Autumn Leaves Like Womens Beauty

Autumn Leaves Like Womens Beauty

Women… Can be considered likely to the autumn leaves.. Perhaps it is very harsh to compare it in this manner.. But in my perception it is much closer than a flower…

Such beauty you are… Is not like someone else. Such beauty you are.. Is completely unique.. God made you.. To be not like everyone else.. Believe that.

Women… You always wanted to be beautiful.. Mostly you ask for confirmation… And you hunger for it.. To be defined beautiful… But what is beauty.. When one day, it will pass on your season and you will fall on your branches, to the ground as everyone would pass you by.

I suppose you would love yourself the way you are. I suppose you would see yourself just as simply as it is. I wish you don’t need to compare yourself to others, and I wish you wouldn’t try to be like someone else.. Such beauty you are… Is not like someone else. Such beauty you are.. Is completely unique.. God made you.. To be not like everyone else.. Believe that.

I suppose you would love yourself the way you are. I suppose you would see yourself just as simply as it is. I wish you don’t need to compare yourself to others, and I wish you wouldn’t try to be like someone else..

Who would care about the days you were tall and vibrant. Who would remember the days you bore fruit of different colors and made eyes stand by.. When now.. All of your achievements come to pass and all your legendary experience becomes a history.

As you fall from the branch, everyone continues with their lives. And you struggled in every falling leaf with a fear that the branch would follow to break. Fear you would fall on the hard ground.. Soak in all the mystery of the autumn rain.. To be torn by the waters and decompose…

a mature individual, made wise by life experiences rather than inborn childlike naivety. Whom has lived through goodness and the darkness of life, yet, perceives the world in vibrant multicolor

These leaves remind me of a mature individual, made wise by life experiences rather than inborn childlike naivety. Whom has lived through goodness and the darkness of life, yet, perceives the world in vibrant multicolor. Her experiences have brought about a transformation where she no longer fits into the same dimension of environment but has emerged a richer individual, carrying an array of hues and shades, ideas and perspectives, empathy and perceptiveness. A resemblance of fullness in purpose.. A character of depth and dignity, a symbol of full perception of right and wrong. A time of understanding the situation of people’s chosen path… And then… She have to wait for the time that her twigs would loosen her…

Why should such beauty result from decomposition? Isn’t beauty something positive we would normally associate with completeness and vibrancy? What is the message we are to take from this paradox of nature?

Maybe the message of autumn is the reminder that there is tremendous beauty G‑d wants us to enjoy in this physical world. But without recognizing that He is the source behind it, without that connection to Him, the physical world is dead. When we do recognize Him, however, the world can be quite a beautiful place.

Nevertheless.. Do not forget the ONE who have given you your season.. And do not worry about the things that are not necessary. Accept the way you are and find the talents and skills that you have. Use it.. And contribute to make a better world. You are a part of that wholeness of Beauty..

I Grew Each Passing Day

I Grew Each Passing Day

I grew more with my walk with the Lord every day and i experienced that i learned little better in time

Serving God in daily basis is indeed a marriage of the spiritual life

I indeed realise as along the way when we learned a lot… We becoming wise and as a part of heavenly wisdom.. We dont tend to be offended on things that mlstly many are annoyed at. I looked at it usually now and make sure I do what is good. As proverbs 16.24 says a righteous person falls 7 times. Then gets up again. But the wicked falls when calamity comes.
They easily give up

As for now i still work with my emotions towards certain things. And i try to manage my heart more than anything else because it is there where the Instructions of God shall reside. In my soul I do not want to hate a brother. But my heart shall decide for its actions and thats the only part I can discipline…

I try my best to work it out especially recently when i had a bad situation in my past marriage. I heard I had demons and as my problems couldn’t resolve, they have baked more demons instead of helping me out. I had no parental guidance in sweden and the only help i expected was with the company within the faith. Yet they hurt me. Yet I did my very best to not take it to heart. And i did my best not to be a madman. I cried and was deeply embarrassed. Yes i got discouraged, i got disappointed. But only for a while. I think that i want to spend my time believing that things will turn out good despite of trials. Im proud I kept my mouth speaking evil things and slipping nonsense. I did not complain. I did not provoke any. I did not backbite. I kept in heart hid my tears and God is patient with me.

In understanding I grew. Im proud spiritually that I didnt made my eyes sin. I kept My lips and my mind from sin in the middle of disappointments and trials.

It is indeed true, that keeps those whose eyes are on Him. And it is indeed important to keep your trust in Him in the midst of difficulties. For one day, the Lord will bring peace. And in peace within yourself, God brings solutions to situations you are facing. Be Still and Know He is your God.

