Experience God

Experience God

Sometimes, we base things by feelings, we base moments and events according to how good we feel and we are merely attached to it in those days when we don’t feel nothing at all.

But how do we truly experience God? Is it just by the good times? is it by miracles alone? is it by the overnatural things that we have seen and heard? Or is it by the events that were attached to us with emotions?

What if, all these years we have been seeking to experience God through supernatural events that we once felt and the most thing we think is that, God had left us because we do noit experience Him anymore? Because basically, we do not feel anything..at all..

The truth is, our emotions are very tricky. Sometimes, we are so overwhelmed on things that happens to us especially when it is extraordinary. I can tell that according to experience. I usually think God was far away because I had nothing to base a new experience with Him. Truth was, I am experiencing Him daily in my every day life. In small decisions, He is there. In every path I choose, He is there. In every people I meet, He is there. His presence is everywhere I go. There are big signs of His presence everywhere that sometimes we take for granted. The sudden blessings that comes, the unexpected meeting with people, the unexpected talk and the exchange of conversations that we had with people on the road. How did we perform? How did we show ourselves as representatives of the Master we belong to?

I learned by experience, God is in all of those things I do. Wether I am at my own home or at work or in the way.

The way we view life optimistically despite of trials is also the way we experience God. Because we know that we are learning new things.. To become better every day. You will look back in 5 years from now. You will see alot of challenges you thought you never would have been able to succeed. One day you will stand there in awe of God remembering that those were the times you truly experienced God.

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What Matters the Most

I have thoughts about how others would respond when I do things that are inappropriate for them. I used to adjust myself on others opinions. Sometimes it works, sometimes it fails. But in the end, I have to pursue what I think is good even if I am uncomfortable with it. – Rochelle

There have been many issues is my life that I thought I couldn’t survive, some of the event had left a trace in my heart and bad thoughts in my memories. I can’t even imagine how I made it through or how I found the strength to put my feet back on track. There were times when I failed, people had judged me according to their measurements. It was easy for others to speak so much about how a person would get by life’s struggle but were not available to give a helping hand. It was easy to put themselves into the seat of a judge without balancing their judgement. It was corrupt. And it had left me flashes of pain.

I lived in an undesirable environment with people that has to tell me how to do things rathan teach me how to walk it. I lived with the thoughts “what they say matters in here”. But as life goes on, the four walls of my closed doors speaks the truth of who I am. It screams the need of change and the unstability reveals the weakness – a need of a true guidance.., -without self-deceit from others. The walls were the witness of myself, Incomplete, broken and easily swayed away. Was it because I thought I couldn’t do any thing at all? Or was it because I thought that they are the only right that I knew of? Either way, what they had said and what they told me… Did not Matter in the end-

I have noticed that nothing of these things matters because behind closed doors, I was alone when I cried and hit my heart many times because the pain consumed me. I was alone when I fought and God was my hiding place and strength to move on. It was not the religious affirmations that contributed to my well-being. Only the study of Torah!

Whatever they spoke and said, did not contribute a spot of strength but a huge of fear and incomplexity in me. Every step I took made me feel afraid of what others have to say, Every thing that I speak must adjust on what others feel. Not that I have to be disrespectful, but mostly I wanted to speak things as they are – without any hidden information. But that is also unacceptable to others.

Over the years, I struggled alone with the fight inside. I heard different opinions from each side and those words made me feel worried and worse. Thats when depression comes, you loose the interest and there is no sense of value in life. People would think I am strange because I sometimes have the feeling to wanting have friends but actually not wanting so much contact, wanting to meet people but not liking too much socializing. We are unaware sometimes that as we speak, our words can contribute either to build up or to destroy others – spiritually.. But as for me, I have learned to navigate myself through different circumstances. I have learned where to lay my eyes on and where to focus my ears and where to walk my feet. And it is amazing to find your strength not by physical upbeat but in your soul.

