Birthpangs are not too long

Birthpangs are not too long

When I look at the birthpangs beginnings.. I guess that we all are tested to where we lay our trust and hope. I am reminded of my laboring days when I was pregnant around 8th months and I was struggling with the weight of my stomach, excitement of seeing my child and at the same time hard to breath because of the movement of the baby inside. I had some pain in between that I have to be patient from which affects my daily routine. I become limited in movement and my surrounding became much more hard to understand. As the 9th month arrived, I felt so close to the edge. I became scared, what if i can’t give birth normally? and I also have to discipline myself as well about dietary factors.

The day arrived of giving birth and I finally felt the pain became more intensive and much more unbearable at the moment. I screamed within me that I just want the baby out! At the same time, when I imagined my attitude towards the people that ussrounded me at that moment, I cant comprehend how did they cope up with me. My attitude under pressure was harsh, unbearable and unrespectful.

I believe in our times, we are same as the woman in labor. Our attitude are untamed due to the pain and sufferings we see, hear and experience. Yet it is very interesting to know that we are still hopeful of giving birth of a new creation, a new individual that would contribute something in the near future.

I have experienced hunger and small difficulties. A disaster of an earthquake in Philippines I have witnessed.

Now when I see and how sickness hovers the nation and takes lives. I am not afraid. Maybe I am just a bit worried of what my children would eat for a day.

I have dreamt of a passing angel soaring with slight of pain for the earth.
We are tested in our hearts if we will be worried and afraid. For this is the nature of the earth for some souls who do not fear Hashem.
We as believers has high hopes and highest praise. We know the birth pangs produces more sufferings and we wont know how long. Rest assure, lay our hearts to not store as much materials but gather our hearts into prayers and Thanksgiving despite of suffering.

The God of Abraham ISak and Yakov knows how human resistance is. We pray for the people who are affected and the nations already taking its pain. We suffer for them as if we are in their situations. May Hashem be merciful and allow the pain to lessen. And if Hashem is angry may He subside and allow His mercy and grace come through.


Do not look through the circumstances of nations now. We pray without fear. We are the warriors of our time in this generation.. Our skills is going to be developed in the beginning of these birthpangs. As Yeshua says, we will hear all this things. Rest assured to not worry and not be afraid. For the end is not yet……
Hashem is with us…
Amein..

Deluded Dreams

Deluded Dreams

I have often thought that all dreams are suitable for each individual that desires it. And often as we go along the journey, we dream higher and more hopeful of the future. Yet we fall into mistakes we didnt intend to do. And all we think generally is….. we’re doomed. So we go around everyday worrying about the mistakes carrying the thought, ” God is angry at me”, “I can’t do this”, “I am not capable of this” and then through time, it became our identity….eventually.

Isnt it too obvious that we became so busy in the beginning focusing on the dreams that we have? Either small or big. When the days pass by and the waves of life takes us wherever it leads, we often stay in daydreaming. Dreams of not having the trials and everything shall be peaceful. It is very obvious that our dreams stayed in oput minds 24 hours a day. And the dreams sometimes makes us isolated and feel uncomfortable of the outside world and that the outside situations makes us annoyed. Because the dreams we have scares us often and we know for sure that it is not normal for others to hear that dream we have. So we keep the dreams inside of us and We shoved away the situations and we try to run from it, we try to avoid the emotions because we dont want to confront the feelings we will feel and then we usually look upon the sky waiting for a rescue. Like a powerful hero who would come down to bring us back to our illusions.

Reality, sometimes we hallucinate that reality are the things we see and feel. We tend to go along the trend of emotions and our bodies live in the presence of our thoughts. But in the presence of honesty, we see the real life that our emotions are in our way hundering us to become a decent person. And almost 70 percent of our thoughts are not suitable even for us to entertain yet they already had the power that made us all feel doomed.

