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Debunking Matrix – Never a Biblical Movie

Debunking Matrix – Never a Biblical Movie

The MATRIX idea is not biblical..

I will tell you why:

Christianity makes use of many stories and ideas which have been part of human culture and secular traditions for many years. And for a long time, many Christian leaders do create sermons out of their own minds and created fables to make a standard of being intelligently knowledgeable without knowing or without reading the facts, history or source of the origin of the bible, or at least knowing the status of its source. Many times, because they are leaders of a certain flock, church, organisation or institutions, we mostly regard them as our eldest siblings or teachers or sometimes idolise them.  Many of the sermons we hear may actually be sedative to infuse in our minds and in our hearts. And these sermons, although we find out later on that they are wrong, we mostly are compromising because they have become our friends…But that should not be an excuse. We all are here to learn from each other, right?

My intention is not to destroy but to raise some insight and maybe a bit of push so you also can read your bible and even to make a research for yourself.

Many entertainment movies nowadays just ride along, and for your sake you can also be deceived because it looks cool, or either it is very cozy to spend time with friends having “common” belief because actually “there is nothing wrong in watching the film coz we sometimes think it is” biblical” thinking that it has a Biblical title. Mostly, why would “pastor makes a sermon out oof it” he sounded so wise.. So we think “it will be fine” Or maybe its time to read some history again. or maybe, let us start reading the scriptures carefully… 🤣 What do you think?

Now, talking about the Favorite of many! MATRIX The film contains numerous allusions to philosophical and religious ideas, including existentialism, Marxism, feminism, Buddhism, nihilism, and postmodernism.While some critics have praised the film for its handling of difficult subjects, others characterize the film’s themes as being largely overshadowed by its action scenes. (karate? Teakwondo? Judo?  Jackie Chan(he was actually more funnier) Hmm very large!)

“Hints..

Rene Descartes = french philosopher and mathematician. 17th century – philosophical questions * intellectual autonomy and that the experiences did not always match reality.

Written in his book : MEDITATIONS ON FIRST PHILOSOPHY “

Matrix movie: Neo discovers that what we all think is the real world is actually an illusion, a virtual reality created by artificial intelligence that has conquered the human race and turned it into an energy source for machines.

Yeshua never taught that the world we live and suffer in is fake; Yeshua never taught us to think all is illusion. Yeshua came to confirm that the heavenly realm or the unseen world can be impacted by the restoration of his offering to restore the spiritual relationship between God and mankind. he came to save people from sin and pain, not to claim that sin and pain aren’t real. If there’s a Buddhist-Christian connection here, it’s tenuous.

One thing..

The red and blue pill may also represent the red and blue lodges of Freemasonry, the Blue Lodge being of the first three degrees which are technically the only true Masonic degrees, and the Red Lodge being the extra degrees such as is found in Scottish Rite or York Rite Masonry.

Exodus: Gods and the Kings: transforming Moses into a terrorist-type character rather than God’s prophet, and was generally regarded to have departed from scripture altogether.

Noah:Noah’s sons weren’t without wives on the ark. In Aronofsky’s fanciful version, only one of Noah’s sons, Shem, has a wife (played by Emma Watson)—and she ends up pregnant with twin girls who, we assume, will eventually become wives for Noah’s other two sons. Huh? In the Genesis account, God tells Noah: “You shall enter the ark—you and your sons and your wife, and your sons’ wives with you” (Gen. 6:18).

The Shack: When the man arrives at the shack, Mack meets the three divine Persons of the Trinity in the forms of a black woman (the Father, “Papa”), a Jewish man (the Son, Jesus), and an Asian woman (the Holy Spirit, whose name “Sarayu” is a Sanskrit word that means “wind”).

What should we say about this representation of the God? First, Yeshua taught His disciples to refer to the Almighty as “Our Father” (Matthew 6:9). Yet, the Father is not human and does not have a human sex or gender.  God in a simple way have to show himself in a form where we can understand. For instance, Jacob wrestled with an angel,  or a donkey that speaks, a whale that took Jonah to his right place. These are the ways of God to show us a simple message that we can easily understand but He himself will not show his face. (referring to Moses up the mountain and Moses saw only the back of God) thus God is omnipotent and can express himself in the manners that we can perceive Him.