I tried to find self-esteem in fitness, in sports, in all kinds of creativity and practice to find peace. Instead of stillness, it gaved me the feeling that I need affirmation to know that I do my best. It was actually like using your hurt to get up – which will make you weary from the inside.

I found out that Peace cannot be achieved by self modification but with a motivation to forgive others without any hesitation no matter what or how they caused pain and damage to you. There is a willingness from the inside to create a harmony of stillness in the mind not needing any affirmation through physical activities. I do not say that Physical creativity is not useful – it is! The thing is that, it cannot contribute to peace if it is only a cover-up to build self-esteem. Most of the Mind problems cannot be solved from the outer core of our bodies – merely a full restoration from the inside. True peace is like, you will not need any affirmation from many people to talk around you on what and how to do. It is a built-in confidence you know? If you lost that, Maybe it is enough with few trustworthy friends to have a conversation regarding your weakness and strength. And from that point, it is up to you wether you will use your strength to invest in time forgiving others and a sense of acceptance on what had happened in your life. Just take time, You know things don’t change in a day. So One special thing to remember is, BE PATIENT! BE HOPEFUL AND HAVE FAITH! LEARN TO WAIT, And WORK UNDERPRESSURE!

The most interesting part for me is, I have been involved in many different beliefs and religious activities, yet none of them can fill the emptiness I had inside. So I stopped being religiously connected or I mean, I stopped being a church attendant (not that I forbid others to do so but if you want peace, you should know yourself first before interacting with so many people). I took my faith as a life. I lived it everyday. I joined people whom are studying the faith, searching for possibilities to change their course of life to become better and contribute to become a law-abiding citizen. It was actually different to read at home, meeting people with same faith, having a deep conversation about spirituality. Deep in the conversations and readings, I found that King Solomon has a lot of counsel towards people who have never yet found their understanding of life. A book to consider about growing in faith, wisdom and navigation to life pointing towards God.

I stopped listening to people whom are filled with envy and filled with so much talk about others. I stopped spending time with people who do not have any motivation of change at all. I stopped making friends with people whom are time consumers instead, I gained friends whom are filled with creativity, Faith involvement and Life changing stories. People whom are trying their best to become a better person each day. Making a good influence on others. One thing I did not stop is –— SMILING, being HAPPY and Adventourous in life..
After all! The Journey continues!

The Departure

Bye Bye! The Past is BEHIND! If you remind me, I dont Mind!


Do you recognise yourself as part of the children of God?
Departure from circumstances is never easy, especially when you get comfortable with thw situations you are in. No matter how much wrong you knew it was, still it would bother hou a bit to leave that circumstances to face a new challenge and to face the unknowable future. Although you might know that freedom awaits you on the other side, all the experiences you have performed this years had become an instilled learning for you. It becomes important. But as God leads you and want to pluck you out because He have seen your hardships amd He have heard the prayers.. The time has come He sends a messenger, He raises up someone to lead and to teach.. Thats when the comfort zone you got used to becomes a new challenge. Thats when Moshe came. To lead and set free his people from Egypt. Thats when Yeshua had become the new Adam to redeem us from Slavery.

As the Israelites were led by Moshe Rabbenu, they were leaving Egypt..with haste they carried a dough unleavened and with all their families and possessions as they run away from enemy.
They were set to freedom yet the enemy is behind chasing them. As they survived the departure from slavery, they face circumstances in the wilderness.. Not for a thought you would focus only on the miracles of the cloud and in the day and fire in the night. But to think how God provided in 40years and how God brought them to Kenan. Those things happens in the mountains and how God disciplined the children He loves.
So He sees you.

