What Matters the Most

I have thoughts about how others would respond when I do things that are inappropriate for them. I used to adjust myself on others opinions. Sometimes it works, sometimes it fails. But in the end, I have to pursue what I think is good even if I am uncomfortable with it. – Rochelle

There have been many issues is my life that I thought I couldn’t survive, some of the event had left a trace in my heart and bad thoughts in my memories. I can’t even imagine how I made it through or how I found the strength to put my feet back on track. There were times when I failed, people had judged me according to their measurements. It was easy for others to speak so much about how a person would get by life’s struggle but were not available to give a helping hand. It was easy to put themselves into the seat of a judge without balancing their judgement. It was corrupt. And it had left me flashes of pain.

I lived in an undesirable environment with people that has to tell me how to do things rathan teach me how to walk it. I lived with the thoughts “what they say matters in here”. But as life goes on, the four walls of my closed doors speaks the truth of who I am. It screams the need of change and the unstability reveals the weakness – a need of a true guidance.., -without self-deceit from others. The walls were the witness of myself, Incomplete, broken and easily swayed away. Was it because I thought I couldn’t do any thing at all? Or was it because I thought that they are the only right that I knew of? Either way, what they had said and what they told me… Did not Matter in the end-

I have noticed that nothing of these things matters because behind closed doors, I was alone when I cried and hit my heart many times because the pain consumed me. I was alone when I fought and God was my hiding place and strength to move on. It was not the religious affirmations that contributed to my well-being. Only the study of Torah!

Whatever they spoke and said, did not contribute a spot of strength but a huge of fear and incomplexity in me. Every step I took made me feel afraid of what others have to say, Every thing that I speak must adjust on what others feel. Not that I have to be disrespectful, but mostly I wanted to speak things as they are – without any hidden information. But that is also unacceptable to others.

Over the years, I struggled alone with the fight inside. I heard different opinions from each side and those words made me feel worried and worse. Thats when depression comes, you loose the interest and there is no sense of value in life. People would think I am strange because I sometimes have the feeling to wanting have friends but actually not wanting so much contact, wanting to meet people but not liking too much socializing. We are unaware sometimes that as we speak, our words can contribute either to build up or to destroy others – spiritually.. But as for me, I have learned to navigate myself through different circumstances. I have learned where to lay my eyes on and where to focus my ears and where to walk my feet. And it is amazing to find your strength not by physical upbeat but in your soul.

I tried to find self-esteem in fitness, in sports, in all kinds of creativity and practice to find peace. Instead of stillness, it gaved me the feeling that I need affirmation to know that I do my best. It was actually like using your hurt to get up – which will make you weary from the inside.

I found out that Peace cannot be achieved by self modification but with a motivation to forgive others without any hesitation no matter what or how they caused pain and damage to you. There is a willingness from the inside to create a harmony of stillness in the mind not needing any affirmation through physical activities. I do not say that Physical creativity is not useful – it is! The thing is that, it cannot contribute to peace if it is only a cover-up to build self-esteem. Most of the Mind problems cannot be solved from the outer core of our bodies – merely a full restoration from the inside. True peace is like, you will not need any affirmation from many people to talk around you on what and how to do. It is a built-in confidence you know? If you lost that, Maybe it is enough with few trustworthy friends to have a conversation regarding your weakness and strength. And from that point, it is up to you wether you will use your strength to invest in time forgiving others and a sense of acceptance on what had happened in your life. Just take time, You know things don’t change in a day. So One special thing to remember is, BE PATIENT! BE HOPEFUL AND HAVE FAITH! LEARN TO WAIT, And WORK UNDERPRESSURE!

The most interesting part for me is, I have been involved in many different beliefs and religious activities, yet none of them can fill the emptiness I had inside. So I stopped being religiously connected or I mean, I stopped being a church attendant (not that I forbid others to do so but if you want peace, you should know yourself first before interacting with so many people). I took my faith as a life. I lived it everyday. I joined people whom are studying the faith, searching for possibilities to change their course of life to become better and contribute to become a law-abiding citizen. It was actually different to read at home, meeting people with same faith, having a deep conversation about spirituality. Deep in the conversations and readings, I found that King Solomon has a lot of counsel towards people who have never yet found their understanding of life. A book to consider about growing in faith, wisdom and navigation to life pointing towards God.