Remember we are finite-we have a calculation of living one earth – we are born at certain time and we die  (hopefully like Avraham).  God is INFINTE-immeasureable or endless, never-ending (same same forever)

The Bible clearly teaches that God’s image is reflected by male and female alike (Genesis 1:27) and that His children come “from every nation, from all tribes and peoples and languages” (Revelation 7:9, ESV).

conclusions

When a certain film covers up a bible verse or a quotation from Our Ancient teachers like Moses and Jesus, does not mean it is reliable or it does not also means it is pure and clean and edible for the soul to chew. We have to dig deep the truth coz we as believers and students of Yeshua are easily ensnared by the tales and fables of the human entertainment. Many can claim that some films are biblically based yet whenever a film does not confirm its full purpose, it is a lie. There are films that are indeed true to its message, and when you find them they consists of moral teachings without mixture of other religious activities, symbols and rituals.  Aside from films that are clear to their message like movies that mocks the believers, it is very certain among our brethrens that we are filled with ignorance most of the time. Because many of the films created, as long it is titled with biblical theme, for some it is very tempting and seductive to watch that even the whole congregation sermon can be a marketing stage and recommendations that they can be watched. Personally, I watch movies rarely, i usually look at documentaries or history related films, or sometimes watch some children movies but allows my children to recognise which is right and wrong information. Mostly, we notice the wrong things whenever we read and are well informed of our history or by searching the facts biblically. But, it may differ from different sources. I sually read articles from certified historians.

Proverbs 2:6 For the LORD gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.

  There is a scripture that writes : Psa 101:3  I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes: I hate the work of them that turn aside; it shall not cleave to me. 

Speaking of movies, I am very supportive on reality based movies. There are lots of them where you can see how a person was changed through time and how faith had inspired and motivated them to be a whole new creation.  It takes an observant to question a movie wether it is legitimate to use or even laid on by the eyes. So it is your decision of course to see what you like, but it is for you to know what is legible and if you see the truth of course you have the responsibility to also warn others.

I do not write these to become overly reactive but to give you an insight to also become aware of what you see and hear from others. You must always test the things you hear by finding them in the scriptures never forgetting where it all began or whom and which nation and tribe it all started.

Beware! Such thing can draw us into idolatry. Worse it can be a strange service.

Much Love

Rochelle

WHO is ABLE?!

WHO is ABLE?!

Who can wear your shoes and understand it?
Who can listen to your story and tell it?
Who can wear your shoes and dare to judge you?
Who can able to hear you cry and dare to wipe your tears
Who can understand you and patiently lead you in life?
Who can teach you a lesson without killing you inside?
Who can speak with you without intimidation
Who can allow you to grow without setting a hindrance?
Who can stand for your integrity without partiality
Who can give you strength in weakness
Who can love you without hidden mask
Who can show you wonderful things without a pay
Who would help you without blowing a trumpet

O yes, when we look at mankind, our own image and alike!
No one would dare to take a stand
And yet promises are spoken to become a helping hand
The sudden times expose that there’s no one
And at your failures you face the test
So many measures at your mistakes
And at your weakness you have no friends
One by one they see you as a pest
Maybe God had punished her in the end
All the empty words fly like withered leaves
Yet the wind carries the whispers through the chills
And the lips will never stop hurting
As the eyes will never stop judging
Still in the image of divinity there’s a propaganda
You will know WHO you shall turn yourself into.

And Who is like God? Who is like Hashem?
The One Who loves with pure intentions
The One who sees your purpose
The One whom you can depend on
The One who wont desert you
The One who understands
The One who forgives
The One who knows your limitations
The One who nurtures your growth
The One who restores you
The One who leads you into The right way
The One who teaches you in your misconceptions
The One who heals you in brokenness
The One who fills you in Hopelessness
The One who assures you have a friend
The One who opens the gates in your return
The One who gives peace under the storm
The One who feeds in hunger
The One who pours water in thirst
The One who shows wonders and signs
The One who helps with a mighty hand
The One who redeem a lost heart
The One who sends a saviour to never get lost
The One who will always be the FOREVER LIVING GOD

Writer: Karla Rochelle Darang Rosenberg
Emal: oselrimon@gmail.com

Battle in Our minds

Battle in Our minds

And i sorted all the thoughts one by one..Right there and then I dont want to resonate about what I want, instead I am taking time to go through the thoughts whenever they are right or wrong. Is it something beneficialfor me to grudge deep inside myself with a package of hardship or does it seemed easy to connect the reasoning yet will just waste my time. And I know They are just there for some time.