As Yeshua entered the world, so was Moshe Rabbenu. There was no special treatment in his arrival. Yet the purpose of his entrance to the world is to redeem us from slavery of sin. Not just that we had performed them but because God wants to uproot us from the sin instilled in us from the very beginning. Remember this day for the Lord says, this is the day you shall perform a festival for me. For with the strong hand I carried you, with a Mighty hand I rescued you.
With Wonders I showed you the blood of the river.
With visions I led you with my Spirit to win wars over the Kings that stood against your ways. . And with Signs I looked after  you with Clouds in the day and fire in the night
All of this God performed in the eyes of our forefathers… Remember
How the day of Yeshua was. A picture of Moshe was instilled in Yeshua, A redeemer, the pesach sacrifice and the messias that restored our lives to God.

Remember who you are now! That is your identity! People might remind you of you were! but that is the only thing they knew and see about you! The have not witness the process of your change. The have not seen the steps you took towards transformations. The decisions that took place and the strength you found to LIVE BEYOND THE NORM!
GOD IS WITH YOU if YOU ARE WITH HIM!

Passover Meaning

Passover Meaning

Today marks the evening. The beginning of Passover. The NIGHT The Lord ordered Israel to eat the Passover lamb. Same night the Lord passed throughout Egypt to see the blood marks on the doorsposts and took the Egyptians firstborn.

This marks that Yeshua our Messiah has been prepared while the temple prepares its passover Lamb. That same night Yeshua was given over to the hands of evil to redeem the world and reconcile towards God.

Same night when the Messiah took a meal with his Talmidim(disciples) to speak of what will happen afterwards. It was not the questions of why one would betray him, it was somehow a preparation that a sacrifice must be done despite of relationship with the person whom he had taught all those years.He knew the time drew near and what matters is that the disciple himself would also fulfill his purpose of what God had set him to so that Yeshua would come to the peak of his father’s greatness.

Day AFTER THE PASSOVER was the FREEDOM. it was the freedom from SLAVERY in EGYPT. The day when God freed the Israelites from the hands of ruthless masters. A day when the years of suffering ended.

Day after the PASSOVER was the day when all the comfort zone is to be left. When all that we thibk were okay and right has to be exposed wrong. As we thought that living under a difficult circumstances can also give comfort, this time after the Passover, we will be led to understand Gods leadership. Not to be controlled anymore by ruthlessl masters but to be brought into the promised Land.

The day after the Passover, Yeshua was hanged on a stake. Both his followers and students scattered in confusion and heartbreak. But as the evening approached.. It was the beginning of the FREEDOM OF MANKIND FROM SIN. Given Free from heaven.

Let us remember this day…
Yeshua is ALIVE!

Surrender

We are tempted to think that the more powerful we become, the better we will battle sin. But the exact opposite is true. The more power, influence, or prestige we possess, the more temptable we are. The strength of sin feeds on our sense of strength. This is why we are warned that “pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall” (Proverbs 16:18). In weakness, we feel our need for God, but when we are strong, we lack that saving sobriety. We lost the need of God and mostly in strength we tend to think THINGS ARE UNDER CONTROL..but it is not so. THEREFORE learning to surrender towards God is needed the most…then we will know how to respect a sovereign power over us. An authority to lead us and not to control us.
-wisdom

Live Life far from Media

Live Life far from Media

Most people who do not feel good on the inside are more concerned with Facebook status than those who actually have a good life. Facebook or social media became an attention disorder for some.

In one or as soon as 5 minutes you become a celebrity.
However, it is good attention for entrepreneurs, vendors, institutions, sports and artists around the world. And that there is room to share their faith, thoughts and too much of their life.
Be careful when betting out your private life in the social. Imagine that there is reality outside the screen. Life is short, every hour is golden, so spend time with your families, friends, acquaintances and make no impression on people you do not like at all. Do not impress even those people that tries to intimidate you. Live the life as it is your rewards on earth while you breathe.

Keep in mind that we humans have no security for tomorrow.

Today or later or tomorrow we either wake up or die. What we do by the time is very important.

