Posted on April 15, 2020
in my whole life as an adult… I am glad to meet the husband who made me feel I am beautiful even if rarely think about it myself. Im glad he made me feel loved that I forget to post on facebook how much we love each another. I
didnt need the likes to feel good..because he made my house a home and made my heart warm. He made my children feel they have a father and we all felt as if we became whole…
I have noticed from my past posts in the last 12 years… Everyday I use to post something about my activities. I use to post useless commentaries and how obnoxious I was about life and everything. I have never felt loved and I have never felt worthy. Never had a day I had positive thoughts. And although I had relationships, I still felt neglected and alone. The friends I met wasnt real to me. They were just there for some reason I guess that they didnt had any choice. But now, I know that God has been so good to me…
But these 2years, it had changed… My posts became few about myself. I started to minimise the attention and I have learned to protect my familys welfare in social media….Most of all… I didnt care more about problems….because God made me complete…And the people who use to discriminate me and spiritually abused me… I have discovered that they were wearing mmasks all along… SO for the record.. I have to give Applause to GOD in heaven…I am using social media without my privacy being taken away!
Posted on April 11, 2020
I have been in a livestream for while and I have wandered from my blog. But here I am to write something that I have learned this week.
Recently, I have been talking about inspiring others. I have been motivated to spark others and sometimes while seeing them coming up, I felt Im being left. And that emotion had made me feel absurd for some reason and caused me to be suspicious about others thinking they were using me.,
But that is not the case. I have weighed my thoughts for some time and observed the people I assumed were not real. And I have been watching how people react on certain messages I convey, how do they perceive me and how do they look at me? What do they think and what do they know?
I have heard different comments about how I inspired others. And it felt so good that I could do that. Of course not of my own but of God. And it is a pleasure to serve other people through the free platform where I dont need to hire a local to speak. The website is free for Journaling and the Youtube is free for video messaging.
I discovered, that as much as I have earned experiences..the situations I went through were not the same as theirs. But the struggles and pain we felt were all the same. And the sleepless nights had made us all feel suspicious and afraid of others. It wasn’t really the environment that affects us, but our assumptions and fear had made us far ,,,,
So i dedicated myself to inspire others. but the more I inspire, I felt useless. and the more I speak of encouragement, the more I felt weak. I guess its because the message we usually give to others are the message more intently made towards ourselves. When I thought I inspire, I felt it is for myself. So I encourage you to keep moving and insipiring other people. Because you have no idea what life you are changing… You have no idea who you ar einfluencing!