I paused a bit and went through the thoughts, Straining every piece of word that it whispers to my soul..And I suddenly found out that I actually refresh my mind, realising that thought is not mine…

Sometimes, they are natural effect whenever we tire ourselves from our busy routine through work and all the obligations we have in a day.

Whenever i feel that depression is coming. I usually feel tired and exhausted. So i take few days off and i take walks and pray. I dont suppress the thoughts but I kick them out and from my inwards, I pray deeply and gain new strength and positive emotions.

If we talk bodily. It is imbalance. So i mostly needed social life. So i go to gym sometimes. 😂 Or spent time with people that are mature enough to share their thoughts with me. Sometimes, its enough with reading Psalms, or either my painting hobby expresses my thoughts.

I know its hard but to know that we are not alone and to remember that the body needs a rest

When i have the difficult times, i have so much low self esteem. I see all thing’s negative. Thats when i take focus on my thoughts and strive to speak thanksgiving  to God in prayers. I focus on what I have and not the things that I dont have.

I usually have negative words over myself but i learned to manage it and tame my self whenever it pressures me to say negative about my self and how i see things. I manage to revert the words into positive words… And then i take a walk and spend some time near the river. Because we live near the river.

I know thats a phase. Be focused on what your thoughts are saying. Because when you actually look at your life,  there are thoughts whispered to you that are merely lies. When you look at your life and how you stand and how you manage until this day, You will see that you have been given the power to overcome the lies whispered in your mind., And thats where the battle is.

You have to tame that flesh that tries to go against the godly nature of your soul. Because deep inside of us, we are divided nature that has a part of being disobedient and being naturally willing to do what is right.

That’s what the scripture says that we shall tame our bodies and our thoughts to be obedient to the commands of God and it will go well with us

For example. I usually get thoughts that I am useless. And then I catch the thoughts and compare it to reality. Theb i see that i am not useless. So i thabk God. Because we are battling from the effects of the beginning.. Knowing good from evil

I dont expect anything in a day except that God is with me. I imagine myself walking in his surroundings.. So I would have focus on every thoughts that passes me by. I became aware not to buy all the thoughts. Because if thoughts can make us heal. It has also the power to bribg us down. And thats the battle we strive against

I hope that you also can manage to tame your mind and to understand the power of every claims that you speak over yourself. DO not loose hope wether yopu hear nonsense and negative words from others. Do not build yourself by them but be built by the words of the Almighty God that created you and have given you a heavenly purpose.

Love and care

Rochelle

Looking at the Things I’ve been

I am happy I stood afar off people that thought I’m a trouble maker. I’m glad that I’ve lost some friends, I am glad that by the things happened to me God showed exactly who people are. I don’t feel like having friends but I know for sure I’m loved. It was enough with few people who cared for me and I don’t need to know who dislikes me. For this body that walks around people now, is the vessel of God to Equip the Saints of Jesus Christ. For I no longer live from old but lives in fullness of God with desires to walk as Disciple.
For this reason, the Journey that I took, to Follow Jesus and do what He does and be His disciple made me separate from people that are not understanding the true meaning of love, friendship and do not really know how to care for those who are being lost.
Because I was that lost. But I am found.
I don’t boast at all, I just say I follow Jesus and peoples opinion does not matter anymore!

The compassion of Judgement comes along by being so traditional. Do you think if you go to church every sunday makes you a follower of Jesus? Do you think it change a life when you tell people you go in church and never miss any service at all?
Jesus even rebuked the Pharisees and the Saduccees.. For their mouth are filled with words of the Holy Scriptures but their heart were rotten. They were so good at being perfectly traditional but not doing anything to influence others lives.
So think..
Who is your master?
Is it just your church?
Is it your house? Your car? Your style? Money? Addiction? People?
Is it Jesus?

You Stare Like You Knew

You stare at me with your pretty eyes
In your mind full of disguise
My life is not that interesting
So please.., stop fishing
All I was, A little girl
Yes..Like I always were

My heart does beat
As gentle as the breeze
My dreams are higher than the hills
Way better as it seems
I might not be special in your eyes
But I can share whats in my heart.