Slow down with social media, surfing, youtube and other things that are really useless for our soul and body

For the faithful, read more, pray for more, transform yourselves into an influencing tool with a good sense of will and power from above. Be the light of the world. Be more kinder, be more forgiving, appreciate more the trails of life. Be less in complaints and be more thankful. Do not impose too much of your own impression on others but live the faith accordingly to the instructions of the Torah. Be not fanatic, but be a believer. A belief that is Alive.

For most people, seek the truth about life, forgive, laugh and love people more than hate.

God is good who gives life to each and everyone.


De flesta som inte mår bra på insidan är mer oroade över Facebook-status än de som faktiskt har ett bra liv. Facebook eller sociala medier blev en uppmärksamhetssyndrom för vissa.

På en eller så fort som 5 minuter blir du kändis.
Det är dock bra uppmärksamhet för entreprenörer, försäljare, institutioner, sport och konstnärer runt om i världen. Och att det finns utrymme för att dela sin tro, tankar och för mycket av sitt liv.

Var försiktig när du delar ditt privatliv i det sociala. Tänk dig att det finns verklighet utanför skärmen.

Livet är kort, varje timme är guld, så spendera tid med dina familjer, vänner, bekanta och ge inget intryck på personer som du inte alls gillar. Imponera inte även de människor som försöker skrämma dig eller göra dig svartsjuk.

Lev livet, för det är dina belöningar på jorden medan du andas.

Tänk på att vi människor inte har säkerheten för imorgon.

Idag eller senare eller imorgon vaknar vi eller dör. Det vi gör vid tiden är väldigt viktigt.

Sakta ner med sociala medier, surfing, youtube och andra saker som är egentligen onyttig för vår själ och kropp.

För de troende, läs mer, be för mer, omvandla dig till ett påverkande verktyg med en god känsla av vilja och makt ovanifrån. Var världens ljus. Var mer förståelse, var mer förlåtande, uppskatta mer livets utmaningar. Var mindre i klagomål och var mer tacksam. Tryck inte för mycket av ditt eget intryck på andra, men leva din tro i enlighet med Torahs anvisningar. Var inte fanatisk, men var en troende. En tro som är Levande

För de flesta, sök sanning om livet, förlåta, skratta och älska människor mer än att hata.

Gud är gid som ger livet åt en och alla.

The day of Birth

The day of Birth

It is funny to be greeted by friends “Happy Birthday” remembering only the day I was born by the date and year and time. I myself consume my mind on remembering the day my mother had the hours of difficulty. The time where she had the labour just to bring me out of the womb.

Of course I am thankful and grateful of all the greetings.. I judt have to pay attention that the day I was born.. It was my mother who gave birth to me. =birth day.. 😂😂

It must be painful for her at that time to struggle thinking just to survive the birthing of a small little child. And that moment, she must have forgotten all the worries she carry out day by day.

I wish people would remember her more than I. I wish people would think of her again as every year passes by how she had survived those very first moments just to give me the chance to live and experience life.

I was a history of abortion. In the middle of my mother’s pregnancy she probably had stopped doing what she planned to do do against the life inside her womb. I was born with a left blind eye. I experienced the bullies and humiliating events from people who did not know the story of my appearance. I experienced a difficult childhood. From her hands, i know how to feel the pain and the violence of every mistakes that I have made. I shed the tears by hearing how unlucky she was because of me. Through my teenage years, I kept the pain as if they were a part of me. It wasnt easy. All the scars would speak of the memories that I kept in silence. Yet I am happy she was still mother.

Those years have made me realise how fragile she was because it was the only right thing she knew to raise me. It was the memories of her upbringing that she thought was right to transmit and apply as a guideline to discipline. At times I honestly shed my tears with anger. I had resentment and I blew all the blame on her. I misunderstood her and even myself. But now, I reached the stage of wisdom through the years.

I became 33. And I am so thankful for all the things that happened.

