Happy birthday to my Son!

All these years had been a favor from the Lord. Im so thankful God gave me the opportunity to bear this child in my womb.
It has been great years until today. I can’t imagine he had survived so many trials… He is blessed.


As a parent! I am at the great heights of confidence and thanksgiving for the GIFT OF LIFE IN MY YOUTH=A child..=a future generation.
The day he was born, hidden missions are entrusted in him so he may be cultivated by years.
Now my both children had become changed… And I’m so proud of how I formed them…. UNIQUE…

Years passed.. The children grow!

LIFE HAD BEEN UPS AND DOWNS, Oh my! Im still standing!! Boy! The kids had grown! Time had made a blast, Children grow fast!! I’m feeling so emotional!

When I looked back how hard it was! Pushing up and making all things come to its place, Trying to make ends meet and God was always been gracious. God had been so generous. How many of those years I spent in crying, Those times I spent trying, and the times I felt dying!

Did you know? to make my ends meet, my children received used clothes from friends because I could not afford. I received gifts of clothes from friends because I do not have enough to buy one.I received help from a best friend in the US just to make it through. I used to pick up double jobs just to find extra amount for myself despite that I was married.

I wont deny, it had been an abusive relationship! I’ve been married twice and it didnt worked. But I never complained, instead! I bent my knees in prayer in ALL THOSE YEARS till now.. And thank God I am free…

In between the lines, I have been judged by many leprous tounges, and I fought the battle. I was beaten and I can see clearly now the results of what it made me. although the peak of my purpose has not yet been completely fufilled… I can see, how strong I have been!!! I’ve learned many things through the years..
despite of the hardships…Im proud of what we have become!!!
Hashem is to be Praised

Attached to the broken wings

I have been working with myself for many years and I discover new learnings every time. Attached to the broken wings, the ideals to heal, deal and fly again.

My life might not be interesting to many, for those who barely knew me. I grew up in poverty, i was raised in platter where the servings are not pleasing to the belly. I was taught that in a way to survive, you must deal with things as they are and you must act instantly.

Wether you are logically smart or intellectually brainy, it won’t bring you that far if you don’t act and deal with your troubles right at hand. My mother says, “don’t wait to do things tomorrow if you have the time now, who might know if tomorrow might not arrive”.

I was thinking about my past experiences as a child. I only spent my days in thinking of pitiness towards myself and I only saw my broken wings unable to fly. I thought it was the end of that wing and that it might be useless to bear behind my shoulders rack so I just went around murmuring about all the failures I partially did. Somehow, my environment has its contribution to the broken pieces of the feather in my wings.

Through the years, I have discovered the small antidotes for the healing process of that wing. And as I carried on my wings along my journey, I was surprised that I am starting to heal every strand of the feathers. And I saw that light has revealed the hidden brilliance of the feathers colors. And day by day, the feathers grew and Eventually, I could stretch them out.

I have learned to gain the trust for myself again. Discovering the hidden treasures of heaven. Those golden treaaures I love to keep in my heart yet too overwhelming due to its bulky size. The malady of these world had made me see there was nothing wrong with all the painful passages I passed. And last, there was nothing wrong with me. I have learnt to accept myself even if others rejects me

When the words Collide! Be strong!

When the words Collide! Be strong!

What was the hardest thing about having a mental illness like PTSD, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY?

I THINK it was the silence; when people discover that you suffer from mental illness, they don’t know what to say, and the conversation becomes rigid or they can become so far away.

I wish people would ask more about my emotions, I wish they would show an interest to know what I’m going through, I wish they would listen more than imply their minds on what they think I supposed to do. I wish they would allow me to share my experiences to feel that I don’t need to suffer alone. But as reality reveals, people are afraid of what they fear might come to them..

Rather than judgement within religious people that I am demonic, or judgement generally that I am an unhealthy and crazy person. In the sight of humanity, I was dehumanised.

What I discovered is that, due to my personal injuries many might not be as willing to talk as I am. As far as we know, the stigma of mental illness hurts more than the illness itself.
Somehow I am grateful because the illness had taught me well to discover the part of me which cannot be achieved by someone else who would go through the circumstances I have been. And I know that not all people suffering are as observant and as open as I am.

Within this perspective, I realised though that I have given an impression to some whom are willing to learn about mental illness and how do I manage to live life daily. I share the insights and understanding to those who didn’t experience the causes of my suffering. Isn’t that supposed to be a valuable lesson for anybody to stop giving a brand on people’s lives suffering in different ways or manner of illness mentally..

You have no Idea you hurt us bad when you are a believer and you say we are suffering from demons.

You have no idea you hurt us bad when you, without religion speaks that we are crazy, making fun of us in your private conversations and addressing us as the extra cost of society.