My appearance is not what eyes see

But Its the heart that I carry
Yet I wont blame you look at me
Coz thats the way it should be
You draw my image in your eyes
As i get deeper with my sighs
Dont worry friend, Im alright
SOmeday I’ll be your light…
***Rochelle***

Some Memories In my Mind

Some Memories In my Mind

Sharing my testimony to all of you.

2 Timothy 2:1-3 (NKJV)
Be Strong in Grace
2 You therefore, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. 2 And the things that you have heard from me among many witnesses, commit these to faithful men who will be able to teach others also. 3 You therefore must endure hardship as a good soldier of Jesus Christ.

Glory be to God…
Love and embrace from our Lord Jesus
And the leading of the Holy Spirit be upon us all…

Romans 8:37-39 – No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

See how time pass by.
Many many Years ago I was in deep pain, depression, stress, deep childhood trauma, molested and sexually abused, resentment, anxiety and nearly suicidal. All this were in one package …
Grew up in a family with a Christian mother, and father was a Catholic. I am born with blind eye on the left. Until I met The real God in 2010..
Then everything started to shaken more in life.

God saw my soul was wounded deeply and oppressed by the devil. So years later I was rescued by the hands of the Almighty God. How precious we are in His sight, I could say.. That His love abounds in deepest waters, we can’t comprehend it.
Things have been storming my life since childhood years, but all was a just a puzzle game that I fitted into a better understanding now.
I’ve been with the boat of Jesus without understanding that life as a real Christians would mean of endurance and patience, but until years later when God opened up the doors to show me my rewards despite of disobedience..God saw my possibilities which I and others couldn’t see with me.
Although my life is not that honey and flowers all the way, God blessed me and equipped me, provided me my needs somehow.
I’ve learned to be faithful and loving to God that I became more focus in worshipping him. I’ve learned to be more knowledgeable about God rather than being religious..
God taught me that relationship with Him requires my obedience and willingness to speak with Him and trusting Him in all odds.

1 Peter 5:6-7 – Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.

Psalm 86:15 – But you, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness.

God gave me Two children..
Though my past relationship was a painful failure, and though the pain had caused a big damage, God touched my wounded areas of life and healed me deep within. He lifted up my life, healed my parents, blessed my siblings, healed a broken relationship between my mother and me. God gave me the possibility to speak more with kindness and love to my Parents. God taught me that obeying His commandments was never a burden, but it became naturally part of me.
So, even though I failed along the journey, God didn’t focus on my mistakes, because He was focus on my future that I wouldn’t get harmed and that I would be prepared for the biggest changes He had set before me.
My chase after happy marriage stopped..

And I surrendered to God everything and so..
God gave me new man. A man that needed also the grace of God.. A man that loves the Lord Jesus and would open up his life for me and my family. A man I’ve found an with an open arms family.

Cars, house, money, new gadgets, clothing’s- these are not my wants and dreams!!
But sharing the Gospel, being a medical aid, and a woman of faith, healing the sick, praying for the needy, helping those who are in need is – THAT’S MY HEARTS DESIRES…

God of Israel! How Great You are!
Now, looking back.. all I can do is praise the Lord Jesus, and give glory to the Father in heaven.
Thank God the Holy Spirit is within me..
Thank you Jesus for the Cross..!
I love being a Christian..

Failure is not a Scary thing

Failure is not a Scary thing

In truth, there is only one thing that can put you further ahead than success, and that is failure. When you are successful, you are whole and complete. That is wonderful, but with wholeness you cannot break out beyond your own weaknesses.. They are made to be your stepping stone to learn… To become successful and to become knowledgeable of the good. To distinguish good from evil.. And from there.. You excel the image of God from within.

Every time you take a step, no one can every say if you will succeed or fail.. And in every success, you will recognise the power within you that brought you to where you stand. And in every failure, you will recognise the knowledge and wisdom that leads you to become a better person reaching out with the senses of your soul.

Nevertheless, do not absorb the negative speech spoken over you by people, for they know which is appropriate for them and in which they try to implement upon you. In such a case, use the Torah (instructions) to become your teacher along the way. For whatever words that they try to implement can be so different from what is written. Never neglect the people who tries to impact you with the truth. In an image of honesty where they allow you to take the decision for yourself and still they give you a helping hand to stand up whenever you fall. For in that sense, you might have found a true one friend in a godly manner.