I stopped listening to people whom are filled with envy and filled with so much talk about others. I stopped spending time with people who do not have any motivation of change at all. I stopped making friends with people whom are time consumers instead, I gained friends whom are filled with creativity, Faith involvement and Life changing stories. People whom are trying their best to become a better person each day. Making a good influence on others. One thing I did not stop is –— SMILING, being HAPPY and Adventourous in life..
After all! The Journey continues!

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The Departure

Bye Bye! The Past is BEHIND! If you remind me, I dont Mind!


Do you recognise yourself as part of the children of God?
Departure from circumstances is never easy, especially when you get comfortable with thw situations you are in. No matter how much wrong you knew it was, still it would bother hou a bit to leave that circumstances to face a new challenge and to face the unknowable future. Although you might know that freedom awaits you on the other side, all the experiences you have performed this years had become an instilled learning for you. It becomes important. But as God leads you and want to pluck you out because He have seen your hardships amd He have heard the prayers.. The time has come He sends a messenger, He raises up someone to lead and to teach.. Thats when the comfort zone you got used to becomes a new challenge. Thats when Moshe came. To lead and set free his people from Egypt. Thats when Yeshua had become the new Adam to redeem us from Slavery.

As the Israelites were led by Moshe Rabbenu, they were leaving Egypt..with haste they carried a dough unleavened and with all their families and possessions as they run away from enemy.
They were set to freedom yet the enemy is behind chasing them. As they survived the departure from slavery, they face circumstances in the wilderness.. Not for a thought you would focus only on the miracles of the cloud and in the day and fire in the night. But to think how God provided in 40years and how God brought them to Kenan. Those things happens in the mountains and how God disciplined the children He loves.
So He sees you.

As Yeshua entered the world, so was Moshe Rabbenu. There was no special treatment in his arrival. Yet the purpose of his entrance to the world is to redeem us from slavery of sin. Not just that we had performed them but because God wants to uproot us from the sin instilled in us from the very beginning. Remember this day for the Lord says, this is the day you shall perform a festival for me. For with the strong hand I carried you, with a Mighty hand I rescued you.
With Wonders I showed you the blood of the river.
With visions I led you with my Spirit to win wars over the Kings that stood against your ways. . And with Signs I looked after  you with Clouds in the day and fire in the night
All of this God performed in the eyes of our forefathers… Remember
How the day of Yeshua was. A picture of Moshe was instilled in Yeshua, A redeemer, the pesach sacrifice and the messias that restored our lives to God.

Remember who you are now! That is your identity! People might remind you of you were! but that is the only thing they knew and see about you! The have not witness the process of your change. The have not seen the steps you took towards transformations. The decisions that took place and the strength you found to LIVE BEYOND THE NORM!
GOD IS WITH YOU if YOU ARE WITH HIM!

Passover Meaning

Passover Meaning

Today marks the evening. The beginning of Passover. The NIGHT The Lord ordered Israel to eat the Passover lamb. Same night the Lord passed throughout Egypt to see the blood marks on the doorsposts and took the Egyptians firstborn.

This marks that Yeshua our Messiah has been prepared while the temple prepares its passover Lamb. That same night Yeshua was given over to the hands of evil to redeem the world and reconcile towards God.

Same night when the Messiah took a meal with his Talmidim(disciples) to speak of what will happen afterwards. It was not the questions of why one would betray him, it was somehow a preparation that a sacrifice must be done despite of relationship with the person whom he had taught all those years.He knew the time drew near and what matters is that the disciple himself would also fulfill his purpose of what God had set him to so that Yeshua would come to the peak of his father’s greatness.

Day AFTER THE PASSOVER was the FREEDOM. it was the freedom from SLAVERY in EGYPT. The day when God freed the Israelites from the hands of ruthless masters. A day when the years of suffering ended.

Day after the PASSOVER was the day when all the comfort zone is to be left. When all that we thibk were okay and right has to be exposed wrong. As we thought that living under a difficult circumstances can also give comfort, this time after the Passover, we will be led to understand Gods leadership. Not to be controlled anymore by ruthlessl masters but to be brought into the promised Land.

The day after the Passover, Yeshua was hanged on a stake. Both his followers and students scattered in confusion and heartbreak. But as the evening approached.. It was the beginning of the FREEDOM OF MANKIND FROM SIN. Given Free from heaven.

Let us remember this day…
Yeshua is ALIVE!