Today is the day when my mother took me out of the world.. then I see… Half….
Today was the day when God decided then how I would look like, how I would see the world, how my heart would beat and how my life would be formed through the journey..
Today was the day when God set the people before me, to meet, to keep, to love, to loose, to hold and to cherish..
Today is not about party, not about cake or fancy gifts. Its about saying

THANK YOU GOD I SURVIVED ANOTHER YEAR WITH THIS CRUCIAL LIFE..!! THANK YOU GOD YOU’VE MOLDED ME DAILY BY TEACHING ME THINGS IN LIFE. FOR KEEPING YOUR HANDS AT HOLD EVEN WHEN I’M OUT SIGHT, FOR KEEPING ME SAFE EVEN WHEN YOU KNOW I AM A HARD HEADED CHILD..

To the One Above.. Im grateful living this life… 😌

Being a Victim

Being a Victim

We mostly get tired of people whom are victims of abuse. And in our terms, our wish is that they would be set free. We do our best to take them out if it. Yet often we see then returning.

Of course we get distracted and disappointed because we dont understand what is happening in their minds. We think sometimes that our efforts were neglected and that our relationship with them somehow starts to be out of hand. Until the day, we want to give up forgetting that once we had the days when we also were victims.

We must understand it is a difficult situation for that person and it is a personal attachment. The only thing u can do is to allow the person see the wrong thing in the event. Although you have given your advice it is still very difficult for the person to be influenced by your thoughts because the person itself face the fear and has very low self esteem. You must remember that the abuser had stolen their identity and trampled their lives. In that manner the abuser was using its power to make use of the victims positive mind from the beginning. I believe that the abuser itself is a broken soul and it feeds to break another to feel a little better. To damp the brokenness inside. we must never forget to understand those who are in weak situations and we shall not look down on them i was once a victim and it took me so long before i got out if it. I was looked down by people who think that i get returning back to the abuser but the thing is, i wasn’t strong enough because the people that tried to pull me out of it are the ones who speaks about mistakes. Points out how i shall be and how i should think. It created confusion in me because I didnt know what to think for myself and the hopelessness grew… One day there was a person who found my strength by suggesting ne solutions and that friend never imposed aby ideas but stayed with me and told me. “You are strong enough” “do you think this things happening to you arecorrect?” “i will always listen to you sentiments until you get free from it because I am hoping you soon be free”
These were always her words whenever she got tired of my repetitive conversation. Until the day i stood for victory.

The idea of hurting others indeed comes from the inner source of the soul in hebrew called ‘jetser hara’ – long for evil. It is in the inner part of the soul connecting from the sinful nature of man. Yet the idea of doing good is the longing for good – jetser ha tov in hebrew.
These has been implanted in our soul therefore many of us either become aware of being abused or not aware of abusive behaviour.

Each of us.. No one can deny that even though we are born again has sometimes the attitude of abuse. Which in term of Paul, we can always discipline ourselves to not obey the jetser hara.

Please have kindness at heart and an understanding attitude towards the person you are facibg difficulties. We might not know what we say might lift then up or might bring them down. ❤️😘 I speak according to my experience.
Yeshua always look upon the broken hearted and has a contrite spirit. A broken soul is the one who needs guidance and has a restless mind. A contrite spirit has the sleepless thoughts and worries, an anxiety of the heart caused by other people who are abusing them and using them for their own benefits.

Yeshua had cared for these people and showed meekness and kindness to them. He was not exempted even to the humiliating events that we also experience in life. That is why He said,

I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty
John 6:35

Take it as an example.
Until then if the person want to stay where they are.. Then thats their matter.. We cant do nothing.. But to respect the decision.

Piece of Thought

Piece of Thought

Last year was full of disappointments, sorrows, tears, striving, wondering, expectation, pain, evil gaze, and wrong accusations.

In addition, it was full of new steps, new decisions and not letting the emotions take me. I realized in my difficult times that there are no genuine people. Even those who believe they are 100% righteous. Some people are quick to judge in advance before they know what has happened in one’s life. Adversity that not everyone was told during some time of struggles.

