Are You Afraid To die?

Are You Afraid To die?

WHEN DEATH SCARES YOU.. YOU KNOW THAT SOMEWHERE IN YOUR LIFE. YOU HAVE NOT DEALT WITH YOUR PERSONAL ISSUES YET.

Just as you have power and control hunger over everything and everyone… You fear that you might loose that power in your hand. And when war, sickness arrives.. You wish that the times wasn’t up yet… And suddenly realises, you have wasted the time given.

AND THATS WHY GOD TEACH US TO TRUST IN HIM AND HAVE HOPE. BECAUSE FAITH HAS ITS IMPORTANT ROLE. IT GIVES YOU THE REFLECTION WHILE YOU ARE ALIVE..

To not fear death and to live fully without regression. To learn to speak openly to your loved ones while you can see them, to be in their presence and embrace them..

War, sickness and brokenness cannot separate us from the love of Messiah Yeshua. Remember that.
So dont run like you gonna die so fast while you have the chance to change the ways with your family and make changes in the world. /Lovelots Rochelle

Do not Identify from Assumptions of Others

Do not Identify from Assumptions of Others

In the assumptions of many, i was home wrecker, a bittergourd, attention seeker, or someone whom are distant. No one actually know who I am because it was never revealed to those whom are false to me. Those who assumed to know me, have never heard of my struggling and deep experience.
In their assumptions, I wouldn’t have a place for success, they did not believe in my ability. I would just be that unnoticed person whom they called “attention seeker”. And from that, it crossed my heart deeply.


But in all the stamp that people had pasted on my identity, in a moment I was hurt, I cried and screamed in the dark. But after a while I learned to use them as a tool to engage with the power of Courage and take part to the journey that will lead me towards the making of a mature individual.


I might be distant and I might not have a group of friends. But it doesn’t make me feel lonely. I know some acquaintances are near and caring to me. I am always an emotional person and swayed by all the people that loved me through it all.

I might seem very far to many by expectations, but I assure that I never needed to please anyone. I am sure hospitable but never a rub a feet to please. I am always true to everyone I meet and even to myself. Thus, God had made me strong all this years.


In all the assumptions of many, and in all the stamps I received. I never identified my self from any of it. I am confident that God will be my strength and God will be my hope in all circumstances. I have experienced to have nothing and to have more. Yet what matters to me is the growth of my spirituality.

PTSD Basics

PTSD Basics

Things you may not know about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder:

Nobody wants to get PTSD
Nobody asks to get PTSD
PTSD is not “our” fault. Nobody needs more abuse such as “shame blaming,” the same mental and emotional bullying already responsible for so many suicides in our world. If you don’t know what to say, please just be kind, gentle and respectful as in, “I don’t understand what you are going through but please let me know if I can help you in any way.” when something happens. Do not choose sides because it opens a clear misjudgement and you will become the third person. It can create more problems for people involved. Become a trusting link instead.

I stress out that those who have religious beliefs which seemed that mental illness are sinful natures. I absolutely do not agree because I didn’t wish to be abused as a child, I didn’t wish to be molested, I didn’t wish to be physically abused in my past relationships. And most of all, I didn’t wish to get hurt by all the words that the religious preachers had spoken to me. It is not my responsibility to be in this shape because of the unresponsible people. And take note.. I never see myself as a victim. I see myself as a survivor..

I was diagnosed with PTSD due to violent circumstances in childhood, teenage life, marital life and even in small events that creates a huge wound on my environmental growth.

Am I Supposed to Say it?

Am I Supposed to Say it?

Often, I am mistaken for what I say. Am I supposed to say it? Am I supposed to act differently to convey the message? Am I able to mention the faults that I experienced from others? I guess I should, and I guess I as well must mention my own personal fault too.. But in the end.. Am I not misunderstood? Often…. – Rochelle Rosenberg

People told me.. You did not forgive because you kept mentioning what has done to you.
I can say, imagine as God forgave yet He reminds them what has done. It wasn’t a message of returning the error but merely a sign it won’t happen again.

In every situation that happened to us in the past, we must remember… We weren’t that special because we also owe others an apology somehow.

We are not special people.. We are persons whom are limited in time, understanding and wisdom. Therefore we ought to rely in a Highly form of guidance from Heaven to make our daily lives more learning and manageable.