Surrender

We are tempted to think that the more powerful we become, the better we will battle sin. But the exact opposite is true. The more power, influence, or prestige we possess, the more temptable we are. The strength of sin feeds on our sense of strength. This is why we are warned that “pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall” (Proverbs 16:18). In weakness, we feel our need for God, but when we are strong, we lack that saving sobriety. We lost the need of God and mostly in strength we tend to think THINGS ARE UNDER CONTROL..but it is not so. THEREFORE learning to surrender towards God is needed the most…then we will know how to respect a sovereign power over us. An authority to lead us and not to control us.
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Live Life far from Media

Live Life far from Media

Most people who do not feel good on the inside are more concerned with Facebook status than those who actually have a good life. Facebook or social media became an attention disorder for some.

In one or as soon as 5 minutes you become a celebrity.
However, it is good attention for entrepreneurs, vendors, institutions, sports and artists around the world. And that there is room to share their faith, thoughts and too much of their life.
Be careful when betting out your private life in the social. Imagine that there is reality outside the screen. Life is short, every hour is golden, so spend time with your families, friends, acquaintances and make no impression on people you do not like at all. Do not impress even those people that tries to intimidate you. Live the life as it is your rewards on earth while you breathe.

Keep in mind that we humans have no security for tomorrow.

Today or later or tomorrow we either wake up or die. What we do by the time is very important.

Slow down with social media, surfing, youtube and other things that are really useless for our soul and body

For the faithful, read more, pray for more, transform yourselves into an influencing tool with a good sense of will and power from above. Be the light of the world. Be more kinder, be more forgiving, appreciate more the trails of life. Be less in complaints and be more thankful. Do not impose too much of your own impression on others but live the faith accordingly to the instructions of the Torah. Be not fanatic, but be a believer. A belief that is Alive.

For most people, seek the truth about life, forgive, laugh and love people more than hate.

God is good who gives life to each and everyone.


De flesta som inte mår bra på insidan är mer oroade över Facebook-status än de som faktiskt har ett bra liv. Facebook eller sociala medier blev en uppmärksamhetssyndrom för vissa.

På en eller så fort som 5 minuter blir du kändis.
Det är dock bra uppmärksamhet för entreprenörer, försäljare, institutioner, sport och konstnärer runt om i världen. Och att det finns utrymme för att dela sin tro, tankar och för mycket av sitt liv.

Var försiktig när du delar ditt privatliv i det sociala. Tänk dig att det finns verklighet utanför skärmen.

Livet är kort, varje timme är guld, så spendera tid med dina familjer, vänner, bekanta och ge inget intryck på personer som du inte alls gillar. Imponera inte även de människor som försöker skrämma dig eller göra dig svartsjuk.

Lev livet, för det är dina belöningar på jorden medan du andas.

Tänk på att vi människor inte har säkerheten för imorgon.

Idag eller senare eller imorgon vaknar vi eller dör. Det vi gör vid tiden är väldigt viktigt.

Sakta ner med sociala medier, surfing, youtube och andra saker som är egentligen onyttig för vår själ och kropp.

För de troende, läs mer, be för mer, omvandla dig till ett påverkande verktyg med en god känsla av vilja och makt ovanifrån. Var världens ljus. Var mer förståelse, var mer förlåtande, uppskatta mer livets utmaningar. Var mindre i klagomål och var mer tacksam. Tryck inte för mycket av ditt eget intryck på andra, men leva din tro i enlighet med Torahs anvisningar. Var inte fanatisk, men var en troende. En tro som är Levande

För de flesta, sök sanning om livet, förlåta, skratta och älska människor mer än att hata.

Gud är gid som ger livet åt en och alla.

Being a Victim

Being a Victim

We mostly get tired of people whom are victims of abuse. And in our terms, our wish is that they would be set free. We do our best to take them out if it. Yet often we see then returning.

Of course we get distracted and disappointed because we dont understand what is happening in their minds. We think sometimes that our efforts were neglected and that our relationship with them somehow starts to be out of hand. Until the day, we want to give up forgetting that once we had the days when we also were victims.