Certainly you can have friends, but when the time comes when the friendship is proven then you know that some can hang you up in the air. I am against religions and organizations hiding behind facades and living in others’ livelihoods. Such fanatics who want you to do only according to their own conclusions and own decisions. Those who talk a lot but were not present in weaknesses. I have learned that one should not tell too much about their private matters to others who pretend to be believers. Because it can be used as a weapon against one.
Have learned a lot that it is testing your faith when challenges arise. It tests your qualities and relationships with fellow human beings but on the other hand you are grounded to become another better person. Nice to avoid fake people and people who have seen me as a sinner, prostitute and those who say I am in need of attention. You divert people from the truth. Hypocrisy is great.
This year is ONE BIG BLESS for me and my family .. For this year I have the BEST TIME of FREEDOM. And this year was the PEACEFUL YEAR GOD HAD LED ME TO. AND God gets all the glory. May you be blessed. Thank you.


Förra året var full av besvikelser, sorg, tårar, strävan, förundran, förväntningar, smärta, onda blick och fel anklagelser. Dessutom det var fylld av nya steg, nya beslut och att inte låta känslorna inta mig. Jag insåg i mina svåra tider att det finns inga äkta människor. Även de som tro sig vara hundraprocent rättfärdiga. Vissa människor är snabba att döma i förväg innan de får veta vad som hänt i ens liv. Motgångar som inte alla fick höra under svpra tider. Visst man kan ha vänner men när tiden är inne då prövas vänskapen då vet man att vissa kan hänga upp dig i luften. Jag är emot religioner och organisationer som gömmer sig bakom fasader och lever i andras levebröd. Sådana fanatiker som vill att man ska bara göra enligt deras egna slutsatser och egna beslut. Sådana som pratar mycket men fanns inte i svagheter. Jag har lärt mig att man ska inte berätta för mycket om sina privata ärenden till andra som låtsas vara troende folk. För det kan användas som ett vapen emot en.
Har lärt en hel del att det prövar din tro när utmaningar uppstår. Det prövar dina egenskaper och förhållanden gentemot medmänniskor men däremot du blir slipad för att bli ännu en bättre människa. Skönt att slippa falska människor och folk som sett mig som en syndare, prostituerade och de som talar att jag är i behov av uppmärksamhet. Ni avleder människor ifrån sanningen. Hyckleri är stort.
Den här året är ETT STORT VÄLSIGNELSER för mig och min familj.. För den här året har jag FRIDENS BÄSTA TID. Och den här året var det fridfulla året GUD LEDT MIG till.OCH Gud får all ära. Må ni vara välsignad. Tack för mig.

Envy, you’ve been chasing Humanity!

Envy, you’ve been chasing Humanity!

I have also learned why people work so hard to succeed: it is because they envy the things their neighbors have. But it is useless. It is like chasing the wind. – King Solomon

People would envy others in their prosperity and so much that some would even parade themselves better than anyone. In their lives they work hard, they strive hard not because they love what they do. They work hard, strive hard because they want to impress people they don’t like. Show off to people they hated and brag to people that looked down on them..they suffer to become something but nit enjoying its result. Because from the beginning, the motivation they say to themselves was : “I WILL SHOW THEM WHAT I WILL BECOME, And I will prove myself to them” and after all is done, all comes to nothing, all becomes ashes after one. All the things they envied and worked hard to get meant nothing after all, because the heart was not in it and only the motivation of impression was there. And all the things became meaningless because there was no satisfaction and enjoyment in what they have achieved.

In all the achievement they get, the more sorrowful and depressed they become. For they have not seen the meaning of life and the joy in doing things with a merry heart. Their successive days were spent in agony of chasing after others attention

They chase success not for their heirs, but for their enemies whom which do not care. And their heirs would receive their part without care for it was not built for them.

Spare yourselves from this attitude and get rid of your own pride.

