures never forgetting where it all began or whom and which nation and tribe it all started.
Beware! Such thing can draw us into idolatry. Worse it can be a strange service.
Much Love
Rochelle