We must understand it is a difficult situation for that person and it is a personal attachment. The only thing u can do is to allow the person see the wrong thing in the event. Although you have given your advice it is still very difficult for the person to be influenced by your thoughts because the person itself face the fear and has very low self esteem. You must remember that the abuser had stolen their identity and trampled their lives. In that manner the abuser was using its power to make use of the victims positive mind from the beginning. I believe that the abuser itself is a broken soul and it feeds to break another to feel a little better. To damp the brokenness inside. we must never forget to understand those who are in weak situations and we shall not look down on them i was once a victim and it took me so long before i got out if it. I was looked down by people who think that i get returning back to the abuser but the thing is, i wasn’t strong enough because the people that tried to pull me out of it are the ones who speaks about mistakes. Points out how i shall be and how i should think. It created confusion in me because I didnt know what to think for myself and the hopelessness grew… One day there was a person who found my strength by suggesting ne solutions and that friend never imposed aby ideas but stayed with me and told me. “You are strong enough” “do you think this things happening to you arecorrect?” “i will always listen to you sentiments until you get free from it because I am hoping you soon be free”
These were always her words whenever she got tired of my repetitive conversation. Until the day i stood for victory.

The idea of hurting others indeed comes from the inner source of the soul in hebrew called ‘jetser hara’ – long for evil. It is in the inner part of the soul connecting from the sinful nature of man. Yet the idea of doing good is the longing for good – jetser ha tov in hebrew.
These has been implanted in our soul therefore many of us either become aware of being abused or not aware of abusive behaviour.

Each of us.. No one can deny that even though we are born again has sometimes the attitude of abuse. Which in term of Paul, we can always discipline ourselves to not obey the jetser hara.

Please have kindness at heart and an understanding attitude towards the person you are facibg difficulties. We might not know what we say might lift then up or might bring them down. ❤️😘 I speak according to my experience.
Yeshua always look upon the broken hearted and has a contrite spirit. A broken soul is the one who needs guidance and has a restless mind. A contrite spirit has the sleepless thoughts and worries, an anxiety of the heart caused by other people who are abusing them and using them for their own benefits.

Yeshua had cared for these people and showed meekness and kindness to them. He was not exempted even to the humiliating events that we also experience in life. That is why He said,

I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty
John 6:35

Take it as an example.
Until then if the person want to stay where they are.. Then thats their matter.. We cant do nothing.. But to respect the decision.

Debunking Matrix – Never a Biblical Movie

Debunking Matrix – Never a Biblical Movie

The MATRIX idea is not biblical..

I will tell you why:

Christianity makes use of many stories and ideas which have been part of human culture and secular traditions for many years. And for a long time, many Christian leaders do create sermons out of their own minds and created fables to make a standard of being intelligently knowledgeable without knowing or without reading the facts, history or source of the origin of the bible, or at least knowing the status of its source. Many times, because they are leaders of a certain flock, church, organisation or institutions, we mostly regard them as our eldest siblings or teachers or sometimes idolise them.  Many of the sermons we hear may actually be sedative to infuse in our minds and in our hearts. And these sermons, although we find out later on that they are wrong, we mostly are compromising because they have become our friends…But that should not be an excuse. We all are here to learn from each other, right?

My intention is not to destroy but to raise some insight and maybe a bit of push so you also can read your bible and even to make a research for yourself.

Many entertainment movies nowadays just ride along, and for your sake you can also be deceived because it looks cool, or either it is very cozy to spend time with friends having “common” belief because actually “there is nothing wrong in watching the film coz we sometimes think it is” biblical” thinking that it has a Biblical title. Mostly, why would “pastor makes a sermon out oof it” he sounded so wise.. So we think “it will be fine” Or maybe its time to read some history again. or maybe, let us start reading the scriptures carefully… 🤣 What do you think?

Now, talking about the Favorite of many! MATRIX The film contains numerous allusions to philosophical and religious ideas, including existentialism, Marxism, feminism, Buddhism, nihilism, and postmodernism.While some critics have praised the film for its handling of difficult subjects, others characterize the film’s themes as being largely overshadowed by its action scenes. (karate? Teakwondo? Judo?  Jackie Chan(he was actually more funnier) Hmm very large!)

“Hints..

Rene Descartes = french philosopher and mathematician. 17th century – philosophical questions * intellectual autonomy and that the experiences did not always match reality.

Written in his book : MEDITATIONS ON FIRST PHILOSOPHY “

Matrix movie: Neo discovers that what we all think is the real world is actually an illusion, a virtual reality created by artificial intelligence that has conquered the human race and turned it into an energy source for machines.