Experience God

Experience God

Sometimes, we base things by feelings, we base moments and events according to how good we feel and we are merely attached to it in those days when we don’t feel nothing at all.

But how do we truly experience God? Is it just by the good times? is it by miracles alone? is it by the overnatural things that we have seen and heard? Or is it by the events that were attached to us with emotions?

What if, all these years we have been seeking to experience God through supernatural events that we once felt and the most thing we think is that, God had left us because we do noit experience Him anymore? Because basically, we do not feel anything..at all..

The truth is, our emotions are very tricky. Sometimes, we are so overwhelmed on things that happens to us especially when it is extraordinary. I can tell that according to experience. I usually think God was far away because I had nothing to base a new experience with Him. Truth was, I am experiencing Him daily in my every day life. In small decisions, He is there. In every path I choose, He is there. In every people I meet, He is there. His presence is everywhere I go. There are big signs of His presence everywhere that sometimes we take for granted. The sudden blessings that comes, the unexpected meeting with people, the unexpected talk and the exchange of conversations that we had with people on the road. How did we perform? How did we show ourselves as representatives of the Master we belong to?

I learned by experience, God is in all of those things I do. Wether I am at my own home or at work or in the way.

The way we view life optimistically despite of trials is also the way we experience God. Because we know that we are learning new things.. To become better every day. You will look back in 5 years from now. You will see alot of challenges you thought you never would have been able to succeed. One day you will stand there in awe of God remembering that those were the times you truly experienced God.

Abortion? The spirit of evil..

Abortion? The spirit of evil..

I am a survivor proof that even though it was a long time plan to abort me so God let me live …I do not know how many times my mother jumped and took medications just to get rid of me.

Then in the 8th month, she took even stronger medicine but it couldn’t. When I was born, the maternal nurse discovered that I am blind on the left eye, which may cause me to become blind when I grow up about 30 … I came out into the world with an inflamed, swollen eye and my mother hated me. I heard time and again how unhappy she was to see me. Wish I was dead. But my mind is strong. Learn to read early, draw strange things. Mature too early. Life became hard, but I learned to love her after all .. Because I know that anger cannot take me back to the event but I love life as it is. I met bullying in school because of the appearance, was called for all possible words because of the abortion. Failed child.

Today I live and am not blind. I see a little bit on the left eye through a miracle .. Thank you God.

I feel sorry for those who are hard hit and those who are unborn as the lawsuit has been taken away from them. My mother in any case after many years had asked for apology for those she did and that without complete info she had to learn about abortion and what consequences the child or woman gets until later. I have not been angry with her about it but without the result that was, I was very disappointed with her before. Thank Elohim our God and Yeshua our Messiah who gave me a new heart to see the light .. But even until today, the abortion event has an impact on me.

With that in the background, I in the Philippines have helped women who had thoughts about abortion. With God’s help, the unborn came into the world unscathed. Not everyone but you can help some 😊 There is hope for the women who believe they have power over the body and the power to take the gift of life from the womb. Giving them an insight into what and how the child became was their responsibility whatever it was for life situations they were in. The hope is that there are people who can support them and listen .. There are enough people on earth who will take care of their children if they did not want to keep the baby themselves. I have no claim to be angry with those who chose turn to keep their pregnancy but are very angry at those who are really deaf to hear and have the ill will to kill another person. On the other hand, I also hate people who are aides to murder .. God hates a murderer .. And with the women who carried out abortion and help to murder, God’s word describes it as an immoral act. Time and again even according to the history of the bible and the facts, devilish people have always existed. It is written in the scripture that people who do wrong to their mankind and take their lives are murderers and going against the commandments of God, so to speak. The law also describes the same.. The human rights not to murder. However, if there is someone who had already done so and accidentally read my post, I do not want to give someone a bad feeling. There is hope to turn around and resist the other murderers.
God hears all these unborn voices and every one who agrees to it will gain their profit from both good and evil. In all form God gives every man his punishment according to his deeds.

In Sweden, it is completely open with this and in other parts of the world.

In my home country, on the other hand, it is done in hidden , but if you are discovered, you get a prison sentence just like a murderer.

However, God must have mercy on the nations and the leaders of the countries who are co-workers of the murder of children. May God bribg justice in miracle way..

These children will cry and scream justice before the throne of God. The time of the lawless has come .. These children cry .. He hears it.