I would like to give you a simple piece of word. To first forgive those who harmed you and ask forgiveness to those you’ve harmed. Then seek a good thing that you want to do and put all your heart in it. Do it for your sake and for your beloved ones. You dont need to impress yourself to others and you dont need to show off that you are getting better. You dont need to be confirmed that you are doing the best. But do all your best to satisfy yourself and create a good integrity among your family and surrounding. You can do things with all your hope and belief without others watching you. But let all be done with a merry heart in the sight of God. Get rid of envy, for it is like a cancer to mind. The more succeed you become, the more gentle and giving you shall be. The more known and infuencial you are, the more open and down to earth you shall be. Dont assume you know it all. For remember, all will be ashes in time amd your hardwork will meant nothing. Dont spend your life in envy and bitterness.

Be Godly and decent. .
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WHO is ABLE?!

WHO is ABLE?!

Who can wear your shoes and understand it?
Who can listen to your story and tell it?
Who can wear your shoes and dare to judge you?
Who can able to hear you cry and dare to wipe your tears
Who can understand you and patiently lead you in life?
Who can teach you a lesson without killing you inside?
Who can speak with you without intimidation
Who can allow you to grow without setting a hindrance?
Who can stand for your integrity without partiality
Who can give you strength in weakness
Who can love you without hidden mask
Who can show you wonderful things without a pay
Who would help you without blowing a trumpet

O yes, when we look at mankind, our own image and alike!
No one would dare to take a stand
And yet promises are spoken to become a helping hand
The sudden times expose that there’s no one
And at your failures you face the test
So many measures at your mistakes
And at your weakness you have no friends
One by one they see you as a pest
Maybe God had punished her in the end
All the empty words fly like withered leaves
Yet the wind carries the whispers through the chills
And the lips will never stop hurting
As the eyes will never stop judging
Still in the image of divinity there’s a propaganda
You will know WHO you shall turn yourself into.

And Who is like God? Who is like Hashem?
The One Who loves with pure intentions
The One who sees your purpose
The One whom you can depend on
The One who wont desert you
The One who understands
The One who forgives
The One who knows your limitations
The One who nurtures your growth
The One who restores you
The One who leads you into The right way
The One who teaches you in your misconceptions
The One who heals you in brokenness
The One who fills you in Hopelessness
The One who assures you have a friend
The One who opens the gates in your return
The One who gives peace under the storm
The One who feeds in hunger
The One who pours water in thirst
The One who shows wonders and signs
The One who helps with a mighty hand
The One who redeem a lost heart
The One who sends a saviour to never get lost
The One who will always be the FOREVER LIVING GOD

Writer: Karla Rochelle Darang Rosenberg
Emal: oselrimon@gmail.com

You can change if you want to!

You can change if you want to!

In the presence of dismay and disappointment, there is no room for logic. Every good things is not in mind and the innocence of hope is replaced by fear, anger and frustration. But where do I begin?

Have you ever been into situations where you were lost? I have. Except from sexual abuse, I had a difficult childhood which caused traumatic stress disorder. Maybe i felt more confused than lost in some situations. Yet lost in feelings and emotions. As a grown up I was labelled liar, prostitute, garbage, stupid, fool, ugly, not intelligent. And in my adulthood, I was called adulterous, attention seeking, power hunger and many more. I find it hard to have so much stamps over yourself and however you want yourself to change, to others it won’t matter. Bullies and degrading treatment are not over by childhood years, the worst bullies are adults. But I take this a challenging times. And I encourage others who goes the same thing to be strong and never give up.

How shall I divert the thoughts of disappointment and the feelings of dismay into the position of positivity? I asked for help in times of insanity and frustration as I turned myself towards those I looked up to..the “church people” and yet time and again the answer was ” we will pray for you”. There was no offer of getting me out of the clouds that wrapped me up in a rollercoaster ride. In the end, that’s when I realised, it’s the psychologists job to do. Which in fact a church elder shall have as a position to help a person depressed. Or suicidal.