So, wether I mentioned the past that happened to me, it does not mean I did not forgave. I can mention it now without grudges and without anger and without pain.. But merely by understanding that it was for a test of character. They changed me and I changed them. In both ways, we were tools to become subjects of development. I forgave, not for the sake of them but for my sake. Because before I ask forgiveness from heaven, I too is in need of mercy. Although their deeds cannot be erased on my mind, I can assure that I can try not to remember the ill in the presence of how it hurt me. It is definitely something we have to remember.. That an accident injury, heals in its time gradually. It does not heal in one day. Because after injury, you will need a training to gain more of your skills to develop the former strengths but this time in a much well focused approach.
This time as you heal, you get the time on focusing where you did fail and try to find a way to learn from it. Therefore God provides us time so we may develop each morning.

So I encourage you.. To change your mind when someone has something to share about their lives. Wether something they had experiences with, have patience.. Take tine to listen. In that manner.. You know you have the love and kindness for others.

Not because I remember the past that had been done meant I did not forgive.. Just an like an accident.. An injury doesn’t heal in a day.. It has process, it is given time to recover. And at the same time. It has an amount of quietness and reflective moments to realise how to develop a better understanding and how to increase the heart into wisdom. And to trust in every step God is there.

Your fear of God begins in Knowing Him

Your fear of God begins in Knowing Him

Therefore Education and Success has just a place in mankind to be used in service of others and not for own benefits. For in the day of our death, sucess will just be an echoe in the lying bed. In the silence of our bodies, we will not hear the success stories we have done, for God will reveal the true test of our victory.

It is a freedom to know the wisdom of God. And it is unbearable to know it. For by the time you start knowing the wisdom of heaven, you are obliged to perform its duty and to bear the mind of the upright. In wisdom, you shall be fit in mind and even the face of others. For you will always have a watchful eye on you. And these million eyes will never dare to see your good deeds but only sees when you stumble.

Educate yourself therefore with the ways of the Lord. And bring forth your soul to the humility of your heart. Seek the wisdom of God and you will know the fear of the Lord.

Proverbs 1:7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction.

Proverbs 2:6 For the LORD gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.

Psalm 19:2 Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they reveal knowledge.

When big realities is seen in this world and in this generation? After all, theres the wars, murders, thefts, the poor and the poorer in soul, and the ills, and the jealousy and hatred and the groans, and the cries and the dead, are constantly reduced?
And if a man tells me, are you then enlightened and hated by wisdom? Blessed be God for showing me this wisdom. For opening my eyes from slumber of folly and stupidity..
From my childhood to the present, I have loved exploration and observation, for the sake of finding the truth, and for understanding the hidden, and for recognizing the lie and the mistake, and from seeking the truth will never cease my heart. but I have never liked nor enlightened education for my benefit, and to much good and succeed.
And there is no reason, and no advice, that it will be able to save man from any trouble and distress, and give him existing success. Education on earth is fine for the purposes of survival of mankind. And if the claimant continues to argue. And not in the holy language call, success in the name of education, it is clear that success depends on education and intelligence to which I will reply. There is education, and there is education. But as education exist, then man is the more dangerous as he can be. For who would know in the end where the man would lay his learning? Will he serve others or will he benefit himself alone? And there is education, of this world and there is education from the heavens given through the Messenger of God.

May the Lord be merciful to us all.
To the young and old alike.

Credit to Sefaria in the chapter of Sefer Yesodei HaTorah

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I Grew Each Passing Day

I Grew Each Passing Day

I grew more with my walk with the Lord every day and i experienced that i learned little better in time

Serving God in daily basis is indeed a marriage of the spiritual life

I indeed realise as along the way when we learned a lot… We becoming wise and as a part of heavenly wisdom.. We dont tend to be offended on things that mlstly many are annoyed at. I looked at it usually now and make sure I do what is good. As proverbs 16.24 says a righteous person falls 7 times. Then gets up again. But the wicked falls when calamity comes.
They easily give up

As for now i still work with my emotions towards certain things. And i try to manage my heart more than anything else because it is there where the Instructions of God shall reside. In my soul I do not want to hate a brother. But my heart shall decide for its actions and thats the only part I can discipline…

I try my best to work it out especially recently when i had a bad situation in my past marriage. I heard I had demons and as my problems couldn’t resolve, they have baked more demons instead of helping me out. I had no parental guidance in sweden and the only help i expected was with the company within the faith. Yet they hurt me. Yet I did my very best to not take it to heart. And i did my best not to be a madman. I cried and was deeply embarrassed. Yes i got discouraged, i got disappointed. But only for a while. I think that i want to spend my time believing that things will turn out good despite of trials. Im proud I kept my mouth speaking evil things and slipping nonsense. I did not complain. I did not provoke any. I did not backbite. I kept in heart hid my tears and God is patient with me.