Remember the story of Adam and Eve. There was no plot. But it was made in the essence of truth where in the beginning, mankind were complete with the fullness of good.

But because of mankinds attitude of being easily swayed… Failure came and drafted mankind to think its the end.
Failure lets you go where your footsteps could never take you. And in every failure you know how to return..

Never forget…
Without failure, we can never truly reach into the depths of our souls. Only once we have failed can we return and reach higher and higher without end.

The performance of the Blossoms

The performance of the Blossoms

Life had always been a season of learning. A season of growing and a season of bloom. A season of withering and a season of starting all over again.

When we see how the tree, which during the winter was dry and withered, yet hidden underneath was the roots filled with nourishment but scared of the outside world.. we think of life sometimes to be the same.. Yet as we see the spring comes and shines over the dry and withered tree, it starts to awaken and replies with the glimmering of the small leaves and small seeds to be ready and is soon to be in full bloom, suddenly we are revitalized. When we watch the transformation of nature, we gain the courage and inspiration to lift out of our despair, and it reminds us that God has given us the tools to renew ourselves.

We gain the courage to lift out of despair, to renew ourselves.

We live in a time when it’s a struggle to keep hope alive. All that is decent in mankind seems to be impatient against forces so irrational and evil that peace seems to be beyond what any thought can elaborate.

And yet… the trees give us a message of hope. They show us how after a period of barreness and drought despair and sadness comes the bloom and incomparable great perfume.. The gladness it brings and the signs of life that the flower represents. We all are like flowers that blooms in time and withers after ita purpose. Yet under the times of our excellence we perform the beauty which was cultivated by trials and forces of darkness before bloom. And we will always bloom in time… Under the hands of God we are nurtured very well!

We have the will to do right or evil

We have the will to do right or evil

You can’t blame God for all the tragedy and calamities we see and hear.
For it is the heart of a man that plans and do evil and wicked ways!
it is the motives of greed and lust that makes man create war and oppress the weak ones.
And God can’t stop it, but gives strength to the ones who are willing to do what is right. For the judgement of the wicked lies in pile and waits for its final destination and the oppress shall be in His Kingdom and the poor shall be taken in His gates.
So for you to change the world, is to change yourself also. Be a blessing and do what is right. Contribute to what is good!
-Wisdom

You can change if you want to!

You can change if you want to!

In the presence of dismay and disappointment, there is no room for logic. Every good things is not in mind and the innocence of hope is replaced by fear, anger and frustration. But where do I begin?

Have you ever been into situations where you were lost? I have. Except from sexual abuse, I had a difficult childhood which caused traumatic stress disorder. Maybe i felt more confused than lost in some situations. Yet lost in feelings and emotions. As a grown up I was labelled liar, prostitute, garbage, stupid, fool, ugly, not intelligent. And in my adulthood, I was called adulterous, attention seeking, power hunger and many more. I find it hard to have so much stamps over yourself and however you want yourself to change, to others it won’t matter. Bullies and degrading treatment are not over by childhood years, the worst bullies are adults. But I take this a challenging times. And I encourage others who goes the same thing to be strong and never give up.

How shall I divert the thoughts of disappointment and the feelings of dismay into the position of positivity? I asked for help in times of insanity and frustration as I turned myself towards those I looked up to..the “church people” and yet time and again the answer was ” we will pray for you”. There was no offer of getting me out of the clouds that wrapped me up in a rollercoaster ride. In the end, that’s when I realised, it’s the psychologists job to do. Which in fact a church elder shall have as a position to help a person depressed. Or suicidal.

And I turned towards people that I trusted, I waited for a hand to raise me up yet the answer I received was stunning. I became the traitor and a liar.

I realised that all of us are quick on judgements upon others situation. Sometimes even if it is dear to us, we usually push them away whenever we see them do wrong, sometimes we don’t have a good manner on how to guide a lost person into the right path. We mostly make a quick decision when we hear things about others, forgetting that once we were in that position and we were in need of help. Now when we had the power to guide others, we mostly think it’s right to instruct the rules and apply it upon them rather than show them how they shall do and take their hand and take them out of the ditch. Generally, people usually push another person deeper into the ditch rather than take them out. We forget to weigh judgements. And we work as prosecutors over others. Isn’t it irony, we hear it preached on the pulpit, spoken on the lectures, and written on literatures that we shall have patience and understanding towards others, that we shall be open in our hearings to execute right judgements, and yet we mostly do the reverse. And depression is such a horrible place to be caused by different situations that has never been cleared out in a person’s life. Either physical abuse, emotional or verbal.