And I turned towards people that I trusted, I waited for a hand to raise me up yet the answer I received was stunning. I became the traitor and a liar.

I realised that all of us are quick on judgements upon others situation. Sometimes even if it is dear to us, we usually push them away whenever we see them do wrong, sometimes we don’t have a good manner on how to guide a lost person into the right path. We mostly make a quick decision when we hear things about others, forgetting that once we were in that position and we were in need of help. Now when we had the power to guide others, we mostly think it’s right to instruct the rules and apply it upon them rather than show them how they shall do and take their hand and take them out of the ditch. Generally, people usually push another person deeper into the ditch rather than take them out. We forget to weigh judgements. And we work as prosecutors over others. Isn’t it irony, we hear it preached on the pulpit, spoken on the lectures, and written on literatures that we shall have patience and understanding towards others, that we shall be open in our hearings to execute right judgements, and yet we mostly do the reverse. And depression is such a horrible place to be caused by different situations that has never been cleared out in a person’s life. Either physical abuse, emotional or verbal.

Being alone in the fight, I had to struggle by myself. And to divert the connections about a certain person to a certain event to certain emotion, I have to learn to give up the contact and accept the fact that the event already occurred and cannot be replayed again. I had to learn the process in daily life by forgiving and releasing myself from the connection with the people that hurt me and. I had to learn to forgive myself about certain events that connect to the painful memories that causes a strong emotional distress and a repetition of flashbacks that delays my healing process. I had to renew my mind by giving up on seeing myself as a victim because nothing happens for a reason and it does not happen because I deserved it, rather things happens because we all are humans who fails to do the right thing and we mostly fulfil the lusts of our bodies in different forms like embarrassing others, killing, gossip, abuse and others.

I learned this year’s that it does not matter what others says about me. Because I live the life I walk and I do my best to make things right. I don’t need to reaffirm myself whenever others remind me of my past, because I know that their purpose of reminding is to make me return to that certain event that would make me feel anxious which will cause me undefensive and frustrated. I am certain that people that surrounds us who knew us from the past can never be ignored but I also know that although they had been your friends, you shall never give them a key to hurt you or use your emotions to beat you.

The past had been done, and if by some reasons you have done wrong and committed mistakes, who else did not? And if by some situations you had committed huge failures, who else did not? This is the tragic of life and I or we have to accept that the past belongs there and that we don’t need to reaffirm ourselves from certain people, events or emotions that was attached to it. Learn to forgive and Let go. Forgiving does not mean forgetting, to forgive is to set yourself free from the certain events and people that causes your emotions to be distorted. It is giving you a passage to make change because of the event and making you strong enough to face a better future. Claim your joy by renewing your mind through new thoughts everyday. It might be hard in the beginning but once you train yourself to imagine your good future, you will be able to control your body and emotions to affirm about what’s ahead of you. And you will see that the past indeed will stay behind and it will never have power over you anymore.

Believe without seeing and have hope in believing.

Always be thankful before sleeping and even when you wake up. Look forward not backwards.

Love YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF!

Love YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF!

How shall we love others as ourselves?

What does BODY OF CHRIST MEANS AMD WHAT IS THE DEFINITION OF FAMILY?

When one of them sins, he harms himself as well as harming the portion of himself that resides in the other, since he is connected to his part that is contained within his fellow. They are related to each other.

Thus it is appropriate for a person to seek the benefit of one’s fellow, showing him generosity of spirit. He should consider his dignity as dear to him as his own, for they are literally a single entity. Because of this we are commanded, “and you will love your fellow as yourself.”

It is fitting that a person supports the fundamental goodness of another and not speak evil of him at all.  One should not wish for anything that is inconsistent with what God desires for that person, neither his disgrace nor his suffering, for they are related to God.  A person should not wish to see another’s downfall, nor suffering, nor any harm at all, and view the situation of as if he himself were immersed in the same suffering, or exalting in the same good fortune.