You Stare Like You Knew

You stare at me with your pretty eyes
In your mind full of disguise
My life is not that interesting
So please.., stop fishing
All I was, A little girl
Yes..Like I always were

My heart does beat
As gentle as the breeze
My dreams are higher than the hills
Way better as it seems
I might not be special in your eyes
But I can share whats in my heart.

My appearance is not what eyes see

But Its the heart that I carry
Yet I wont blame you look at me
Coz thats the way it should be
You draw my image in your eyes
As i get deeper with my sighs
Dont worry friend, Im alright
SOmeday I’ll be your light…
***Rochelle***

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Some Memories In my Mind

Some Memories In my Mind

Sharing my testimony to all of you.

2 Timothy 2:1-3 (NKJV)
Be Strong in Grace
2 You therefore, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. 2 And the things that you have heard from me among many witnesses, commit these to faithful men who will be able to teach others also. 3 You therefore must endure hardship as a good soldier of Jesus Christ.

Glory be to God…
Love and embrace from our Lord Jesus
And the leading of the Holy Spirit be upon us all…

Romans 8:37-39 – No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

See how time pass by.
Many many Years ago I was in deep pain, depression, stress, deep childhood trauma, molested and sexually abused, resentment, anxiety and nearly suicidal. All this were in one package …
Grew up in a family with a Christian mother, and father was a Catholic. I am born with blind eye on the left. Until I met The real God in 2010..
Then everything started to shaken more in life.

God saw my soul was wounded deeply and oppressed by the devil. So years later I was rescued by the hands of the Almighty God. How precious we are in His sight, I could say.. That His love abounds in deepest waters, we can’t comprehend it.
Things have been storming my life since childhood years, but all was a just a puzzle game that I fitted into a better understanding now.
I’ve been with the boat of Jesus without understanding that life as a real Christians would mean of endurance and patience, but until years later when God opened up the doors to show me my rewards despite of disobedience..God saw my possibilities which I and others couldn’t see with me.
Although my life is not that honey and flowers all the way, God blessed me and equipped me, provided me my needs somehow.
I’ve learned to be faithful and loving to God that I became more focus in worshipping him. I’ve learned to be more knowledgeable about God rather than being religious..
God taught me that relationship with Him requires my obedience and willingness to speak with Him and trusting Him in all odds.

1 Peter 5:6-7 – Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.

Psalm 86:15 – But you, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness.

God gave me Two children..
Though my past relationship was a painful failure, and though the pain had caused a big damage, God touched my wounded areas of life and healed me deep within. He lifted up my life, healed my parents, blessed my siblings, healed a broken relationship between my mother and me. God gave me the possibility to speak more with kindness and love to my Parents. God taught me that obeying His commandments was never a burden, but it became naturally part of me.
So, even though I failed along the journey, God didn’t focus on my mistakes, because He was focus on my future that I wouldn’t get harmed and that I would be prepared for the biggest changes He had set before me.
My chase after happy marriage stopped..

And I surrendered to God everything and so..
God gave me new man. A man that needed also the grace of God.. A man that loves the Lord Jesus and would open up his life for me and my family. A man I’ve found an with an open arms family.

Cars, house, money, new gadgets, clothing’s- these are not my wants and dreams!!
But sharing the Gospel, being a medical aid, and a woman of faith, healing the sick, praying for the needy, helping those who are in need is – THAT’S MY HEARTS DESIRES…

God of Israel! How Great You are!
Now, looking back.. all I can do is praise the Lord Jesus, and give glory to the Father in heaven.
Thank God the Holy Spirit is within me..
Thank you Jesus for the Cross..!
I love being a Christian..

Failure is not a Scary thing

Failure is not a Scary thing

In truth, there is only one thing that can put you further ahead than success, and that is failure. When you are successful, you are whole and complete. That is wonderful, but with wholeness you cannot break out beyond your own weaknesses.. They are made to be your stepping stone to learn… To become successful and to become knowledgeable of the good. To distinguish good from evil.. And from there.. You excel the image of God from within.

Every time you take a step, no one can every say if you will succeed or fail.. And in every success, you will recognise the power within you that brought you to where you stand. And in every failure, you will recognise the knowledge and wisdom that leads you to become a better person reaching out with the senses of your soul.

Nevertheless, do not absorb the negative speech spoken over you by people, for they know which is appropriate for them and in which they try to implement upon you. In such a case, use the Torah (instructions) to become your teacher along the way. For whatever words that they try to implement can be so different from what is written. Never neglect the people who tries to impact you with the truth. In an image of honesty where they allow you to take the decision for yourself and still they give you a helping hand to stand up whenever you fall. For in that sense, you might have found a true one friend in a godly manner.

Remember the story of Adam and Eve. There was no plot. But it was made in the essence of truth where in the beginning, mankind were complete with the fullness of good.

But because of mankinds attitude of being easily swayed… Failure came and drafted mankind to think its the end.
Failure lets you go where your footsteps could never take you. And in every failure you know how to return..

Never forget…
Without failure, we can never truly reach into the depths of our souls. Only once we have failed can we return and reach higher and higher without end.

The performance of the Blossoms

The performance of the Blossoms

Life had always been a season of learning. A season of growing and a season of bloom. A season of withering and a season of starting all over again.

When we see how the tree, which during the winter was dry and withered, yet hidden underneath was the roots filled with nourishment but scared of the outside world.. we think of life sometimes to be the same.. Yet as we see the spring comes and shines over the dry and withered tree, it starts to awaken and replies with the glimmering of the small leaves and small seeds to be ready and is soon to be in full bloom, suddenly we are revitalized. When we watch the transformation of nature, we gain the courage and inspiration to lift out of our despair, and it reminds us that God has given us the tools to renew ourselves.

We gain the courage to lift out of despair, to renew ourselves.

We live in a time when it’s a struggle to keep hope alive. All that is decent in mankind seems to be impatient against forces so irrational and evil that peace seems to be beyond what any thought can elaborate.

And yet… the trees give us a message of hope. They show us how after a period of barreness and drought despair and sadness comes the bloom and incomparable great perfume.. The gladness it brings and the signs of life that the flower represents. We all are like flowers that blooms in time and withers after ita purpose. Yet under the times of our excellence we perform the beauty which was cultivated by trials and forces of darkness before bloom. And we will always bloom in time… Under the hands of God we are nurtured very well!