Being alone in the fight, I had to struggle by myself. And to divert the connections about a certain person to a certain event to certain emotion, I have to learn to give up the contact and accept the fact that the event already occurred and cannot be replayed again. I had to learn the process in daily life by forgiving and releasing myself from the connection with the people that hurt me and. I had to learn to forgive myself about certain events that connect to the painful memories that causes a strong emotional distress and a repetition of flashbacks that delays my healing process. I had to renew my mind by giving up on seeing myself as a victim because nothing happens for a reason and it does not happen because I deserved it, rather things happens because we all are humans who fails to do the right thing and we mostly fulfil the lusts of our bodies in different forms like embarrassing others, killing, gossip, abuse and others.

I learned this year’s that it does not matter what others says about me. Because I live the life I walk and I do my best to make things right. I don’t need to reaffirm myself whenever others remind me of my past, because I know that their purpose of reminding is to make me return to that certain event that would make me feel anxious which will cause me undefensive and frustrated. I am certain that people that surrounds us who knew us from the past can never be ignored but I also know that although they had been your friends, you shall never give them a key to hurt you or use your emotions to beat you.

The past had been done, and if by some reasons you have done wrong and committed mistakes, who else did not? And if by some situations you had committed huge failures, who else did not? This is the tragic of life and I or we have to accept that the past belongs there and that we don’t need to reaffirm ourselves from certain people, events or emotions that was attached to it. Learn to forgive and Let go. Forgiving does not mean forgetting, to forgive is to set yourself free from the certain events and people that causes your emotions to be distorted. It is giving you a passage to make change because of the event and making you strong enough to face a better future. Claim your joy by renewing your mind through new thoughts everyday. It might be hard in the beginning but once you train yourself to imagine your good future, you will be able to control your body and emotions to affirm about what’s ahead of you. And you will see that the past indeed will stay behind and it will never have power over you anymore.

Believe without seeing and have hope in believing.

Always be thankful before sleeping and even when you wake up. Look forward not backwards.

Love YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF!

Love YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF!

How shall we love others as ourselves?

What does BODY OF CHRIST MEANS AMD WHAT IS THE DEFINITION OF FAMILY?

When one of them sins, he harms himself as well as harming the portion of himself that resides in the other, since he is connected to his part that is contained within his fellow. They are related to each other.

Thus it is appropriate for a person to seek the benefit of one’s fellow, showing him generosity of spirit. He should consider his dignity as dear to him as his own, for they are literally a single entity. Because of this we are commanded, “and you will love your fellow as yourself.”

It is fitting that a person supports the fundamental goodness of another and not speak evil of him at all.  One should not wish for anything that is inconsistent with what God desires for that person, neither his disgrace nor his suffering, for they are related to God.  A person should not wish to see another’s downfall, nor suffering, nor any harm at all, and view the situation of as if he himself were immersed in the same suffering, or exalting in the same good fortune.

Deluded Dreams

Deluded Dreams

I have often thought that all dreams are suitable for each individual that desires it. And often as we go along the journey, we dream higher and more hopeful of the future. Yet we fall into mistakes we didnt intend to do. And all we think generally is….. we’re doomed. So we go around everyday worrying about the mistakes carrying the thought, ” God is angry at me”, “I can’t do this”, “I am not capable of this” and then through time, it became our identity….eventually.

Isnt it too obvious that we became so busy in the beginning focusing on the dreams that we have? Either small or big. When the days pass by and the waves of life takes us wherever it leads, we often stay in daydreaming. Dreams of not having the trials and everything shall be peaceful. It is very obvious that our dreams stayed in oput minds 24 hours a day. And the dreams sometimes makes us isolated and feel uncomfortable of the outside world and that the outside situations makes us annoyed. Because the dreams we have scares us often and we know for sure that it is not normal for others to hear that dream we have. So we keep the dreams inside of us and We shoved away the situations and we try to run from it, we try to avoid the emotions because we dont want to confront the feelings we will feel and then we usually look upon the sky waiting for a rescue. Like a powerful hero who would come down to bring us back to our illusions.