In understanding I grew. Im proud spiritually that I didnt made my eyes sin. I kept My lips and my mind from sin in the middle of disappointments and trials.

It is indeed true, that keeps those whose eyes are on Him. And it is indeed important to keep your trust in Him in the midst of difficulties. For one day, the Lord will bring peace. And in peace within yourself, God brings solutions to situations you are facing. Be Still and Know He is your God.

Abortion? The spirit of evil..

Abortion? The spirit of evil..

I am a survivor proof that even though it was a long time plan to abort me so God let me live …I do not know how many times my mother jumped and took medications just to get rid of me.

Then in the 8th month, she took even stronger medicine but it couldn’t. When I was born, the maternal nurse discovered that I am blind on the left eye, which may cause me to become blind when I grow up about 30 … I came out into the world with an inflamed, swollen eye and my mother hated me. I heard time and again how unhappy she was to see me. Wish I was dead. But my mind is strong. Learn to read early, draw strange things. Mature too early. Life became hard, but I learned to love her after all .. Because I know that anger cannot take me back to the event but I love life as it is. I met bullying in school because of the appearance, was called for all possible words because of the abortion. Failed child.

Today I live and am not blind. I see a little bit on the left eye through a miracle .. Thank you God.

I feel sorry for those who are hard hit and those who are unborn as the lawsuit has been taken away from them. My mother in any case after many years had asked for apology for those she did and that without complete info she had to learn about abortion and what consequences the child or woman gets until later. I have not been angry with her about it but without the result that was, I was very disappointed with her before. Thank Elohim our God and Yeshua our Messiah who gave me a new heart to see the light .. But even until today, the abortion event has an impact on me.

With that in the background, I in the Philippines have helped women who had thoughts about abortion. With God’s help, the unborn came into the world unscathed. Not everyone but you can help some 😊 There is hope for the women who believe they have power over the body and the power to take the gift of life from the womb. Giving them an insight into what and how the child became was their responsibility whatever it was for life situations they were in. The hope is that there are people who can support them and listen .. There are enough people on earth who will take care of their children if they did not want to keep the baby themselves. I have no claim to be angry with those who chose turn to keep their pregnancy but are very angry at those who are really deaf to hear and have the ill will to kill another person. On the other hand, I also hate people who are aides to murder .. God hates a murderer .. And with the women who carried out abortion and help to murder, God’s word describes it as an immoral act. Time and again even according to the history of the bible and the facts, devilish people have always existed. It is written in the scripture that people who do wrong to their mankind and take their lives are murderers and going against the commandments of God, so to speak. The law also describes the same.. The human rights not to murder. However, if there is someone who had already done so and accidentally read my post, I do not want to give someone a bad feeling. There is hope to turn around and resist the other murderers.
God hears all these unborn voices and every one who agrees to it will gain their profit from both good and evil. In all form God gives every man his punishment according to his deeds.

In Sweden, it is completely open with this and in other parts of the world.

In my home country, on the other hand, it is done in hidden , but if you are discovered, you get a prison sentence just like a murderer.

However, God must have mercy on the nations and the leaders of the countries who are co-workers of the murder of children. May God bribg justice in miracle way..

These children will cry and scream justice before the throne of God. The time of the lawless has come .. These children cry .. He hears it.

Sorry no Sorry

Sorry no Sorry

Most of us want others to forgive and move on. But we most forget what we said that broke their heart.

When God forgives us, He wants us to be reminded of what we spoke and take back the harsh words we have said. God promises then that we shall CONFESS TO ONE ANOTHER (A CONVERSATION BETWEEN PEOPLE WHO HAVE SOME TROUBLED STORY OR SOME CIRCUMSTANCES THAT CAME UP WHICH CAUSED DIVISION AND HURT ) and God promised that after we have asked forgiveness from people we hurt, or atleast we forgive other who hurt us, then we can pray to Him.. And God then FORGIVES US. and also He will remove all our sin and will not remember it anymore..

But to mere humans..we keep avoiding to ask forgiveness because we think God takes care of it. Without knowing that the person we hurt unconsciously are struggling emotionally, physically, and maybe spiritually falling.. Isnt it we are easy stumbling block for them? And isn’t it we bear the responsibility of their hurt..?

He would if we dont have any opportunity to find the person but as we can find the people and are just reach of hand, we can have a talk with them..
It takes a courage to ask forgiveness, it takes pride to be torn down before we acknowledge our own fault.
We are actually cruel!