In this manner, I would like to send a letter to those who suffer PTSD like me. Even though you suffer depression or anxiety.. God is not as the men who judge you. He understands what you’re going through and there is a purpose that someone else should learn from you because He knows you are stronger than those who can’t afford to carry that burden.
God is with you and with the broken heart. Your wings will be restored and you will stand again. Do not be afraid to speak your mind, because I know that despite of your suffering.. You are mindful of what others would feel if you throw them the wrong word. I know you care despite the fact that it isn’t seen obviously. I know you are strong in the surface but soft beneath those lines of strong words you released.

Be brave and Be prayerful to a God who knows you more than anyone else. Don’t let your heart be frightened. Do not be afraid. God is with you wherever you go. He will never abandon you, He will uphold you and Hold you with His Righteousness.

Love and blessings
/Rochelle Rosenberg

When we Loose friends, We have become grown up at some point if that particular season!

Never take seriously when you loose friends in some circumstances, it reveals that both you and them are not ready to take friendship in a committed time.

Its easy for me to be friends with everyone.. To some I became close friends.. But when trials came to me, I lost so called friends.

ACTUALLY! IM GLAD I DID! because they became a part of my journey. Their part in my life has to end leaving me with nutritional experiences which I gained wisdom from and so I can continue with the course of life to become a developed person in my environment..

Never take seriously when you loose friends in some circumstances, it reveals that both you and them are not ready to take friendship in a committed time. You have to understand that you became a part of someone else’s journey at a specific time to fulfill your purpose God had layed out for them. And for the matter of growing, it develops you to a nurturing state that they may fulfill what is planned for your future.

Remember this, you have had friends which you liked at a certain circumstances and time, and time have spoken that you both have to go separate ways and time also speaks you have to be cut off from them..

Your journey is for you to walk through, no one else will do that in your case. You are a living contributor for someone else to become a successful person. And they also has a contribution of your growth as a person.. So you will become mature. People around you are a contribution of what you will become.. Be thankful they pass you by. 
-ROCHELLE Rosenberg

Do Not Worry at ALL..

When we say do not worry.. It doesn’t mean we didn’t care.. It just means we know for sure we can’t change the circumstances.. We just know that we still have the opportunity to change whatever is ahead of us…


The concept is beautiful, but how do we reach this level of faith?

how does one actually achieve the level of not worrying even when you hear that “everything’s going to be okay”? Yet the problems keep bothering you? And you know that it doesn’t feel okay..

We have to start the process of looking backwards. Haven’t we had so many trials and most of them haven’t found any solutions at all. Most of the problems didn’t even found an answer at the moment we needed them..? Isnt that awkward?

And yet… After all the trials and problems we faced, we still live and survived.. We had learnt a new strategy on how to handle such situations and we also learnt how to manage ourselves.. And we have discovered to discipline our concerns and behaviour on how to deal with the issues.

Many people believe in G‑d, but true trust in G‑d is a whole different level. People who trust in G‑d don’t worry. They do their best to help out the situation, but they know that the outcome is in the hands of G‑d, and ultimately, it’s for the good.

Look back to where you were ten years ago and look where you have reached today, and tell me: Is there a reason to worry?” is it necessary? Does it help?

Why not look at the people who are actually in need your help right now and lay your troubles in the hands of the mighty.. Be a vessel of blessing to others and help them out of their difficulties.. And we will realise how fortunate we are with the ability to become an inspiration of joy and an instrument of good.


My Social media changed

in my whole life as an adult… I am glad to meet the husband who made me feel I am beautiful even if rarely think about it myself. Im glad he made me feel loved that I forget to post on facebook how much we love each another. I

didnt need the likes to feel good..because he made my house a home and made my heart warm. He made my children feel they have a father and we all felt as if we became whole…

I have noticed from my past posts in the last 12 years… Everyday I use to post something about my activities. I use to post useless commentaries and how obnoxious I was about life and everything. I have never felt loved and I have never felt worthy. Never had a day I had positive thoughts. And although I had relationships, I still felt neglected and alone. The friends I met wasnt real to me. They were just there for some reason I guess that they didnt had any choice. But now, I know that God has been so good to me…

But these 2years, it had changed… My posts became few about myself. I started to minimise the attention and I have learned to protect my familys welfare in social media….Most of all… I didnt care more about problems….because God made me complete…And the people who use to discriminate me and spiritually abused me… I have discovered that they were wearing mmasks all along… SO for the record.. I have to give Applause to GOD in heaven…I am using social media without my privacy being taken away!

When I thought I inspire, thats when I felt it is for myself!

When I thought I inspire, thats when I felt it is for myself!

I have been in a livestream for while and I have wandered from my blog. But here I am to write something that I have learned this week.