Reality, sometimes we hallucinate that reality are the things we see and feel. We tend to go along the trend of emotions and our bodies live in the presence of our thoughts. But in the presence of honesty, we see the real life that our emotions are in our way hundering us to become a decent person. And almost 70 percent of our thoughts are not suitable even for us to entertain yet they already had the power that made us all feel doomed.

I remember many times when I look at how I am now. And the moment I enjoy the thought of having it good then it reminds me of all the failires that I had been through. I was constantly reminded just in a minute of all the things that I committed with my own conscience, and in that sudden thoughts. I felt disgraceful. Although I knew for several years and times I had already repented with my whole heart still there is a sense of not believing what I have committed for myself. And from time to time I have fallen into mistakes, the feeling of knowing to be forgiven had slowly faded away and it was replaced with anxiousness and layers of guilt that I couldnt make things right. Suddenly, I felt isolated in thoughts and even right where I stood. Why? Yeah, because deep inside of me I know God had forgiven me but still I am stuck in the old days of my life that I am still living in my illusions that God is angry at me and that every mistakes I have done drives me farther from Him.

Illusions, we think that it is an illusion to dream of the things unseen. We drastically think it’s not a good thing to dream and that we often fall into the general trend that we should be logic. That we only have to live by what we see and that dreams are illusions and they shall not be hope for. Isn’t it we are good in standing against our way and we are so good in hindering ourselves from the possible future that has been aimed for us?

Deluded dreams – All of the negative shaping and voices and forms from the outside of our senses are tricks so we could not recognise our possibilities towards the future. The deceiving power of the outside are the ones that can destroy us if we are not observant to where we put our time and efficiency. These deceiving dreams and voices are in different forms – jealousy, anger, bitterness, hatred, criticism characters, rage and selfish ambitions ( Galatians 5 – read ) this are the traits of the outside and we unintentionally are trained through our upbringing and by our environment. Yet, hold it! We can be better than that!!

We are shaped by deluded dreams that we can only reach our BIG DREAMS through the images that we see and feel. I on the other hand, want to leave that space and I want to get my right foot towards the challenges of the unknown and reach the DREAM and make it to reality. If we learn to train our thoughts to use the negative impacts and experiences to become our tools and book of learning, we will be able to become succesful human beings. We can learn to first reverse all the negative traits and turn it into a thankful heart.

I want to encourage you, to believe the UNSEEN

Believe the impossible dream…. by shaping YOUR THOUGHTS. YOU ARE ONE STEP TO THE FUTURE…. By shaping your MIND. YOU ARE LIVING THE FUTURE

So take a step out of this deluded dreams…re arrange yourself and re allign and reconnect To the MYSTERY OF THE ALMIGHTY GOD

Happens for a Reason

Happens for a Reason

I am upset at myself, I’m angry at the world, and I’m not on speaking terms with G‑d for a while.

Then they line up, the friends who want to cheer me up, the spiritual leaders who know better: You know what my friend… No need to be upset… No need to be depressed… Everything happens for A reason!!!

The first thought that crosses my mind is, Where is your compassion? Where is your sympathy? Do you think I need to hear that I’m suffering for a reason? I’m Suffering! Is that suppose to happen for a reason?

The second thought that jumps up my brain is: Oh, yeah. Obviously everything happens for a reason. The reason I got into multiple sexual abuse from relatives and it made me become afraid to trust people. The reason I became a rape victim that made me having issues with relationships, that caused me to feel distressed and afraid of society. The reason it ruins my daily life. The reason I got into a violent marriage that brought me depressive episodes and anxieties. The reason I got divorce twice and caused me to feel miserable. And still I would hear.. Everything happens for a reason. How does friends and spiritual leaders console me by their words.

They say, things happen for a reason. And that things that happens we deserve. I refute this words because they are too extreme for me to believe.

I believe that God has plans and purpose for everyone and I understand His thoughts in the beginning of creation. That every creature both great and small, from the ones that walks to the smallest that creep has its very assigned purpose to complete each other fulfilling its task to become a lively event in daily occasion. And that every living creature has its fulfilling purpose upon the earth.