In my experience, I grew up in a surrounding where I was thought to say sorry. In the fellowship I grew up with, i have learned to ask forgiveness. It took courage before I learned to do that at home. Still to this day, i have never heard sorry from the people that violated me, raped me, judged me and spoken things behind me.. On my part, I am proud to say that I asked forgiveness because I know myself that It is sinful to have resentment in my heart. And I know for a fact that it sets me free from having debts to anyone even if I think I am right. It did not matter if I think I was right. What matters most was, I was courageous to ask forgiveness and say sorry and I meant it.
This is what gave me peace… No doubt. Thats the Spirit of God.

No wonder why Psychological problems arise. Because there are many things we take for granted.
Some people waits for the time until the person who hurt them say SORRY! It even takes 10years,20 years or 50years before they would hear Sorry, before they themselves would dare to say Sorry!
Isnt it we humans, want God to be forgiving.. But we were born of adversity.. Filled of pretension.. Inside the church.. Many of us hide faces in walls of white…

If you somehow had hurt someone else. Be brave to ask someone forgiveness and acknowledge your fault. It will not make you weak. In fact, it will make you more peaceful and happier. If you can’t find the person. At least have a conversation with God to lead you and remind you your own feelings so He may cleanse your heart.

Those who knew me personally know that the real me loves people with sincerity..

I hope I may not hit some toes. Coz If I do.. Then my purpose has been fulfilled…
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De flesta av oss vill att andra ska förlåta och fortsätta. Men vi glömmer mest vad vi sa som bröt deras hjärta.

När Gud förlåter oss, vill han att vi ska påminnas om vad vi talade och ta tillbaka de hårda orden vi har sagt. Gud talade då att vi skall bekänna till varandra (ett samtal mellan två människor som har någon misslyckad historia eller vissa omständigheter som kom upp som orsakade fördelning och skada ) och Gud lovade att efter att vi har begärt förlåtelse från människor som vi skadat eller åtminstone förlåter vi andra som skadar oss, då kan vi be till honom .. Och då förlåtar Gud oss. och även han kommer att ta bort all vår synd och kommer inte komma ihåg det längre ..

Men till oss människor .. Vi fortsätter att undvika att be om förlåtelse, för vi tror att Gud tar hand om det. Utan att veta att den personen som vi skadat omedvetet kämpar emotionellt, fysiskt och kanske andligt faller .. Är det inte lätt att stötta för dem och de snubblar? Och är det inte vi bär ansvaret för deras ont ..?

Om vi inte har någon möjlighet att hitta personen vi skadade men om vi kan hitta dessa personer och bara nå med en hand, kan vi ju prata med dem och samtala..
Det tar ett mod att be om förlåtelse, det tar tid med stolthet att riva ner den innan vi erkänner vårt eget fel.
Vi är faktiskt grymma!

Enligt min erfarenhet växte jag upp i en omgivning där jag vsrt upplärd att säga förlåt. I samhället växte jag upp med, jag har lärt mig att be om förlåtelse. Det tog mod innan jag lärde mig att göra det hemma. Fram tills idag har jag aldrig hört från de människor som kränkt mig, våldtagit mig, dömde mig och talade bakom mig.
Jag är stolt över att säga att jag bad om förlåtelse för att jag känner mig själv att det är syndigt att ha förbittring i mitt hjärta. Och jag vet för ett faktum att det ger mig frihet från att ha skulder till någon, även om jag tycker att jag har rätt. Det spelade ingen roll om jag tyckte att jag hade rätt. Det som betyder mest var att jag var modig att be om förlåtelse och säga förlåt och att jag menade det.
Det var det som gav mig fred … Ingen tvekan. Det är Guds Ande.

Inte undra på varför psykiska problem uppstår. Eftersom det finns många saker vi tar för givet.
Vissa människor väntar på tiden tills personen som skadade dem säger FÖRLÅT! Det tar till och med 10 år, 20 år eller 50 år innan de skulle höra det. Tyvärr är det så, innan de själva vågade säga förlåt!
Är det inte vi människor som vill att Gud ska förlåta .. Men vi föddes av motgång. Fylld av pretension .. Inuti kyrkan, bland troende.. Många av oss gömmer ansikten i den vita väggar …

Om du på något sätt hade skadat någon annan. Var modig för att fråga någon förlåtelse och erkänna ditt fel. Det kommer inte att göra dig svag. Det kommer faktiskt att göra dig mer fredlig och lyckligare. Om du inte hittar personen. Åtminstone ha en konversation med Gud för att leda dig och påminna dig dina egna känslor så att han kan rensa ditt hjärta.

De som kände mig personligen vet att den riktiga jag älskar människor med uppriktighet ..

Jag hoppas jag får inte slå några tår. För Om jag gjorde det.. Då har mitt syfte uppnåtts …

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