Recently, I have been talking about inspiring others. I have been motivated to spark others and sometimes while seeing them coming up, I felt Im being left. And that emotion had made me feel absurd for some reason and caused me to be suspicious about others thinking they were using me.,

But that is not the case. I have weighed my thoughts for some time and observed the people I assumed were not real. And I have been watching how people react on certain messages I convey, how do they perceive me and how do they look at me? What do they think and what do they know?

I have heard different comments about how I inspired others. And it felt so good that I could do that. Of course not of my own but of God. And it is a pleasure to serve other people through the free platform where I dont need to hire a local to speak. The website is free for Journaling and the Youtube is free for video messaging.

I discovered, that as much as I have earned experiences..the situations I went through were not the same as theirs. But the struggles and pain we felt were all the same. And the sleepless nights had made us all feel suspicious and afraid of others. It wasn’t really the environment that affects us, but our assumptions and fear had made us far ,,,,

So i dedicated myself to inspire others. but the more I inspire, I felt useless. and the more I speak of encouragement, the more I felt weak. I guess its because the message we usually give to others are the message more intently made towards ourselves. When I thought I inspire, I felt it is for myself. So I encourage you to keep moving and insipiring other people. Because you have no idea what life you are changing… You have no idea who you ar einfluencing!


What is the Law?

What is the Law?

The Law is not known to men by words but subconsciously, though we could not memorize the Ten Commandments of the Lord, He already wrote it in our hearts and minds. And since Adam and Eve, the Law had been given through Moses and in his part, he wrote it on the stone. But also it is said that the law is written in our hearts so no one is excuse and God gave the Spirit of conscience so that we may find to know doing the things that are right.. that we know by natural sense when we do mistakes and whenever we commit sin, because our Spiritual eyes and soul is screaming for righteousness though in our human flesh we still ought to follow for our own pleasure. So be prepared and sensible whenever the devil tries to trick you. Always pray and seek the Lords help..

For this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, saith the Lord; I will put my laws into their mind, and write them in their hearts.”—Hebrews 8:10.

For ever since the world was created, people have seen the earth and sky. Through everything God made, they can clearly see his invisible qualities–his eternal power and divine nature. So they have no excuse for not knowing God.-Romans 1:20

Numbers 15:40 That ye may remember, and do all my commandments, and be holy unto your God.

Deuteronomy 5:29 O that there were such an heart in them, that they would fear me, and keep all my commandments always, that it might be well with them, and with their children for ever!

Deuteronomy 8:11 Beware that thou forget not the LORD thy God, in not keeping his commandments, and his judgments, and his statutes, which I command thee this day:

Deuteronomy 11:27 A blessing, if ye obey the commandments of the LORD your God, which I command you this day:

Deuteronomy 11:28 And a curse, if ye will not obey the commandments of the LORD your God, but turn aside out of the way which I command you this day, to go after other gods, which ye have not known.

Birthpangs are not too long

Birthpangs are not too long

When I look at the birthpangs beginnings.. I guess that we all are tested to where we lay our trust and hope. I am reminded of my laboring days when I was pregnant around 8th months and I was struggling with the weight of my stomach, excitement of seeing my child and at the same time hard to breath because of the movement of the baby inside. I had some pain in between that I have to be patient from which affects my daily routine. I become limited in movement and my surrounding became much more hard to understand. As the 9th month arrived, I felt so close to the edge. I became scared, what if i can’t give birth normally? and I also have to discipline myself as well about dietary factors.

The day arrived of giving birth and I finally felt the pain became more intensive and much more unbearable at the moment. I screamed within me that I just want the baby out! At the same time, when I imagined my attitude towards the people that ussrounded me at that moment, I cant comprehend how did they cope up with me. My attitude under pressure was harsh, unbearable and unrespectful.

I believe in our times, we are same as the woman in labor. Our attitude are untamed due to the pain and sufferings we see, hear and experience. Yet it is very interesting to know that we are still hopeful of giving birth of a new creation, a new individual that would contribute something in the near future.

I have experienced hunger and small difficulties. A disaster of an earthquake in Philippines I have witnessed.

Now when I see and how sickness hovers the nation and takes lives. I am not afraid. Maybe I am just a bit worried of what my children would eat for a day.

I have dreamt of a passing angel soaring with slight of pain for the earth.
We are tested in our hearts if we will be worried and afraid. For this is the nature of the earth for some souls who do not fear Hashem.
We as believers has high hopes and highest praise. We know the birth pangs produces more sufferings and we wont know how long. Rest assure, lay our hearts to not store as much materials but gather our hearts into prayers and Thanksgiving despite of suffering.

The God of Abraham ISak and Yakov knows how human resistance is. We pray for the people who are affected and the nations already taking its pain. We suffer for them as if we are in their situations. May Hashem be merciful and allow the pain to lessen. And if Hashem is angry may He subside and allow His mercy and grace come through.