I remember many times when I look at how I am now. And the moment I enjoy the thought of having it good then it reminds me of all the failires that I had been through. I was constantly reminded just in a minute of all the things that I committed with my own conscience, and in that sudden thoughts. I felt disgraceful. Although I knew for several years and times I had already repented with my whole heart still there is a sense of not believing what I have committed for myself. And from time to time I have fallen into mistakes, the feeling of knowing to be forgiven had slowly faded away and it was replaced with anxiousness and layers of guilt that I couldnt make things right. Suddenly, I felt isolated in thoughts and even right where I stood. Why? Yeah, because deep inside of me I know God had forgiven me but still I am stuck in the old days of my life that I am still living in my illusions that God is angry at me and that every mistakes I have done drives me farther from Him.

Illusions, we think that it is an illusion to dream of the things unseen. We drastically think it’s not a good thing to dream and that we often fall into the general trend that we should be logic. That we only have to live by what we see and that dreams are illusions and they shall not be hope for. Isn’t it we are good in standing against our way and we are so good in hindering ourselves from the possible future that has been aimed for us?

Deluded dreams – All of the negative shaping and voices and forms from the outside of our senses are tricks so we could not recognise our possibilities towards the future. The deceiving power of the outside are the ones that can destroy us if we are not observant to where we put our time and efficiency. These deceiving dreams and voices are in different forms – jealousy, anger, bitterness, hatred, criticism characters, rage and selfish ambitions ( Galatians 5 – read ) this are the traits of the outside and we unintentionally are trained through our upbringing and by our environment. Yet, hold it! We can be better than that!!

We are shaped by deluded dreams that we can only reach our BIG DREAMS through the images that we see and feel. I on the other hand, want to leave that space and I want to get my right foot towards the challenges of the unknown and reach the DREAM and make it to reality. If we learn to train our thoughts to use the negative impacts and experiences to become our tools and book of learning, we will be able to become succesful human beings. We can learn to first reverse all the negative traits and turn it into a thankful heart.

I want to encourage you, to believe the UNSEEN

Believe the impossible dream…. by shaping YOUR THOUGHTS. YOU ARE ONE STEP TO THE FUTURE…. By shaping your MIND. YOU ARE LIVING THE FUTURE

So take a step out of this deluded dreams…re arrange yourself and re allign and reconnect To the MYSTERY OF THE ALMIGHTY GOD

Today’s Wonder – Baguio City – April Kickstart Day 1

Praise God for His righteousness and Holiness. HIS Kingdom is as pure and His love endures forever! Praise Jesus for the strength and boldness….

Today was a great day!
I met people and I’ve shared the Gospel to them. Many people in my city are very religious and thought that Jesus is religion. And that they could believe whatever they wanted.
I am amazed by God’s Spirit that guides me, for I have preached radically and spoke that if people then claim they believe in Jesus but still can do what they want, they are liars and deceives themselves. Some young people got scared of what I’ve spoken because I shared them the Holiness and Righteousness of God. But the adversary came to their mind and told me to bid them goodbye. So I left.

There were certain people whom are able to hear, there was a young lady whom have been touched by the Holy Spirit and have been into a Catholic church system. When I spoke to her, I asked, “why do you believe?” And she was quiet. she have never heard the truth of the Gospel and I’ve got the chance to share my witness. She received it and will think about the true meaning of her faith in Jesus.

There was a woman from a Jehovas witness and she was very open to the Gospel and was curious. But she was not able to resist the word I shared because she felt it is true but also bid me goodbye.

Later, I prayed for a woman who had a pain in her bladder, I prayed for her and she got healed.
Another man got healed from a constant pain also.

My little sister arrived and there was a man that God had blessed as we cross the street. The Spirit spoke through this old man. He spoke ” if you know you are right, you don’t have to be afraid! You just have to go and walk straight” and I could discern that the Spirit indeed was guiding  me for I was dismayed after all the rejection that my people in my city could not receive the true Gospel.
Then I asked the man if he has pain. He has a constant pain that also makes him imbalance and would make him fall whenever he would walk up the stairs. So I prayed for him and he explains the pain went and the feeling was lighter. So I told my sister to pray for the man. And he got healed.

My sister by the way couldn’t believe her eyes, although it was her first time to pray and experience the power of God in Jesus name, she doubted. When I was about to speak, the old man came and was in cheerful joy. He said, ” how could this be? I’m healed, and the pain is gone” then I got the chance to share the Gospel and my sister was in awe and speechless.. for me! This is daily life as a disciple..
We thank the Lord for this miracles and wonders..