Passover Meaning

Passover Meaning

Today marks the evening. The beginning of Passover. The NIGHT The Lord ordered Israel to eat the Passover lamb. Same night the Lord passed throughout Egypt to see the blood marks on the doorsposts and took the Egyptians firstborn.

This marks that Yeshua our Messiah has been prepared while the temple prepares its passover Lamb. That same night Yeshua was given over to the hands of evil to redeem the world and reconcile towards God.

Same night when the Messiah took a meal with his Talmidim(disciples) to speak of what will happen afterwards. It was not the questions of why one would betray him, it was somehow a preparation that a sacrifice must be done despite of relationship with the person whom he had taught all those years.He knew the time drew near and what matters is that the disciple himself would also fulfill his purpose of what God had set him to so that Yeshua would come to the peak of his father’s greatness.

Day AFTER THE PASSOVER was the FREEDOM. it was the freedom from SLAVERY in EGYPT. The day when God freed the Israelites from the hands of ruthless masters. A day when the years of suffering ended.

Day after the PASSOVER was the day when all the comfort zone is to be left. When all that we thibk were okay and right has to be exposed wrong. As we thought that living under a difficult circumstances can also give comfort, this time after the Passover, we will be led to understand Gods leadership. Not to be controlled anymore by ruthlessl masters but to be brought into the promised Land.

The day after the Passover, Yeshua was hanged on a stake. Both his followers and students scattered in confusion and heartbreak. But as the evening approached.. It was the beginning of the FREEDOM OF MANKIND FROM SIN. Given Free from heaven.

Let us remember this day…
Yeshua is ALIVE!

Surrender

We are tempted to think that the more powerful we become, the better we will battle sin. But the exact opposite is true. The more power, influence, or prestige we possess, the more temptable we are. The strength of sin feeds on our sense of strength. This is why we are warned that “pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall” (Proverbs 16:18). In weakness, we feel our need for God, but when we are strong, we lack that saving sobriety. We lost the need of God and mostly in strength we tend to think THINGS ARE UNDER CONTROL..but it is not so. THEREFORE learning to surrender towards God is needed the most…then we will know how to respect a sovereign power over us. An authority to lead us and not to control us.
-wisdom

The day of Birth

The day of Birth

It is funny to be greeted by friends “Happy Birthday” remembering only the day I was born by the date and year and time. I myself consume my mind on remembering the day my mother had the hours of difficulty. The time where she had the labour just to bring me out of the womb.

Of course I am thankful and grateful of all the greetings.. I judt have to pay attention that the day I was born.. It was my mother who gave birth to me. =birth day.. 😂😂

It must be painful for her at that time to struggle thinking just to survive the birthing of a small little child. And that moment, she must have forgotten all the worries she carry out day by day.

I wish people would remember her more than I. I wish people would think of her again as every year passes by how she had survived those very first moments just to give me the chance to live and experience life.

I was a history of abortion. In the middle of my mother’s pregnancy she probably had stopped doing what she planned to do do against the life inside her womb. I was born with a left blind eye. I experienced the bullies and humiliating events from people who did not know the story of my appearance. I experienced a difficult childhood. From her hands, i know how to feel the pain and the violence of every mistakes that I have made. I shed the tears by hearing how unlucky she was because of me. Through my teenage years, I kept the pain as if they were a part of me. It wasnt easy. All the scars would speak of the memories that I kept in silence. Yet I am happy she was still mother.

Those years have made me realise how fragile she was because it was the only right thing she knew to raise me. It was the memories of her upbringing that she thought was right to transmit and apply as a guideline to discipline. At times I honestly shed my tears with anger. I had resentment and I blew all the blame on her. I misunderstood her and even myself. But now, I reached the stage of wisdom through the years.

I became 33. And I am so thankful for all the things that happened.

Today is the day when my mother took me out of the world.. then I see… Half….
Today was the day when God decided then how I would look like, how I would see the world, how my heart would beat and how my life would be formed through the journey..
Today was the day when God set the people before me, to meet, to keep, to love, to loose, to hold and to cherish..
Today is not about party, not about cake or fancy gifts. Its about saying

THANK YOU GOD I SURVIVED ANOTHER YEAR WITH THIS CRUCIAL LIFE..!! THANK YOU GOD YOU’VE MOLDED ME DAILY BY TEACHING ME THINGS IN LIFE. FOR KEEPING YOUR HANDS AT HOLD EVEN WHEN I’M OUT SIGHT, FOR KEEPING ME SAFE EVEN WHEN YOU KNOW I AM A HARD HEADED CHILD..

To the One Above.. Im grateful living this life… 😌