Do not look through the circumstances of nations now. We pray without fear. We are the warriors of our time in this generation.. Our skills is going to be developed in the beginning of these birthpangs. As Yeshua says, we will hear all this things. Rest assured to not worry and not be afraid. For the end is not yet……
Hashem is with us…

Health care professionals Go to work even in disasters periods of time

Thought for the day. I have heard it said many times that health care professionals joke and do not take COVID 19 seriously. Maybe we aren’t hysterical as everyone else. But I would like to draw your attention to 4 facts.

First, in order to work in healthcare, one must have a sick / dark sense of humor – forgive that it is just a requirement. And if you’re not one of us, you don’t understand.

Secondly, just because we do not buy 50 cases of baked beans and quarrels about the last can of Antibac spray or toilet roll from our local stores, does not mean we are not preparing. And most of us do not have the income to store. We just buy necessary things to consume for a month or for a day,
It does not mean we aren’t prepared., in fact we go to work as a daily routine without knowing what illnesses we can come in contact with ….. So prevention of infection and standard precautions are part of our everyday lives.

Third, when has mass hysteria helped any situation? Does your worry and fear contributes any good for the sake of societys welfare?
We may be trained to keep calm, cool and collected in stressful situations.

And last but not least … while everyone is worried about travel bans, government enforced quarantine, and being out of school / work for who knows how long, who do you still think will be allowed and required to go to work?
You guessed it right .. !! Healthcare professionals! We are the one’s that doesn’t have bans at work..
So ….. Don’t panic … use your common sense … pay attention to yourself and others … stay safe … Go now and wash your hands. 😷🧼🚰🏨 😷🧼🚰🏨 😷🧼🚰🏨

Are You Afraid To die?

Are You Afraid To die?


Just as you have power and control hunger over everything and everyone… You fear that you might loose that power in your hand. And when war, sickness arrives.. You wish that the times wasn’t up yet… And suddenly realises, you have wasted the time given.


To not fear death and to live fully without regression. To learn to speak openly to your loved ones while you can see them, to be in their presence and embrace them..

War, sickness and brokenness cannot separate us from the love of Messiah Yeshua. Remember that.
So dont run like you gonna die so fast while you have the chance to change the ways with your family and make changes in the world. /Lovelots Rochelle



My consumptions of thoughts for today. ##rochellerosenberg

Sars/2003: we gonna die
Hcov/2004: we gonna die
HkU1/2005: we gonna die
Mers/2012: we gonna die
SarsCov2(Covid19) /2019; we gonna die.
Swineflu: we gonna die
Birdflue: we gonna die

Poor people: LITERALLY DIE
Rich people : we gonna die.
Rich and poor; some of us already died.

Continue reading “WHEN FEAR EATS MANKIND”

When Swineflu amassed a life

When Swineflu amassed a life


I am not used to eat a lot of pig and shrimp. I grew up in a poor family and meat are very expensive. So we barely ate those when i was little. We ate mostly chicken because there’s huge sale of it most of the weekends when the market change their items. And most of our diet was vegetables soup because we couldn’t afford. We usually ate meat 2x month when I was little in what I can remember.

I dont crave meat but its recommended to eat for the needs of the body and the nutrition we benefit from it. yet shrimp, lobster, fish without scales are common cleaners of the sea and riverbed. The pigs is likely to human and it eats its dirt and even can eat other pigs wounds. and some birds aren’t edible due to their nature.
The big consumption of pig and shrimp… though has created some health issues.
Not just these food but other kinds of food can create bad effects on our health as well.

I noticed my body has become more healthier despite that i dont eat pig often.. On the other hand, i have some skin rashes when I ate pig before and have some skin allergy when I eat shrimp and lobster. I could die. 😂 When I was young I thought it was asthma. But now I know. 😕💭 So I stick with the diet I grew up with. More vegetables and chicken and fish… And now because I can afford… I eat my favourite philippines beef stew and soup.

I dont condemn those who eat and I know like you and me.. We can be hated because we have a changed diet. As the scriptures say.. The one who eats herbs cannot condemn the ones who eat unclean..
So do i… But most response we may receive can contain information of disregard and anger. Be prepared h😂💢
As Islam has other way of looking at pigs. I dont look at pork like them. I just know for sure some way or other, it is still a creation.. And as a believer in God.it is still a living being. It is edible to eat for many… And im not against people who est that. My personal diet is my own responsibility. But I am aware of how farms raise their cattles. Because I myself grew up while my parents raised a lot and lots of pigs.. We sold them and we earned from them..
And if you think pig is life.. i get you.. Dont worry… If the pig is treated well and raised in an open farm without manipulation of chemicals pellets in their food.. Then you are good to go. Sweden and some other country has the farm and animal control so you are in a safe mode.