Whoever has faith in individual Divine Providence knows that “Man’s steps are established by G‑d,” that this particular soul must purify and improve something specific in a particular place. For centuries, or even since the world’s creation, that which needs purification or improvement waits for this soul to come and purify or improve it. The soul too, has been waiting – ever since it came into being – for its time to descend, so that it can discharge the tasks of purification and improvement assigned to it. Hayom Yom 3 Elul

Now we are talking business. Everything happens for thereason, not just A reason. And the reason is G‑d’s master plan for his universe

When I look back upon the things I went through in life, it is easy to see the negative things and think that I deserved the hurt and pain. And according to others opinion, it is happening for a reason. But when I looked at what I became after that, I realised that it was needed for me to go through so I may learn. And under the process I had the choice to either do not care or to just be afraid or either defend myself. I refute that it is not the purpose of my life, neither God had planned my life course to be in that manner. I believe that this things happened had came across without a warning because there is a desire in every individual, it can be for good or for evil.

Unfortunately, some of the unhappy things that happened to me was the result of my fear to fight and defend myself. Which I believe was not happening for a reason.

There is a case that makes me think just that sentence. When I faced a violent tragedy many years ago, I was devastated and confused about my lifes purpose. I heard someone said to me, “everything happened for a reason” and it strucked me. Because they did not knew I was a rape victim. And they did not knew I was abused as a child, and they did not knew that I was also abused as a wife. And telling me everything happened for a reason makes me think, that reason must be absurd and out of mind concept..

Everything does not happened for a reason. Things has purpose but it was not purpose for evil but for good.

We have the power to experience people, places and things in a G‑dly way, thus changing their composition from merely physical to a new spiritual dimension. The only reason weird things happen to us, is because we are challenged to elevate that situation from the annoying (to humans) to the pleasurable (to G‑d).

In other words “Everything happens for a reason” are not words of consolation, but a call to action..

Stamps by Word

Stamps by Word

The written scriptures: 1 John 3:10

By this the children of God and the children of the devil are obvious: anyone who does not practice righteousness is not of God, nor the one who does not love his brother.

I have had tough times for now. I notice that my divorce is such a curse to go through. And after divorce, if you mistakenly have a relationship you will also be called an adulterous person, because there are probation in every settlement in system to wait.

By the way, I have been called a devils child somewhere in a recorded video from a known evangelist. Somehow they know my personal life but it seemed very intentional to speak about me in social media. It is very hurtful comments although I can understand their side still people have no rights to say those words.

In citation of revelations 2 about a woman who proclaim herself as prophetess whom committed adultery, the verses brought curse even to her children. And this citation is used against me. I wonder how many woman who have been into this kind of situation and I can imagine that it is very mentally and physically breaking.

I don’t know if people realise how they draw away others from faith rather than bringing in. Isn’t it right to divorce from a relationship who has no more interest and there’s no affection in between. Isn’t it very time consuming to think that each person in marriage does not give effort to make the relationship work?

Is it right to stay when your partner says ” life is over and there’s nothing joyful to have in life to wait” while you would watch him cry on the balcony and regret every moment of life. Isn’t it abusing to the mind to see a partner gets busy at work and then you beg for time just to make it work. Isn’t that physically breaking to beg your partner to even fulfil the intimate task which is only done because of pressure?

Then tell me I’m still the devils child and tell me I’m going to hell.

A selection of salvation is not according to your righteousness. It is given to make you righteous. A person saved cannot be measured by the mistakes they have done and it is not our right to bring them down but to bring them to repentance. And who knows the heart of a man but God? And who knows who will go down and goes up?

Sinner

Who would dare to gaze at her
Nor presume to speak a word
The walls revealed a broken wings
There was help to cure the means
Her transgressions were exposed
And her secrecy were concealed
Unknowingly commited an offense
Y when turned and made a step
And transgressions before the sight
Made a heart repent and realise
Yet a sinner she is in all their sight
Never remembered there was a light
Said Lets pray and lead your path
Still she felt imprisoned at heart
Indirectly a sign was given to her
Each one of them depart
The storm is passing and shes alone
As for others God forgives
Still the lost woman drowns and bleeds.
Her cries were heard on cement walls
The bed were drowned in screaming calls
Yet shes a sinner not needed to hear
And as though repentance was clear
Still their words breaks to rear
While God was merciful and forgiving
Her people keep sins in reminding
And she rise up but theres a huge grasp
And for a while a minute of repentance
A sinner forever in their eyes.
Sinner