Yeshua never taught that the world we live and suffer in is fake; Yeshua never taught us to think all is illusion. Yeshua came to confirm that the heavenly realm or the unseen world can be impacted by the restoration of his offering to restore the spiritual relationship between God and mankind. he came to save people from sin and pain, not to claim that sin and pain aren’t real. If there’s a Buddhist-Christian connection here, it’s tenuous.

One thing..

The red and blue pill may also represent the red and blue lodges of Freemasonry, the Blue Lodge being of the first three degrees which are technically the only true Masonic degrees, and the Red Lodge being the extra degrees such as is found in Scottish Rite or York Rite Masonry.

Exodus: Gods and the Kings: transforming Moses into a terrorist-type character rather than God’s prophet, and was generally regarded to have departed from scripture altogether.

Noah:Noah’s sons weren’t without wives on the ark. In Aronofsky’s fanciful version, only one of Noah’s sons, Shem, has a wife (played by Emma Watson)—and she ends up pregnant with twin girls who, we assume, will eventually become wives for Noah’s other two sons. Huh? In the Genesis account, God tells Noah: “You shall enter the ark—you and your sons and your wife, and your sons’ wives with you” (Gen. 6:18).

The Shack: When the man arrives at the shack, Mack meets the three divine Persons of the Trinity in the forms of a black woman (the Father, “Papa”), a Jewish man (the Son, Jesus), and an Asian woman (the Holy Spirit, whose name “Sarayu” is a Sanskrit word that means “wind”).

What should we say about this representation of the God? First, Yeshua taught His disciples to refer to the Almighty as “Our Father” (Matthew 6:9). Yet, the Father is not human and does not have a human sex or gender.  God in a simple way have to show himself in a form where we can understand. For instance, Jacob wrestled with an angel,  or a donkey that speaks, a whale that took Jonah to his right place. These are the ways of God to show us a simple message that we can easily understand but He himself will not show his face. (referring to Moses up the mountain and Moses saw only the back of God) thus God is omnipotent and can express himself in the manners that we can perceive Him.

Remember we are finite-we have a calculation of living one earth – we are born at certain time and we die  (hopefully like Avraham).  God is INFINTE-immeasureable or endless, never-ending (same same forever)

The Bible clearly teaches that God’s image is reflected by male and female alike (Genesis 1:27) and that His children come “from every nation, from all tribes and peoples and languages” (Revelation 7:9, ESV).

conclusions

When a certain film covers up a bible verse or a quotation from Our Ancient teachers like Moses and Jesus, does not mean it is reliable or it does not also means it is pure and clean and edible for the soul to chew. We have to dig deep the truth coz we as believers and students of Yeshua are easily ensnared by the tales and fables of the human entertainment. Many can claim that some films are biblically based yet whenever a film does not confirm its full purpose, it is a lie. There are films that are indeed true to its message, and when you find them they consists of moral teachings without mixture of other religious activities, symbols and rituals.  Aside from films that are clear to their message like movies that mocks the believers, it is very certain among our brethrens that we are filled with ignorance most of the time. Because many of the films created, as long it is titled with biblical theme, for some it is very tempting and seductive to watch that even the whole congregation sermon can be a marketing stage and recommendations that they can be watched. Personally, I watch movies rarely, i usually look at documentaries or history related films, or sometimes watch some children movies but allows my children to recognise which is right and wrong information. Mostly, we notice the wrong things whenever we read and are well informed of our history or by searching the facts biblically. But, it may differ from different sources. I sually read articles from certified historians.

Proverbs 2:6 For the LORD gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.

  There is a scripture that writes : Psa 101:3  I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes: I hate the work of them that turn aside; it shall not cleave to me. 

Speaking of movies, I am very supportive on reality based movies. There are lots of them where you can see how a person was changed through time and how faith had inspired and motivated them to be a whole new creation.  It takes an observant to question a movie wether it is legitimate to use or even laid on by the eyes. So it is your decision of course to see what you like, but it is for you to know what is legible and if you see the truth of course you have the responsibility to also warn others.

I do not write these to become overly reactive but to give you an insight to also become aware of what you see and hear from others. You must always test the things you hear by finding them in the scriptures never forgetting where it all began or whom and which nation and tribe it all started.

Beware! Such thing can draw us into idolatry. Worse it can be a strange service.

Much Love

Rochelle